Dormant

Not sure if that was a rhetorical question V but can only speak from my own experience...

For me it's about pain...giving up the crutches is like saying goodbye to an old friend who you have outgrown and will feel grief like any loss...xx

Hey,

Every time I pull a sickie I feel worse as well, oh to be not an addict with a reasonable thought process!

Keep at it man your doing better than me!

Geez, I just love ya, bud! You always know just what to say,

So.... I been thinking. Do you get any exercise? I used to be very fit (despite having a less than healthy lifestyle since I was 13) and I know that exercise not only helps the body, but also the mind. I'm not in the worst shape but I'm definitely not fit anymore. Today I forced myself to go for a walk and made sure to include some big ***... yuck... but... I felt better for it. So here's my question....no... my challenge to you. Will you commit to a minimum of 20 minutes exercise (any kind, any intensity and preferably outdoors if possible) beginning today and then every day? I may regret this but I need this and think maybe you do too? Or maybe I'm way off base and you're already a fit as a fiddle gym nut? And I think I'm gonna challenge our buddy "defeated" too.

... made sure to include some big ***... *** to climb up. not sure why it did the star thing to blank out "***"???

So weird... all I said was HILLer (first 3 letters)

Paul

My honourable friend, glad I did not have to get far down page one to find your thread, and more so to find your still active!!

I thought of you today, my eldest has had me on a trip down memory lane the past few days, I have been sharing my love of music with him since he has been able to take it on board and it seems reggae is a common ground we share, dub reggae to be precise, and today it was nice to go into a record shop and find some vynal for him, got me thinking my life is not all been bad, just addiction brought all the sh##it to the surface.

I have a very eclectic taste in music, growing up in the seventies I believe we were spoilt for choice, but with the dub i found my niche, no words, just a way to take me to another place, with that I thought of you, there must be many good memories in there, just the fog of addiction makes them hard to see.

Keep making the right choice, even if you have to rub an onion under them first!!!!!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Bravo and thank you. And one day we'll be able to dismantle the scaffolding surrounding us to reveal a new and improved us.

Don't know if you get this programme in the UK... the characters have to improvise a scene using only each other as props. This episode, featuring exercise guru Richard Simmons, is my fav.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=13DeAngDXbQ

LOL lol LOL LOL LOL LOL that's just to fricken funny. From whose line and Richard. LOL LOL LOL DAM

Glad it made you laugh, soul! I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants the first time I saw it. Hated Richard Simmons when I was a youngster but now I think he's a mighty fine specimen of a human being. Howzit goin' Volc? You give yourself a little push today??

LOL LOL LOL Yup don't care who ya are, that was just fricken fuuuuuunny. LOL LOL LOL

You asked why the f**k we get depressed in giving up what hurts us... I think the answer is that we are slaying dragons and that is very hard work. Very hard. And sometimes we drop our shield and the dragons hurt us but overall we are making progress, even if slowly. You also said you spend too much time wishing you were someone else. I notice when YOU're not around and I'm glad you're you. You ok? A bit worried, I am.

Hey V

Have you done a Forrest Gump and gone running round Ol Blighty?

Xx

Worried about you. You ok? Exercise challenge turn you off ? Or did I say/post the wrong thing and you want space? Or did you jump on a plane? Or if you're stuck under the black cloud and don't want to post to me, can I just have a simple hai ho to know...? Will respect wherever you're at but would like to know that you're alright.

Yeah like the rest hoping all is good with ya.

Thanking all heaps.

Hello Diary...

A massive crash without the gambling.

A flat vegetable state, struggling to climb out off. Know I will, but f**k them clouds seem to get heavier.

I know gambling aint no answer to drag me out of the doldrums but neither does abstinence. Really cant see anyway out. Thinking and functioning a struggle!! Have to keep on moving, albeit sideways for now.....