Day-53 no gambling to report, no urges to do so, trying to spend day doing the simple things in life ,taking son out on his scooter, park quality time, reading a book something or done for years,keeping busy, rebuilding relationships is all part of recovery,long way to go but feel on track, did see a advert on the tv for Cheltenham next week and thought not for me and won’t be participating in losing money thinking being part of the occasion is beneficial because it is not! Understanding and seeing through these events as a money making scheme for bookmakers is becoming very clear., not just this but all gambling in general
Day -54 no gambling to report,walk in the morning,zero thoughts or urge to gamble, on the right track keeping one day at a time and fully committed to burying this addiction once and for all.
Day-55 no gambling to report, no thought too feels good to say this,slowly but surely beginning to feel like I’ve got this, surrendering to the addiction and understanding the mechanisms of it so to speak , complex is the human brain to addiction but something that can be fixed and retrained,yes another day at a time and will continue with what I’m doing as it’s working.
Day-56, no gambling to report, continuing with the speed walking, trying to stick to routine,no thoughts to gamble,recovery feels like exactly that, way to go and hopefully I will be better both physically and mentally, one day at a time
Day 57- no gambling to report or thoughts to do so, continuing walking for exercise, bit
irritable, slight low mood, unsure if tiredness from looking after my toddler all day, cigarette withdrawal or gambling? Or all three? Actually finding the abstaining from cigarettes harder than the gambling,I know this will take time and long road ahead but still feeling positive that gambling is no longer part of me or ever will be in the future , one day at a time.
Day -58
No gambling to report or thoughts to do so,tackling addiction is a long road, the gambling is under control and pleased there is no urge to do so,one thing to understand tackling two or maybe three addictions at the same time is super difficult,smoking and alcohol also been around for some time,got to keep believing that I know there’s no quick fix and stay strong.
@cueboy many thanks, appreciate your encouragement mate, yes day 59 and still no gambling to report or any urge or thought to get involved with it, slowly but surely and taking one day at a time is working,still feeling different this time on previous relapses, feels more disciplined with the measures in place and appreciating the support from my wife especially,I’m back in work again and trying to get back on track and am still extra determined to never have gambling in my life ever again.
@steve850 sounds like your extra motivated this time to be gamble free..your diary I'm sure is encouraging others too like myself.
Day-60 and still no gambling to report or thoughts to do so,wife doing great with the finances and I am relieved in a way she is doing so, helping all round and appreciate it,busy and feeling tired from work, quick walk this morning making myself do it, one day at a time and always on my guard.
Day 61- no gambling to report, not one thought to do so,Saturday used to be football accumulator day,now I have no urge to get involved which is encouraging,instead I am doing other things with my family,feel better for it all round, keeping things simple and taking one day at a time,slowly but surely in a positive non gambling way.
Day-62, no gambling to report or any thought process to do so, slowly but surely I feel my mental health is improving all round, less anxious,stress of the cycle gambling brings, still keeping as busy as possible, also noticing I am watching less sport on the tv and am I really missing it? no!, keeping positive and once again one day at a time.
Wow. You are truly an inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us.
Im on 6 days. Payday 9n Friday. Im feeling strong and positive about keeping that money in the bank.
If I get any urges I'm coming here instead, remind myself of the damage gambling does but also that it can be beaten
Constance
Well done on Day 62 Steve. Read your diary, doing great
@constance and Dave many thanks for your messages really appreciate it, yes day 63 and still no gambling to report or any urge to do so,Saturday was a great afternoon out with my family, today was put flying a kite with my wife and son and enjoyed it, simple things are the best things for sure,other grand national days and the buildup I would of made sure I had at least one bet on it, would of made sure I was home to watch it and would of followed it from the start of the meeting until it finished, this is year was different, had no interest in it, did not study any race card or watch any tv relating to it, there was no urge to get involved at all same as Cheltenham,I am watching 80 % less football but always look out for my local teams results,my mood is lifting and I am less depressed and anxious,I will be forever on my guard and will take one day at a time and continue doing and living the way I am because I truly believe it is working and even more determined to be gamble free forever.,the councelling I have received and continuing to receive has been processed and would highly recommend others to take part in especially a addiction councillor who understands the situation and problems and the way it affects the human brain,just having that knowledge is key!
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