Enough is ENOUGH!!

Sorry for the no reply!

Just been working my a**e off over the Christmas period so debts can be paid for the new year,

All is going well still clean from gambling and keeping my mind busy with other things, got asked to put a bet on for someone and just declined without hesitation!

Things seem to be looking up at the moment and just hope it continues into the new year!

MR Brightside hope you are still achieving also and sorry for not being on much just been hectic at work pal

Sure your doing excellent still but let me know!:)

Unaitsert

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Don't worry I havnt gambled but the urge is sooo big right now, got paid yesterday it's sitting in the bank and I'm bored trying to go to sleep as I've just finished nights but it's hard!

All that money sitting there wanting to get played with, although I know I should continue paying off debts!

Thought I'd come here to express my emotions, anyway I'm going to try try try again to get to sleep

Happy new year all

Unaitsert

Morning! Happy New Year!!

So a tough day huh? You're doing so so well - come a long way already and the benefits are far outweighing the very slim likelihood of success doing something you'd ultimately regret.....win, lose or draw.

Just a quick reminder...... do you remember how good it felt to square off some of the debt? Or how great it feels to put your head on your pillow and not hate yourself, or want to beat yourself up or worry about money? Or how proud you feel coming on here and telling us of your victories? It's just not worth it!! I know you know that - but you are my buddy and I need you to stay with me on all of this journey. No pressure!!

You are an absolute superstar, you are a winner for not losing, you are a new person without gambling, you are released from the hell you have been living.......for today, you will not gamble........

With you all the way.

Mr Brightside

Hey - just me again - have you seen the challenge thread on the 'overcoming problem gambling' section - I was going to put your name down for it, but it needs to be your call. Have a think about it mate.

Mr B

Defeated 🙁

Feel like a worthless piece of rubbish just gambled all my Christmas earnings down the pan, £800 to be precise I've got £100 left and that's what I owe a friend 🙁

Can't believe this

As soon as I get a wad of money it's gone

I feel so worthless and just don't want to carry on anymore, I'm a stupid idiot for doing this I know so don't want sympathy!

I feel so upset and am now gonna cry myself to sleep I could of paid of so much debt but decided to do the wrong thing! I just don't know how to stop I want to I really do!

I wish there was some magic tablet to make you leave it out but there isn't!

Can't bloody believe my self 🙁

Hope the rest of you can conquer this because this feels like it will be the end of me!!!!

Unaitsert

Hi unaitsert,

Yes, you gave in to devil for a breaf period of time...so, what we do,..we stand up and dust ourselves down. It is not the end of the world, give urself a chance.

This addiction feeds of low moods and self destructive thoughts. You are better than this!!!

Yea, maybe tough month ahead, but you will do it and get ur next wage, and will hold of it tight...

Many of us had lapses, all we can do is try again. We can only get stronger and know more about triggers in this recovery.Beating yourself up is not gonna help, money has gone - let it go...no way you can chase that as soon as you get a chance.

Stick around, you are worth better future, believe in yourself,you are stronger than this discusting habit.

My thoughts are with you

Have a rest, good sleep and start afresh later on today

Take care

Sandra x

Hey fella,

So a tough day turned into a really tough day that ended in being an absolute sh1thouse of a day huh?

So, I'm going to give you three reasons to be positive about today.........

1) it happened yesterday, today is a brand new day, you can't influence what happened yesterday, you can influence what happens from today forward. The future is in your hands.

2) you are on here and have done something which I don't believe many people who have a relapse do - you've come on and spoken about it and 'fessed up about it. That takes a lot of humility, courage and bravery. It also means you want to stop, but maybe just haven't got the right foundations in place to do it.

3) in a bizarre way, the fact that you didn't spend the £100 you owed your mate suggests you at least have a level of consciousness........

As Sandra says mate, dust yourself down, try to understand what it was that triggered it.....and by the sounds of things, it was the money in your bank account that was accessible, as was the way in which you gambled.....how was it?

We've spoken about telling someone in the past, about self exclusion and other barriers to help you defeat this. It's an old saying mate, but it's not about winning every battle, it's about winning a war. Every great general made a mistake or two, but ultimately they learned from that, didn't dwell on it and simply strengthened their resolve to win the overall fight......

But you've got to really want to stop, swallow some of the pride and the fears you have about disclosing to someone close and get the physical support you need - you do need it mate.

Please don't beat yourself up too much, refocus and really think about what you can do differently. We want you side by side with us on our journey - I'd hate to see you giving up on yourself and losing much more than money.

Keep in touch and as Sandra says, stick around, believe in yourself and you WILL win.

Mr Brightside

Hi

I have just read through your thread and wanted to just let you know that the one slip up you had yesterday could be what you really needed to ensure that you never gamble again. You have done very well in resisting all those urges and one slip up does not mean you are back to square one. Use it to your advantage and let it this feeling push you right past the bookies from now on. Even stick your finger up at them if it helps!

One thing I would say might help, you mentioned a couple of times that the urges you get are because you have some money in your account and it is not enough to clear your debts so its crying out to be played with in the hope that you can clear them- well my point is this. Dont look at it like that money can be turned into anything by gambling. If you had a big win even one that cleared your debt, well be honest you wont stop there are those debts will be back again before you know it. So really any money you have you will either lose or lose and lose more. You cannot win with that money. The only real way to win is to use your cash clear as much debt as you can and then save some. I am only a few weeks into recovery and I got major urges but as soon as I accepted that I can never win I feel like I can now move forward through a different path. I hope this makes some kind of sense and I wish you the very best in your recovery.

never let your past harm your future- your past cant be altered and your future doesnt deserve the punishment.

Linda x

Sandra MR Brightside and Linda!

Firstly like to thank you for such kind words.

It does seem to be that fact that I have money in the bank that makes me want to gamble, not so much having 4 or 5 hundred but the likes of 9 hundred or 1000 makes me itch to gamble, at 21ive never had more than £1000 in the bank at any time, it always gets to this peak and then I decide to lose it all. This is what I think makes my urge in cope able.

Feels like I've just gone back to my old ways when I thought I was on the right track:/

I will be starting again and am adamant to beat this

This technically will be day 2 in my recovery but as I've no money what so ever the urge won't really come until payday on Thursday

Onwards and upwards ps loved the quote at the end of your message Linda!:)

Thankyou all for your support! And keep up the good work yourselves!

Unairsert xx

Gonna keep these short and sweet and just log in to say I havnt gambled!!

DAY 1 Payday

NO GAMBLING!!!