Today I overcame my biggest fear and I admitted to my mum that I have a gambling addiction. It was the scariest and hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. I was dreading rejection, I felt hugely ashamed, embaressed but most of all I felt I had let her down.
She opened her arms and was there for me, it was incredible. I felt so alone until today, so isolated and scared. Constant anxiety and depression has been ruling my life, today I make a change.
I also had my first appointment with a gam care councillor, truly lovely man, came out feeling like I'm not on my own, I have a future to look to, so do we all.
Please everybody open up, it's the best thing I've ever done. I'm 24, in huge amounts of debt because of my addiction but I now see a future, just from today.
Congratulations,thats a massive step.Your not on your own here,glad you can see a future. Good luck.
Good luck Emmalou. You can overcome this. We are all in the same boat
Thanks guys, back to work today. Start a normal life again
Hi Emmalou,
It takes a lot of courage to admit our gambling addiction to our loved ones, well done for doing that.
I wish you the very best on your journey,
Suzanne x
Hi,welcome to the forum,well done for having the nerve to come clean,it must have been very difficult,I think sometimes we underestimate the love of our families,I'm sure that this honesty will bring you all even closer and they will be immensely proud of you for overcoming your addiction,that alone will give you extra motivation I'm sure,keep up the good work,it's hard that first week but I promise you it gets easier!
Hi guys,
Thanks for your responses 🙂
Feeling ok. Keep getting those butterfly urges, been blocked from my will hill account so can't get on there at all. its hard, need to find something to fill my time.
Any suggestions? Cheap ones would be appreciated, and sleep tips. Struggling to sleep
Love to you all and good luck on your journeys xx
Hi Emmalou, I'm afraid the lack of sleep (& probably mood swings) is a by product of the early days of recovery...On the plus side, it must be @ least marginally better than the constant anxiety you were feeling & this will improve! As far as the other request goes, NT started a thread the other day - Tips on keeping busy which should really help! You don't mention a blocker which I would suggest if you haven't already installed one....I haven't done my damage online but there are people on here that swear by them! You may need your lovely Mum to set some passwords I think?
Welvome to recovery, hopefully getting your words out here will help you release some of the tension...I hope you manage some proper shut eye tonight! Stay strong & you can do this - ODAAT
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