Day -50 no gambling to report, no thoughts to do so although it’s been a c**P day with potential triggers due to the stresses of life, and difficult people,dealt with it the best I could and remembered everything I’ve been taught by an addiction councillor,I have other unhealthy habits I’m abstaining from as well alcohol and tobacco although I vape, and I have to keep it going although tackling more than one addiction at the same time overall I am feeling positive but understand it will take time, a marathon not a sprint, one day at a time.
Also to add having measures and blocks in place is most definitely working as I set up and  have total confidence in knowing they are in place.
Day-51.
no gambling to report, feel a sense of being at peace with no gambling thoughts, slightly surprising but feel I’m on the right track, keeping this diary is helpful, pleased the measures are in place and another day gone gamble free, feels good but understand a long way to go.
Day-53 no gambling to report, no urges to do so, trying to spend day doing the simple things in life ,taking son out on his scooter, park quality time, reading a book something or done for years,keeping busy, rebuilding relationships is all part of recovery,long way to go but feel on track, did see a advert on the tv for Cheltenham next week and thought not for me and won’t be participating in losing money thinking being part of the occasion is beneficial because it is not! Understanding and seeing through these events as a money making scheme for bookmakers is becoming very clear., not just this but all gambling in generalÂ
Day -54 no gambling to report,walk in the morning,zero thoughts or urge to gamble, on the right track keeping one day at a time and fully committed to burying this addiction once and for all.
Day-55 no gambling to report, no thought  too feels good to say this,slowly but surely beginning to feel like I’ve got this, surrendering to the addiction and understanding the mechanisms of it so to speak , complex is the human brain to addiction but something that can be fixed and retrained,yes another day at a time and will continue with what I’m doing as it’s working.
Day-56, no gambling to report, continuing with the speed walking, trying to stick to routine,no thoughts to gamble,recovery feels like exactly that, way to go and hopefully I will be better both physically and mentally, one day at a timeÂ
Day 57- no gambling to report or thoughts to do so, continuing walking for exercise, bit
irritable, slight low mood, unsure if tiredness from looking after my toddler all day, cigarette withdrawal or gambling? Â Or all three? Â Actually finding the abstaining from cigarettes harder than the gambling,I know this will take time and long road ahead but still feeling positive that gambling is no longer part of me or ever will be in the future , one day at a time.
Day -58
No gambling to report or thoughts to do so,tackling addiction is a long road, the gambling is under control and pleased there is no urge to do so,one thing to understand tackling two or maybe three addictions at the same time is super difficult,smoking and alcohol also been around for some time,got to keep believing that I know there’s no quick fix and stay strong.
@cueboy  many thanks, appreciate your encouragement mate, yes day 59 and still no gambling to report or any urge or thought to get involved with it, slowly but surely and taking one day at a time is working,still feeling different this time on previous relapses, feels more disciplined with the measures in place and appreciating the support from my wife especially,I’m back in work again and trying to get back on track and am still extra determined to never have gambling in my life ever again.
@steve850 sounds like your extra motivated this time to be gamble free..your diary I'm sure is encouraging others too like myself.
Day-60 and still no gambling to report or thoughts to do so,wife doing great with the finances and I am relieved in a way she is doing so, helping all round and appreciate it,busy and feeling tired from work, quick walk this morning making myself do it, one day at a time and always on my guard.
Day 61- no gambling to report, not one thought to do so,Saturday used to be football accumulator day,now I have no urge to get involved which is encouraging,instead I am doing other things with my family,feel better for it all round, keeping things simple and taking one day at a time,slowly but surely in a positive non gambling way.
Day-62, no gambling to report or any thought process to do so, slowly but surely I feel my mental health is improving all round, less anxious,stress of the cycle gambling brings, still keeping as busy as possible, also noticing I am watching less sport on the tv and am I really missing it? no!, keeping positive and once again one day at a time.
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