dazed one

Wish I knew how to bring up the song, but give katy perry, ROAR song a listen. Awesome tune. Yeah cause I wanna hear ya roar. Lol

Hey girl. Wow what a post. You get it ALL down darling... keep writing and spitting f.ucking poison out!

I have fate in you. Patience is the key...if you are not ready today, you never know how you feel about it tomorrow.

I can feel the anger coming out from you, you are very close to making it stop. Just put the last dot on the paper and turn next clean sheet.

You can do it and as soul says let us hear you ROAR!!!;-)

Allways here for you (((Carla)))

No judgement...just understanding and support i can give away..

Keep taking deep breaths

And look after yourself

Sandra x

Hai Carla...

Roaring you on with the others Carla.

http://youtu.be/thuViaxRd_w

Once again, thank you.

Having some connection troubles this morning so have to keep it short for now. Will try to have an attitude of gratitude today for all I have.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KwkqAmLGDDE

Hey Carla,

Thanx for the lovely post...Yea i can be ur angel...with little devil horns lol

In all honesty i believe in you, and all you have to do...is to believe in yourself. We are here anytime of the day .((((Carla))))...Unconditional xx

Wish you to have a lovely day ( g free) of course 😉

Sandra x

Yeah couldn't get on this site myself for a good long time Saturday into Sunday, must be redoing stuff.

Wishing ya a good week coming at ya and yaaaah no mice stuck to the traps yesterday. Lol

@#$##@@#!@#! Wrote such a long post twice and lost it BOTH times!! Bloody hell.... Later, I guess.... too frustrated now.

OK, one more try. Seem to manage to write on others' diaries but not mine. Cloudless and very blue sky today. Beautiful splashes of colour everywhere with the leaves falling gently from time to time. I am taking time to appreciate the beauty of it on this Thanksgiving day here. I'm not always grateful for what I have and need to remind myself so good that Thanksgiving exists. Very thankful for GamCare buds and should acknowledge also the people who run it. Thank you. As predicted, my bro called and despite having in mind that I was going to decline any and all invitations this weekend, I accepted once I determined that his mother-in-law was not going to be there. Can't stand her... nasty woman who seems to enjoy making others feel bad. Watched a vid this a.m. which resonated with me.... I'm never going to feel like making the changes that I need to but must make. Somebody somewhere on this forum once said "nothing changes if nothing changes" (sorry, can't remember who) and that is so true. So... I will try harder to make changes... even if that means going to rehab. Funny how we're our own worst enemy. Again, spent too many hours doing nothing this weekend but also forced myself to make some long overdue phone calls and a wee bit of yardwork. Will force myself to do a bit more, shower and then head to my bro's for a turkey feast. Will force myself to turn my frown upside down!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lp7E973zozc

Hi Carla,

I am in Massachusetts but a friend of mine from Nova Scotia celebrates Canadian Thanksgiving every year by having dinner at her place. That is is where I am heading off to right now. We say "Canadian Thanksgiving" because the American version is next month. That's right. We celebrate Thanksgiving twice. Yeeeha! Happy Thanksgiving Carla! -joanxxxx

Well happy thanksgiving and glad your gonna spend time with your family, I'm sure it will do ya some good. Boy thanksgiving early over there and don't have that here till November. Yeah guess no oh likes change but when It's so destructive what were doing how can we say no to it. Wish there was a easy way to make it all go away. Hell think they'd have a pill for that by now. Lol Yup one simple dose and instant amnesia.lol lol lol yeah to good to be true.

Boy land lord was here earlier to check out the joint. Must of gave them a call cause yeah he returned slamming doors and banging on walls. Lol guess if they ain't gonna get their deposit back he wants to make sure there's enough damage to fit the cost. Lol lol lol

Hi Carla,

Thanx for popping in. And happy Thanksgiving ( i heard about it, but haven't got it in my country)

Anyway, we got a saying in my country " Stubborn as goat" .that's why i tried to use it on my tread the other day:-) I am a Gemini by star sign. Split personality as i say ( my own best friend and worst enemy).

Anyway, good stuff going on for you. Wish you all the best and keep fighting the good fight...YOU ARE WORTH IT!!

Sandra x

Thanks for the Thanksgiving wishes, folks! I am very glad that I did go to my brother's yesterday. Funny how something we don't want to do can turn into something we're glad we did. My sister-in-law loaded me up with leftovers too so that will help me with the puny budget I have for getting through this month, not to mention, she's a superb cook. Day has taken a turn as I just got a call from someone I met in distress.... a foreigner who needs both a dentist and a doctor asap. She'll be here any minute so I'd best get dressed and eat something. Wishing all a gamble free day.

Thank you for the comment on my Diary, Carla. It means a lot for you to have taken the time to do that for me. One day at a time is my motto. My gambling problem went on for two years, others for longer, I know this, but we can all get out of the loop and get free of it. Stay strong and beat this. You can do it.

Best wishes

Alex

Hi Carla,

I have tried to read as much of your thread as I can.

You sound a remarkable person who is determined to overcome this vile compulsion.

Its amazing how we believe people especially family members are interfering when in fact they are trying to help, they may be totally out of their depth in trying to understand our illness but are desperate for us to stop destroying our lives.

Some people have posted some profound comments which I will use to suppport my own recovery, one thing I will say I believe you are on the right tracks to rewiring and discovering the real person without gambling.

This in itself is a truly remarkable accomplishment.

Keep up the great work you are doing and maybe one day you will send us some of that lovely fresh veg you are growing. This is what life is about, back to nature not artificial flashing lights and automated sounds that use trickery and con us out of hard earned money.

I respect you Carla for your honesty and committment.

My best wishes and am not sure about dates, but Happy Thanksgiving to you. (I am across the pond).

Hope x

Thank you. Thank you.

Full of self doubt, as usual, but committed to plodding on. Continue to feel guilty for being off work but when I hear the horror stories from coworkers, I manage to lose the guilt for a little while. Glad I have an ipod to help drown out the thoughts in my head. Will try to use it today. Know I won't gamble today but still, only because I can't. Pretty sure that if I had the dough, I'd be heading in the wrong direction again. Moody.