Easy does it!

Thanks E. I'm still around just not alot of time to post. Hope everyone stays well and gamble free!

Cheers for the post.

Although can not get that dr foster rhyme out of my head now.lol

Miss having you around, but it is more than compensated by the fact that you seem to have found a balance in your life.

Thinking about my post about the dormant seed of addiction, think yours is buried under so much top soil, that it would take an army of fort lift trucks to dig it out. But I know you will never forget it is there.

Dusty x

Hiya Smiler 🙂

Thanks for the message 🙂 the place just aint the same without you....but I'm delighted that your moving on....I won't say keep strong..cos I know you are. Hugs.

Love Del x

Hey Smiler, good to see you on here. I started posting again a few weeks ago after a massive blip! But onwards and upwards, I am staying positive, see you around the forum x

Thought I'd pop in yo my diary. It's hard once you've been out the lop to keep up with who is going well etc. Hopefully everyone is in a good space and if not trying their damnest to get there. It does get easier with time and you have to resist that "One last go" thought that we really believe will be the "One last go". Get a stack of time betwen the now and your last bet and with that time the urge relinquishes. As horid as it seems now it will get better without gambing, if you gamble it gets worse. There is nothing to win but lots to lose in this gambling world. Keep strong and fight those urges if and when they come along.

Take care

Hey Smiler,

good to hear you sounding in a good place

Take care,

f x

Thanks Freda for popping by! Been trying to live life without diary and it can be done but pop by every few days. My obsession with posting on here has lifterd but still need to read diaries to remind me what is round the corner if I like!

I never used to feel anger towards gambling industry and always said we should take responsibilty for our own actions. As time goes by I am thinking differently. Not sure why! Maybe realisation of loses over the years. Can't lok back though although can't forget either.

Take care

Hi Smiler, thanks 4 ur support on my diary 🙂

Stay strong 🙂

No problem Charlotte.

Isympathise with mAtty to some extent as this forum does, at times, seem to be a clique. However if you put the work in you will get the rewards from this forum. I hope the matter is resolved now and we can all move on. Matty is welcome to bounce ideas off my diary if he doesn't want to start a diary of his own. Take care

Just replied to Matty on Newcomers section and it sounds like he could do with some support here! As an addict I was very quick to put someone else down as it made me feel better about myself. Now I do not hold judgement on anyone and never hold resentments as they are very dangerous. If someone posts on here and we don't like it then we should disregard it. We get too wound up and caught up in things that don't realy concern us. I was a victim of this just recently and Dotty made me realise that I should let it go. It wasn't really my problem. That is why i stayed away for a while but I like what this forum does for people and I am pleased that people come on here and open their hearts about their shortcomings. Hope everyone finds contentment in due course!

cheers smiler you have been so helpful and i do not deserve it what i said to charlotte19 was personal and im sure she will find it hard to forgive me and i understand it would just bring me inner piece cheers for answering i did not expect any help cheers

Hi smiler

Great post ur right in every word u say , I myself judged a little too quickly av put that right now , thanks for the wise words

Castle2

cheers for answering and the good help and advise

Yesterday has gone and it doesn't matter to me anymore. Today I have a choice. I will make sure I do not carry too much cash. Today I choose to stay away from any gambling establishments I may come across (self excluded). Today I choose to stay close by my family and do nice things. Today I choose to reward myself by watching some football. If my plan does not come to full fruition it matters not as long as I don't gamble that is my sole aim for today. It does get easier as we go long but blocks in place are a real saver. I used to leave doors open as Iknew I wanted to gamble again. I now like my gamble free life and more importantly I like me, I don't tell lies anymore. I don't wonder what is coming through the post or phoning. I have a clear conscience and do not owe nearly as much money as I did inmy early recovery. The most important thing I remember is I only have today to keep it right. Tomorrow is not here!!

Take care

Hiya Smiler,

Lovely post 🙂 Hope your having a great weekend with your family.

Love Del x