Easy does it!

Hi Smiler.... one day at a time has been working for me too. Good for you for running 10K! I've read through a bit of your posts. I like your idea of a "like" button. I can also really relate to one post where you said you lectured your wife about "where the money goes". I used to do that all the time whilst throwing away money like crazy! Stay strong.

Hi Smiler and well done on your continued success and getting through that urge to gamble.

Also goood stuff on the 10km run. With some training you can get your time to under an hour am sure. I know whhat you mean about the aching legs. I was sitting in the bath at 5.30 this morning massaging my legs so I could walk and function properly for work. Thankfully I was fine once i got going.

Anyway like you say it helps to keep using the forums to keep gambling away. Keep smiling.. S.A 🙂

Anyone reading these diaries for the first time please give yourself time. Speak with professionals and listen to their advice. It does get better. Most people on here have been where you are. Please post as it is important for people to read raw emotions to remind people how bad this CG problem gets us. Take care

Hey Smiler,

i like your last post. It really is vital to post, my neglect in posting over the weekend led me to losing £40 yesterday on a new site. I know my problem could get even worse but I am determined not to let it get the better of me x

Hey smiler, glad to hear that things are going well at your end. I echo Pink's words and would think that you are a good example of how getting a few days, couple of weeks under your belt can get things going and things will improve and get easier.

Thanks for the words guys. I don't know how long I have not gambled for as it matters not to me. I know I didn't gamble today and that is all that counts. I woke up one day in July and decided enough was enough and have never looked back. Keep it in the day and don't worry about tomorrow. Enjoy today even the bad parts. I know that sounds strange but not having to run to the nearest form of gambling is quite a novelty as I have now realised I don't need it. Please take care.

Whilst at work yesterday something happened that started my gambling mind go into overdrive. I ran all sorts of scenarios through my mind.

"If she does this, if I do that, I'll go here, I'll sort it this way" you get the drift. However I stood back and thought to myself I have no power over what is occuring and it is not my fault although I do take other people's problems on board. Things resolved themselves without me getting involved and wound up. However my gambling mind was very pleased to try and get me off guard but I caught it. Take care

In the back of my mind is another process that runs constantly trying to focus on the negativity around me and drag me in. Once dragged in I used to run for cover to nearest bookies. Today I face up to the problems in everyday life and do my best to deal with them. If I don't gamble today I have a fighting chance of living a reasonably sane and normal life.

Just finished work and now off to shopping without having to worry what credit card I'm going to use etc etc. Haven't got a stack of money just yet bun not having to worry is a great relief. Might even stretch to a bit of steak!!

I get really angry when I see another new person come on here after a big lose. I just wished I could do something about it before the lose. I just want to scream at them for being so stupid. The reason for this is that it reminds me of my own self and how stupid I have been. Everyone has to walk their own paths in life so there is nothing I can do. Just thought I would post this so if you are new get on here and post and read as much as you can!!

Anger sucks doesn't it? it just makes us feel completely rotten.

I think that you are similar in disposition to me, or you seem to be - chirpy and positive most of the time, but when you get in one you feel really wound up! I sometimes wonder if the contrast makes it seem worse, when you are usually positive. Dunno.

Thanks for your support on my diary. I'm always reading on here, but never know what to write! lol

Sounds like you are doing great.

Take care,

f x

Thanks Freda

I agree with what you say. I am so easy going until something pushes me to the edge and then I don't know how to control my anger so I gamble (it used to be drink but stopped some 10 years ago). I have gone to counselling to try and find answers but CBT concentrates on moving forward rather than behind. Truth is I'm looking for someone to blame and yet the blame lies mostly with myself (painful to admit). This is my battle and I have to keep going every day and hopefully I'll get to a place where I know I'm safe. Thanks again and keep posting I enjoy reading on here immensely.

Sometimes there are issues underlying which cause us to gamble and this can make it hard to move on until these issues are resolved.

I hope you get to the bottom of things mate - just take it one day at a time . Each day gamble free is a small victory and feels good.

All the best

bobby.

Hi Bobby

I believe if we have other issues they are compounded if we gamble. If we don't gamble things will sort themselves out. The gambling is a sure way for devastation!

Hi

Thank you for all your support, means big massive huge to me .

S x