Top darts! Day 180!!
Nice day today. Kept myself busy with my degree study. Cooked some food. Cleaned the house and changed the bed sheets. Gambling was not even in my mind. It rarely is these days.
I still check in on here at least 10 times a d at though. I think keeping that commitment and reading others stories really solidifies my hatred towards gambling and keeps me focused. Nice to get updates on others progress too.
Picking up pooch tomorrow for 2 nights which I’m looking forward to.
Stay strong 💪
Nice one fish, one hundred and eighty! Just been playing darts with him indoors, we mostly play round the clock though. We are both mad darts fans.
Fantastic as always Fish.
Once again inspiring me to keep on the right path. Enjoy the time with your pooch!
@p6z38njbqm All sounding good Fish 👏👏👏👌. Enjoy your time with your doggy 🐶.
Take care.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
Thanks all, and good to see you back on here pinklady. Well done to everyone for sticking with it.
Day 181 - doggo day!
That means early wake up call so already in bed.
Been quite a few things to read lately. Some folk doing great. Some folk are new and struggling. All I can say to the new folk is to read everything in here. This place seemed to take the place of gambling for me. I was in here constantly. I still am. So much positive stories, but also reminders of why we are here. Gambling ruins lives. Not just the gambler, but those around them. Take the advice offered in here and use it. No one recovery journey is the same but it all needs one thing. Honesty. With yourself, and others. This is the toughest part. Gamblers lie without even knowing it. It just happens. It’s second nature. That’s hard to change, but so worthwhile. Quitting has made me a much better person.
Stay strong 💪
Day 182
No thoughts of gambling. Many many steps done. Dog bathed after he rolled in horse P**P! In bed ready for my early morning wake up call. Wasn’t too bad this morning. Out the door by 06:00.
Work all weekend after I drop the pooch off early tomorrow morning.
Stay strong 💪
Day 183 (slightly more as I didn’t join here until a few days after quitting)
Officially 6 months since I last placed a bet. It’s been a rollercoaster! Amazing how much life can change in that timeframe. Amazing to think what would have happened if I hadn’t come clean, or if I had stayed with my ex. Things I can never know, so things I shouldn’t think about.
Still on track to be debt free by the new year. Still doing well at saving. Still enjoying the freedom not gambling brings.
Im not cured, I’ll never be cured, but I’m 6 months into being a much better version of me, and that person is getting better everyday.
Here’s to the next 6 months. 1 day at a time. The only way it can be done.
Stay strong 💪
Congrats mate, reading about your back pay on the military pension and you getting closer to becoming debt-free made me so happy. That's one of my biggest beliefs: keep your head up, do what you can, and opportunities and rewards will come.
Two different dates with a 6-month difference are like two opposite poles. Only you know, mate, the state you were in just over 6 months ago, and look where you are now. That's something to be proud of.
Stay strong, Fish. It's a big pleasure reading your thread.
p6z38njbqm absolutely incredible achievement Fish. I am so proud of you.
The journey that you have been on over the past 6 months has been epic and encouraging to read. Thanks for sharing it.
Like Pink says, it is defo treat time!
Here is to another GF 6m and GF life for us all 🍻
Thanks again all. I’m blown away by the support you guys keep offering. It’s difficult to stay positive all the time, you all know this, but I think the support we all manage to find for each other, even in the dark times, is amazing. I sincerely hope everyone who starts their own journey or continues on the one they are on, finds as much freedom and happiness as I have thanks to the support offered by complete strangers! None of you feel like strangers. We are all in this as one.
Day 184 - enough of the soppy stuff!
Still feeling good, still no urges, treated myself to a bookcase (rock and roll) and some coffee pods. See what riches you can achieve 😂
Had a great session in the group chat tonight. Highly recommend if you haven’t joined one. Now I must sleep. Up for work again tomorrow and I’m super tired.
Stay strong 💪, and thanks again
Day 185.
Knackered after work. Nice and easy entry today. Feeling happy, feeling free, feeling tired!
Stay strong 💪
Hey fish,
Well done on your continued journey and keep reaping the rewards abstinence offers!
Keep safe, one day at a time
Thanks mate, appreciate it. Hope you are doing well.
Day 186.
What a great bunch of people there are on here. So many lives ruined by gambling coming together to support each other. Just goes to show how nice we can all be when we are completely open and honest. Take that to the real world and beat this addiction.
Nothing to report today. Tried to remember when I last had a thought about gambling. I honestly can’t remember. Gambling pops into my head throughout the day, but mostly that’s as I think about this site, others stories, my own story. I still have a massive grudge against gambling for what it’s taken from me. That is just as strong as it was on day 1. I hope I can say that for many years to come.
Off to bed now. 4 early starts in a row and picking dog up early tomorrow to get him groomed. Expensive haircut for a little dog, but he’s worth it!
Stay strong 💪
187
Today has been my toughest day in a long long time. Not gambling wise, that has been fine. Still detest it. Still never going back. Emotionally though different story.
My ex told me today that she may be made redundant. Instantly I went into caring husband mode in my head and thought of ways I could protect her, help her, comfort her. I hate the thought of her struggling through this alone. It tore me up.
Then I thought, this is not my job anymore. Ultimately, she asked me to leave. I take full responsibility for that and don’t blame her, but I still feel responsible for her. I know deep down if we had stayed together, it wouldn’t have worked. I know I would still have quit. It was my time, my breaking point, but I know she would never trust me. I did this to her, and now she is in need and I can’t help. There are other factors that I’ve not put in here as to why we couldn’t work, but the overwhelming emotion today has been that my wife needs me, and I’m not there.
I have been coping well with the split. I know we are done. It’s just a part of my brain that switched into protective mode today and made me question everything. There’s nothing I can do. She’s not my wife anymore, she may not even lose her job, but still, my husband gene kicked in!
Things have been going well so I suppose it’s only natural to have a rough day. In the plus side, mr pooch is with me and has been to the groomers. He smells like a baby 😂
Stay strong 💪
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