Day one

Well 27 days in to my gf life style be honest with having this site it's not been as hard I thought be honest I've not thought of anything else but to gamble I've tried numerous times to stop and failed but this time I have to think I gamble in secret I've run up personal debts and my family have no Idea  I gamble so I keep thinking how would I feel for my family to find out about my secret problem and it makes me feel sick to my stomach early days for me gambled 35 years but no going back now to much to loose x thanx

Thank you you too 27 days now x

Well 27 days since I last gambled should feel good but I don't because I've been a secret gambler for years my family have no I dea  I'm a (responsible ) person intelligent so I should no better but gambling got me big time  I feel sick at the debt I have equimalated feel sick to my stomach and all of a sudden discussions in the family this week are about trust etc when we're watching tv and events what's happened in people's life etc of lately have brought the topic up and family have Sat there and said to me at least we tell truth and have never done anything to hurt each other like dishonesty I felt like screaming I'm a liar I've never felt as guilty in my life I'm on day 27 gf  am I only just feeling bad and thinking everything is relating to me I love my family and this is it for me for good my mindset is only just realizing what I have to loose I no it's awful of me but if I get a way with it and no one finds out I will be a changed person and debts even though there big can be my goal to pay them off a bit each time 

Time is the best healer....

27 days is great. 

Stick with it. 

People are often wracked with emotions in early days... (guilt, shame, depression etc)

- Why did I do it?

- Why didn't I stop sooner?

- I can never undo the damage I have done...

- What's the point?

That is just your addiction trying to make you feel so bad that you pick up again...

You are beating it and the longer you stay clean the better you will feel and the better your life will become...

"The two most powerful warriors are patience and time."

Leo Tolstoy

Good luck...

Excellent spendspendspend,

It is good to hear that you have installed Gamban. The more protection from gambling triggers the better. A good step in the right direction for sure. 

You can try to find ways of filling your gambling free time, perhaps challenge yourself to try a new hobby? We are here to support you, so give us a call or chat via the Netline. 

With all good wishes

Forum Admin

Thank you 

Here go's 35 days gf I've never been off this site reading and writing but it's working for me as I cannot gamble no more got gamban in place so because I no that it's been much easier well hope it's in place never tried to see if it's working but it's a long journey but think I've just got my head out the clouds for one and feel much better a long way to go yet and a lot of debt to clear but my heads in the right place for once think it was boredom for me but started watching box sets instead and actually thinking how I afforded to gamble but reality is I couldn't really just ran a large overdraft up and other sources one step at a time but just did it without thinking but no more this sight as got me out of routine of gambling and really helped me thanx 

Well done this is nice to read. I am 9 days gf but my anxiety is up the wall regarding my bills and outstanding balances from gambling

I have too become a fan of box sets and film trials so I don't have to listen to adverts 

I think this site is really helpful too

35 Days Gambling Free!

Well done! Of course you can! We all can, make our lives great again! 

It's all step by step process, your head is after 35 days of Gambling Detox your mind is focused, its great to hear your keeping well and staying away from the Dark World, and finding new interests that can fulfil the time which otherwise would be wasted on self destruction.

Congratulations on 35th Day Gambling Free! 

Artur

Good effort guys. Reading your comments is encouraging! Keep it going! We’ll all get there...

P.s. just finished watching season 1 of The Mist on Netflix. It’s worth a watch.

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Oooo ill have a nosey thankyou 

Thanx for support unbaleivable is good 

I'm starting to feel like this is getting easier 38 days gf just keep reminding myself I never won always lost in the end the frustration what gambling brought me guilt ,upset,angry,lies I don't want to ever go through those feelings again thanx to gamcare and the people for there support I think I've got this and I no it as to be forever x

You're doing well mate... Well done! Counting days I find hard. 

Hi

Learn from the past do not live in it.

The recovery program is a healing process.

I needed to abstain from my addictions obsessions and learn to spend more time doing healthy things.

On walking in to the recovery the person I was then is not the person I am today.

I was not an evil person, I was not an bad person.

I was just a very vulnerable person who would escape people life and situations I could not cope with.

The importance of the recovery program is to keep attending and put more time effort in to my recovery than I put in to my unhealthy habits.

Please do not give up on your self.

Live one day at a time.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham