Dilemma

Good morning. Pleased to say that I'm still gamble free. I just so happened to be at home yesterday afternoon. As I was sorting the house out I put five live on the radio. All the results were coming in and it reminded me of Saturdays in the past....the coupon, the races. It made me feel a little uncomfortable. The golf continue to improve, a net 66 was good enough to win yesterday and brings me down to 5. I'm stronger mentally and much more positive. All signs of a recovery. Keep strong in your battles, a better life awaits you. Russ

Hi Russ

Good to see you are still gamblefree.You will soon be playing off scratch.With all this spare time you have for practicing. Im off for a knock myself now at the local course in Cheshire Knights grange i dont know if you have ever played it.Its well looked after for a municipal.I wouldnt mind a 66 ,but way out of my reach kid (13).Hey them football results dont hurt as much when you have not done your wages on them thogh do they? lol.All the best Jeff.

congrats Russ on being bet free. your doing a brilliant job! just keep it up. all the best JAMIE

Hi Russ,good to read that all is going well for you mate,....all is fine with me,i still read the diaries every couple of days even though i post way less.

Seano.

Sport is here for us to enjoy as ENTERTAINMENT and not GAMBLING!

And you seem to be enjoying sport for all the right reasons.

Well done, and keep it up!

November

Morning Russ.

Well done on the net 66 mate. Your golf really does seem to be improving whilst you remain gamble free. A bit more discipline in your life translating to a bit more discipline on the golf course perhaps?

As for Everton mate i have to say i am furious with our start to the season and i think Moyes needs to take a lot of the blame. I'm getting sick of his fixation with playing 451. No doubt we will come good soon but i think we can already rule out top 6.

Keep up the good work mate.

Russ1,

Congratulations so far with your recovery. Keep the focus and keep your diary going.

It's unbelieveable how many people think they have this thing cracked, even after a couple of years, and then go back harder and more compulsively. I much prefer the thoughts of us swapping messages in ten years time even though there may be little to talk about besides your upcoming entry on the ryder cup team or your standing on the Fedex Cup:-)

Good luck kto you Russ and keep the focus as always. P.s. thanks for the message on my diary.

Brian

thanks for the post russ...good to see alls well with you (well apart from the toffeemen 😀 )...stay positive mate we can do this 😉

Hi Russ

Thanks for your post mate, glad to read how well you are doing.

Your right, our families are far more important than them mind numbing machines. When i first started my recovery i used to dream of walking into arcades with a baseball bat and smashing those machines up..Now i just feel sorry for the people who are hooked on them, when i think about it i just think how pathetic i was gambling and not putting my sons first! But yet i still miss them, how sad am i!!! I am a far better parent now than i was a year ago tho, thats what i hold on to.

How old are your children? sorry to be so nosey..

Guess it will always be human nature to crave for thngs we can no longer have.

Anyway sorry, i dribbling away on your diary. Hope you have had a nice weekend and i hope you have a good week ahead. take care, ands

Hello Russ!

Tnx 4 post!

You ok?...Well I really do feel happy about myself...Although I always seem to find something or other to worry about...lol.....Hope everythings going ok 4u.

Fast li£e

Good morning, the sun is back and I'm feeling positive. It's my little girls first birthday tomorrow....my wife came into the kitchen this morning and stated that this has been the happiest year of her life! I reminded her that I'd only stopped gambling around 6 months ago! Anyway, I feel our daughter has probably played a big role in that happiness.

On the gambling front, there has been no change. I did have a strange feeling yesterday though. A number of my friends have been involved in buying some oil shares. Some have gone up massively over the last few months. I told them that they should sell and take the profit and be thankful for it. Having said this, my own mind was thinking.......if I had put x amount of money into it....then I would now have y amount of money and we would be able to afford the deposit for a new house etc etc. Clearly this is crazy talk as I know the markets well and I know the dangers (as I told himmat some months ago). What it shows me is how my mind works and the greed that is there. The good thing now is that I recognise this and I'm able to suppress those thoughts.

I have way too much to lose to go back to gambling (in any form). Have a good day all.

Russ

Hi Russ

Thanks for your post mate, ah sweet, we are sooo lucky having our children...Yours are at lovely ages, mine are 8 and 10yrs, my eldest is just starting to develope his pre-teen attitude, lol..

Realy hope your daughter has a very special day tomorrow and i am sure she will!

Our children need us and we need them, we dont need gambling in our lives...Your doing great in your recovery, long may it continue.

Sounds realy nice where you live, especialy with the lake so close. When i go fishing i go down to Hastings, the only thing i have caught tho is seaweed, lol!

Take care Russ, thanks again for your posts and support. ands

I may seem like I am having a real positive time of it at the moment but I really do miss not having a family of my own.

And I had green eyes with envy when I read your post about your wife's comments and that you are looking forward to your little girl's first birthday.

Hope you really enjoy it and just take a little thought to yourself...

"What would life have been like now had I gambled in those 6 months?"

Well done, and keep up with the great work!

November

Hi,

Very positive recent post .... Which brings a smile to my face. 🙂

Fast li£e

Cheers ands, November, and fast life for the posts. It was our little girls 1st birthday......unfortunately I had to be in London for a sales meeting. I made sure I gave her a big cuddle when I got back (even though she was asleep). It makes me sick to think that I was happily gambling away during the first 6 months of her life. That's a total disgrace and something I don't like thinking about. Anyway, things are different now and I intend to keep them that way.