Dilemma

Thanks t&g, wp, curly and Brian. I've not been posting this week, but I have been taking my 'thought medicine' in the form of reading. I often read about sa taking odaat and I do buy into that. As gt states, we are always only one bet away from disaster. Having said this I do have targets. My first is never to place a bet for the rest of my life. I also have a big target before that.....the Thursday of the Cheltenham festival. That date will signify one year of gamble free time. It seems for ever since that day but I need to keep it fresh in my memory. My life and personality has changed so much

since that day. On a personal note, it was my middle child's fourth birthday today....he wanted a volcano party...so that's what we gave him! It's been a really good day. Take care all. Russ

Great post Russ.

I don't mind saying that i read your diary and see the massive difference to your life made since you quit gambling and i think to myself I WANT THAT.

Keep up the great work.

Hi Russ

Yes m8 good that you can give your child that special party.

Big targets Russ.I know you will meet them of this i have no doubt.It must have been a hard first day for you with the Cheltenham festival on.Stay strong Jeff.

Get through that Thursday and you will get through anything! Have a bottle of plonk ready for the end of the day to celebrate!

Getting There

Hi Russ.... how cool is that ' a volcanoe party'.. Thanks for support as always, full on at moment so quiet my side on postings...

Superb you're enjoying new life and personality in your logical way, rather than wasting time/money/cells in the gambling binge. Lot going for you bud, enjoy and respect....

Will toast you Chelts.....

Hey Russ

Thanks again for the post on my diary.

Glad that you are well and had a good party with your child! I found I really enjoyed my son's party so much more this year.

Please don't feel bad at all for giving me a "tough" time when I started my diary. You are so right about people coming on, posting for a week, then leaving. I suspect that it means their acute monetary worries had been temporarliy settled and they went back to gambling? I really needed your "heavy handed" approach. It gave me the kick up the backside I needed and I will always be thankful for that. I won't let you down.

Keep it going mate. Looking forward to thinking of you gamble frre next March

Thanks Curly, Jeff, GT, T&G and Pauls. Its good to hear from you all and see how well things are going. A couple of things this evening. Firstly my wife asked me if I was gambling yesterday. She asked the question as I was watching the football results coming in on the computer and later that evening I turned the computer off as she was coming into the room! This by the way was sheer coincidence, but it did look like gambling behavior. Anyway, I looked her in the eye and said 'no'. Rather than questioning me, she believed me instantly. It shows that the trust I destroyed is back. Earlier in my recovery, the situation would have led to a guaranteed argument....not now.

Secondly, I'm in Glasgow this evening....I have the internet available, =====skysports==== available....Am I going to have a bet.....NO CHANCE.

Take care all

Russ

Hi Russ,i think your wife checking up on you as she did yesterday is very understandable,and my wife is very similar if she has the slightest reason to think i'm behaving in anyway deviously,she will ask me what i'm looking at on the pc,and if i pop out and i'm away longer than she expects i will get a phone call!!!,like you i have a lot of trust back,however she is always on her guard,both for my sake and hers:).

Seano.

Hi Russ,

Thanks for the post mate.

In answer to your question i would say that only my wife knows the full extent of my problem. I've exposed my mum, dad and brothers to my problems but i think they assume that i have had things under control for a few years now when in reality i have just been earning enough money to mask the problem.

A lot of my friends know that i am a heavy gambler but for some reason they assume that i am quite successful at it. That old gambler trait of bragging about your winners whilst keeping schtum about the losses!

Just like you mate i am happy to keep the full extent of my problem between me, the wife and my gamcare buddies.

Keep up the good work pal.

Russ thanks for your post my friend. ..I told the whole bus about my diary and problem on saturday ..we are all different mate as long as it works, that's why we're here ..great progress on the trust front. ..we can do this 🙂

Hi Russ.. just wanted to thank you for your support. Nice to hear that the trust is returning between you and your wife. keep up with the gambling free lifestyle.. am sure you will.. S.A

Hi Russ

Glad that you are doing so well and that relations with your wife are improving all the time.

Thanks so much for all the support that you have shown me. I really look at you as a sort of mentor!

You are doing really well and deserve all the happiness that you get.

Regards

T+G

Hi Russ,thanks for the message,your spot on,i have been posting more freqeuntly these last few days,i've never really stopped reading the forum,just went through a period where i felt i had little constructive to say,and i missed it as well!!.

Seano.

Russ,

Good man on that story with your wife. It will take a long time for us to trust us like they used to... probably never totally the same. Sounds like you are well on your way with that journey.

Stay strong,

Brian

Hello Russ........ good to see things all well in the good 'Russ' house.. Enjoy your posts, short and to the point, no messing!!

Have a good w/end'