dazed one

Woops meant to add get well soon, you know the cold weathers here - everyones ill!! Take care.

Hai Good Cyber Bud

Means a lot seeing your supportive posts so thankyou so much.

You've heard it all before but we do need to keep on on keeping on. It is hard tackling these cross addictions but we do need to kick them all into touch and give life a chance with out these ball and chains. Your doing the work Carla as well as supporting others, so top marks to you.

Tell that cold and the casino to f***k right off.

Wishing you well

(((((C)))))

Thanks, Paul. So, so sick with the flu. Just checking in (and out) for the day.

Hi Carla

Thanks for the support on the thread I did, see ur always supportive and very active round the forum and for me that's what makes this wonderful site work, something to always be proud bout

Hope u feel better soon nothing worse than feeling badly esp flu symptoms, look after urself

Castle2

Hi Carla,

Hope you feel better soon.look after yourself.

( hot milk with honey really takes temperature down, sooths your throat and calms ur body, a lot better for sleep too)

I wish u well

S x

Hi Carla

Great to hear your felling better & thanks for your post 🙂

Nothing worse than having flu when there is snow and ice outside, it makes you feel really miserable. I hope you have managed to sweat out those gambling urges from the high temperature.... keep battling Carla, we are all with you. Dark Place x

Thanks for the well wishes, all. This ol' gal is slowly coming back to life. My throat is still quite sore, though, not nearly what it was. Couldn't swallow anything solid at all before and today I managed to eat some toast. With that and all the exercise I've had of late, I'm sure I've lost some weight. Not good. I need my clothes to fit when I go back to work. I can't afford to buy new ones. My left leg is very sore too. Either I pulled a muscle while shovelling that heavy snow the other day or I've been kicking up a storm in my sleep. I don't think I've ever slept so much in my life but I may have to pay now. Tonight, I tossed and turned for 3 hours and finally just got up so it's the middle of the night. Been on the computer for a couple of hours now and finally starting to yawn so maybe I'll turn in. Didn't have that hot rum toddy I wanted either! More tomorrow morning. Night night.

Hai Carla

Off to zzz land you go. Need you back to full strength in this daily battle. Hot toddy and sheep counting.

As always wishing you well

Awe sorry to hear your not feeling well. Sooner work any day than feel like Sh-it. Hope your feeling better soon.

Thankyou thankyou Paul and Soul.

MIRACLES HAPPEN!

Woke after only 3 hours sleep feeling out of sorts, as usual, but phone rang shortly after waking. My sis had a call from her doctor....

NO CANCER !!! WHOOOOOO HOOOOOO!

Mood changed in an instant. It's going to be a good, good day!

Hope and Miracles!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJxxdQox7n0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZ46Ot4_lLo

http://matadornetwork.com/bnt…social&utm_campaign=promo

http://www.huffingtonpost.com…ds-got-talent-_n_4173750.html

Good morning Carla

Fantastic regarding your Sister. And some top links there, goes to show this amazing human spirit we all possess. Slowly tapping back into ours and enjoying our journey without the crutches.

Have a superb day

Over the moon for you and your sister darling xx

Have a lovely and enjoyable day

Take care

S x

Carla

Thanks so much for the advice and support, I have today got myself some reading material regarding dealing with the gout and will follow your advice too.

Great news regarding your sister, something No win can ever bring news like that, makes for great inspiration to continue with abstinence.

Thankyou for sharing.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Love this community. Thanks again folks.

What a strange, strange week it's been for me. I've never slept so much as in the first part of the week and so little as in the latter part. Last night was theeeee worst. I think I experienced ALL of the anxiety and tension I've spent so many years avoiding with my crutches all at once and all night long. Toss turn, toss turn, change clothes. Toss turn, toss turn, change clothes.............................Yesterday began with the usual sleep deprivation, followed by the elation of the news from my sister, but after that my mood plummeted. I went from feeling extreme joy in the morning to picking a fight with the poor woman in the evening. The evening phone conversation ended civilly but not without tension. Stupid flu. Stupid sore leg. Stupid anxiety. I think I'd deal with it all better if I could have exercised but my leg prevented that. It feels better today so I may go for a walk. The abstinence from nicotine is, without a doubt, the most difficult for me. Having smoked for close to 40 years now, and heavily for 35 of those, I have never quit. I've only ever gone a day, I think, and that was because I flew to Hong Kong (even then, I think I wore a patch). I don't understand how people can quit and start up again. I NEVER want to feel this way again and it had better start getting better soon. I've come very close to giving in (on one or the other addiction) a few times the past couple of days. Maybe this is just happening so extremely because of abstaining from everything at once? And I really hate how it affects my ability to concentrate too. When I read a simple sentence, I often have to read it three times or more. I forget what I'm in the middle of doing. I forget where I'm going. They say "hang in there", the urges will stop or distract yourself. Haha. The urges return within about 30 seconds at worst and 5 minutes if I'm lucky. With gambling, I get the urges intensely and constantly only when I have money not needed for survival. When I don't, I seem to accept it a little easier. I've eaten more sunflower seeds lately than Big Bird would have in the entire time Sesame Street ran. OK, focus now. I was remembering a video I once saw about how to spot a liar. One of the things mentioned was that liars often talk in the third person (and I wish I knew that when I was married 'cause my ex did it constantly). Anyway, this got me to thinking about myself and in particular, how I write quite often... in "no person". I just leave the subject out... kind of like "I" don't exist. Hell, why include it since I don't feel significant most of the time anyway! I just find that interesting. Last week when I visited my sis we had quite a few interesting conversations. I was appalled and disturbed to find out that besides her blood pressure pills, she takes 3 other heavy duty meds which I won't go into the details of (all 3 being addictive). And she isn't even 50. When I pointed it out to her, it seemed to resonate with her so I hope she continues to think on that. She is very unhappy in her marriage. I doubt they'll make it to their 25th in a couple of years. She mentioned her hubby has become a hoarder of sorts (and it turns out he did take the electronic cig she gave me which he heard me say I couldn't find...grrrr). Then she said that she's heard it is quite common for that to happen to folks (become hoarders) after they've experienced a large or a number of large financial losses. By golly, if I don't hoard a few things myself (as does she). I don't go around taking other people's things, but if free samples are being given out, I'll take more than my fair share if the opportunity arises and sometimes with things I don't even need. And don't get me going about chocolate. I remember hiding behind a guy's display curtain at a convention because there was a slit right where the chocolate samples were and I could easily grab a handful without being seen! Well, in my defence I think I also have an addiction to chocolate covered nuts.

Wish these withdrawal symptoms would leave. I have so much to do but I'm just letting the days go by.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZRILLqV0l58