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Great post, made interesting reading, can relate too several of the statements. Well done on 42 days, 4 for me today.

Great post Ade. I really related to a lot of what you said, particularly about doing it because of already being down or wanting one more go. This for me has been both the cause and downfall of my recent episodes. In the last 2 years I have gambled a handful of times, normally drunk and 3am and old habits. I then chase, and I do it because of the last time when despite losing, I was up at one stage so if I stop when I'm up I'll be fine, and can forget the whole episode. I used to be able to stop when I was up, I can't anymore. But until it's happening I can still persuade myself I can. There are even times when I am physically saying "stop" and doing nothing until it's all gone. And the cycle continues...

congratulations on your progress! I hope you (and really hope I) remember that post when we try and persuade ourselves we will be able to stop when ahead and not lose everything again

Hi Ade

Great post by the way,thanks for the support just feels like i'm banging my head against a brick wall at the moment.

I thought it would be getting easier by now,but far from it!

Thanks again Dino

Thanks amt1974, gingermotty and DINO for your supportive posts.

Have been feeling a little tired and stressed today. Just generally down for some reason or another. Can't quite put my finger on it, but haven't been sleeping that well lately, so most probably to do with that.

No inkling to gamble whatsoever, so that's still a major positve on this journey.

Keep strong all

Ade

Hi Ade,

Good to read no inkling to gamble, 46 days today, only 4 til the big 50, stay strong and focused.

Suzanne xx

Thanks for the post Suzanne.

46?.....I make it 43 myself!! ;0)

Still, it's great to keep adding these days up one by one.

Stay strong

Ade

Whoooops Ade, should practise what I preach lol,,one day at a time, but you will sooon be 46 days, lol.

(Just testing you actually to see if you were counting your days properly lol)

Just make sure you stay 211 days behind me always.

Suzanne xxxxx

Oh forgot to say well done on 43 days xxxxx

& a well done on 44 🙂

Hopefully you're @ the stage now that duncanmac mentioned about @ some point it becomes more important not to bet than it is to place one!

Ever onwards - ODAAT

Hi Ade.

Thanks for welcoming me back. Great to see you doing so well. Keep it up my friend.

Curly.

Hi Ade,

I read your recent post, and one thing I empathize with is using gambling as a way of punishing yourself. I might not have taken a knife to my forearm, but in many ways the self harming I did watching video poker reels spinning around was even more damaging.

You're also absolutely right that the further away from gambling you get, the more your ego, self-confidence and all the other aspects of your personality recover. All those things that gambling strips away, recovery gives back.

All the best mate,

Ryan

Hi Ade,

Very well done in your ongoing journey and you are doing so well!! Keep up the good work, every day counts. A step further from self destruction, a step closer to peace, happiness and freedom you so deserve.

keep on keeping on!

Sandra xxx

Thanks Suzanne, ODAAT, Curly, Ryan and Sandra for your supportive posts.

So nice to log on here and see such great support.

Not too much to report really. Still going strong, with no inkling to undo all the hard work that I have put into these last 45 days.

Looking forward to visiting my Uncle in Ireland next weekend. Flying over to see him on my own, as my Aunt passed away just before Christmas, and I was unable to make the funeral due to my pleurisy.....

So nice to have something to look forward to now that I am back fighting fit again. Be nice to see him as he is my godfather too, and 83 now, but as fit as a fiddle!

Been a busy week at work, which is good for me too. Although I really have not had any desire, need, want or urge to gamble. I think it may be due to the fact that I am feeling a lot better about myself again in general. The negative cloud has cleared and I am again looking at the bigger picture of my life.

My golfballs fill the jar just nicely. That's enough for me, it really is.....

Keep strong all

Ade

47 up.

All is good.

Ade

Well done Ade 47 up is very good.

Take care

Suzanne xx