Day 50

Congratulations Roxy. 👏👏👏👏👌. So pleased for you.  Keep up your great work in remaining g.f and keeping hold of your money. 💪

Pink Lady 🩷🍎.

Great news Roxy. So good to see how you've progressed. I bet its a huge relief to have the secret out there now. This will help you so much in your progress. You are now accountable to someone other than you which does wonders to keep you focused.

Congrats 👍 

Hi

Our honesty in a healthy way is part of emotional intimacy.

Our honesty is possible with reduced fears and healed pains.

Understanding our unhealthy emotional triggers is important in us healing in healthy ways.

Anger Agressions just indicators pains not healed, an unhealthy person uses Anger Agressions to transfer their pains fears or frustrations on to other people directly or indirectly.

People who are frustrated are having unreasonable expectations of people life and situations, it is not other people hurting us, by me having unreasonable expectations I am hurting my self.

There are many references to what we think are fears, Anxiety, stress frustrations and panicking for me when I react in unhealthy ways to my fears I am often very unsettled and do not feel productive in my life.

The highest of fears was a very unhealthy panicking, once I reached this high level 10 out of 10 panicking I was not able to think clearly and sort things out in a healthy way.

Panicking for me was very unhealthy and unless I reduced my fears I was going to say or do some very unhealthy things.

So in life if we are healthy people we interact with al people in healthy ways. 

Dave L

Thank you guys so much 😊 . You are spot on fish, its such a relief to share it with him. He was hurt that I hadnt told him before ,but told me hes very proud of me and will do anything he needs to do to support me.

Day 51

Still going strong, but feeling even stronger with my man by my side with no secrets :). The urges are still there, but I grow more and more confident in myself and my strength of will with every passing day. 

Day 52

Darts today, European championships. And a swim before it started. And a bit of Liverpool vs arsenal in the break. And even though my partner has a (free) wager on it, I'm just watching the game like I used to before I met gambling Roxy. It's amazing, I didn't realise before that gambling Roxy stole my love of football. But it's OK, because I've taken it back, and it's so good to be watching without hoping for a certain number of corners. And please no ribbing if my beloved liverpool didn't claw it back and win the game.

So lots of sports thoughts today and not gambling ones 

Day 53

So after speaking to my gamcare counsellor last Friday, she made me realise that the fact I was still doing my free spins was keeping the reward circuit going in my brain. So I stopped doing it since, and also no playing on demos. I think that was my way of weaning myself off, still doing the free spins. When I quit smoking I did it by cutting down slowly.

I've found it surprisingly difficult to stop doing the free spins, so my counsellor was right to call me out about it. But I have stopped, and won't be doing it again. 

Just for today I will not gamble. 

Day 56

I am starting to look back at gambling Roxy and I find it harder and harder to recognise that idiot as being a part of me. Why oh why did I allow her to have the reigns? One of my lodgers was a gambler and I honestly could not understand the lunacy and compulsion that drove him to destroy anything good in his life. I was so smug back then, so secure was i in the knowledge I would never be so stupid.

Even when I first opened the door to gambling Roxy, I would still watch my other half burn through a few hundred quid and I would be incredulous at the futility of it all. It would never happen to me. I only spent what I could afford, and would sensibly withdraw winnings when they came along.

Ha ha ha and then it all went so wrong...... I am so thankful to have found this forum and I am so grateful for the support. 

Just for today I will not gamble.