day 3 since my relapse, not been tempted to gamble with the small amount of money I have left to last me the rest of the month, have just £10 a day to live on so have to put myself on an austerity budget for the month, so furious with myself I relapsed, I never seem to think I have enough money each month, that with the thril and buzz from gambling led me to this latest relapse on Friday, I am so furious with myself, I have just started CBT for anxiety and my habit of seemingly self destruct, I am sure if I asked my sister for my £7k savings back I would gamble that, (probably on stocks in the aim market). At least I have not had the urge to blow the little amount I have left to last me the month
Hello,
Welcome to the forum. Like myself the urge to gamble is the thrill of getting a lot of money. I am 22 and earn a very good wage, more than most adults in the working world but I always want more. I have come to realise that this isn't the case and any amount of money is never enough. Only 14 days ago i was sitting their with 10k in bgo account which is an extortionate amount of mkney. For me this wasn't enough. I could not understand at the time that this was 4 months work for me and wanted to make more. I ended up losing all that money.
Compulsive gamblers like ourselves can never win because nothing is ever enough. I am 7 days in and feeling brilliant. This time I am determined and reading through other journals really helps.
I pray for you that this time you can get by the demon of gambling and get through it.
Adam, 22
Hi Guy74
Glad to see your using the forum to help you manage your recovery process. I know it can sometimes be a really hard and wondered if you might like to try posting in the recovery diary section to help. You may find it useful to keep a daily account of how you are doing. I have copied this post in the recovery diary section to encourage you a bit and hope that it makes some difference. So if you do decide that you would like to use the recovery diaries your post is there to make it a bit easier for you to start.
All the best
Cade
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