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monkeypea77
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Day 9.

After a building a gambling addiction over 20 years, I decided 9 days ago that I had had enough. I've never been that unfortunate to have landed myself in £1000's of debt but I dread to think how much I have wasted over the years. It's my 9th day gamble free, and I have to say it's been ok. I'm slowly getting out of debt - holding on to the next pay day to bring my account out of my over draft and then waiting for the next pay check to actually put me in credit! I can't remember ever building any savings up - but this is a great incentive. Coming to these forums scared me initially - a lot of the recovery stories involved people getting into £1000's and £1000's of debt, and I was worried that I would have to get that 'unwell' before I could break free of it. But that's not the case. I have an addiction that I could not control, and it was simply luck that I did not end up in serious debt. I have a good support network and although I haven't told my partner, I have told my parents who have been very supportive. I have blocks in place and cannot access online sites anymore.

Day 9 and no gambling - here's to day 10!

Good Luck to each of you xx.

P.S. If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing you have to do is stop digging.

 
Posted : 20th March 2019 10:20 am
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Yo, exactly . Good on you coming clean to your parents , excluding and stopping before you made the debt so much worst . Some peeps like myself and you just can not gamble , once we totally accept that and seek help or put blocks in place , very quickly life changes . Wishing you all the best , keep on keeping on with what you are doing 9 days is a great start . Take care Shiny 🙂

 
Posted : 20th March 2019 11:05 am
monkeypea77
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Day 10 and I'm doing well - so far I've still not had any urges to gamble. For me, deciding to stop didn't come off the back of losing another big amount, I just decided that I had had enough of the life I was leading. I wonder if that's why it's different this time for me? Normally I would gamble, lose and promise to never do it again...and then gamble again, but I've just genuinely had enough of the deceit, the waste and the guilt. I want to be better, I won't gamble again. xx

 
Posted : 21st March 2019 2:49 pm
monkeypea77
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13 days! Nearly two weeks into my new life!!

 
Posted : 24th March 2019 10:42 am
monkeypea77
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14 days

 
Posted : 25th March 2019 3:48 pm
holycrosser
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Good luck mate, you sound like me.The first and only time I decided to stop I did it easily for 4 months or so, I actually found it easy to do then one day things were fine money wise to a degree and bam I dabbled out of the blue and eventually was full blown at it again.ive started off the same way but it’s different this time I now know this is my very last chance the way my life is working out, I cannot fail this, Ive put more blocks in place this time, I’ve soon but not yet going to be handing over control of my bank account...I’m changing the way I think about how I conduct my life outside of work by involving my partner more , wanting to do things with her.Im under no illusion this is a massive change, changing 30 years of gambling isn’t easy but I simply HAVE TO, I hope you make it, like me you are early into this and we have years to go, good luck mate.this place really keeps me focused

 
Posted : 25th March 2019 4:56 pm
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 MD
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Keep up the good work. It's awesome. Really difficult to stop. Sounds like you are doing OK

 
Posted : 25th March 2019 7:43 pm
monkeypea77
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16 days.

My bank account is nearly out of the red - but I have an expensive month coming up - but at least I'm not £1800 into my overdraft - which is usually where I am by now.

I've managed to give my partner money this month and last month towards the house too! He doesn't know anything about my gambling - and the anxiety I have felt about him asking me where all my wages go is immense. But, I have given him a contribution and as long as he doesn't start to question my past finances I should be ok.

My next target is my next payday 27 days (42 days gamble free) - I'm hoping to be completely out of my overdraft and have nearly all of my wages for myself and my family. Following that the next target will be 24th June - I will have been contributing to the house for 5 months by then and my partner will hopefully never question my previous expenditure and (probably more importantly) I will be gamble free for 107 days.

Everyday I remind myself that my children's future relies upon me not gambling, that my future relies upon me not gambling.

Life is ok today. x

 
Posted : 27th March 2019 10:06 am
monkeypea77
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Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow.

17 days.

 
Posted : 28th March 2019 10:49 am
monkeypea77
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21 days! Great weekend - no urges to gamble! I truly feel like I have been given a second chance at life. 22 days until pay day and I'll finally be clear of my debt! Good luck to all on this journey x

 
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