feeling stupid and down

Hi Gareth

First of all well done for coming back here! It's a great site with great people on here.

Look mate, you want to stop, and that's the first tick off the box. You've shown you can abstain before which is also great! And you've lost a grand. Wipe it off forget it and start fresh. Stay close to this site post regularly. I know how you feel mate. The pain will go and time is the greatest healer. Read my diary mate. Read others. It will help. We will get there mate.

Stay safe

Gaz

Gareth,

i echo gaz's comments, hes right, youve shown you can abstain for months, there is no reason why you cant achieve that again, but permanently.

put as many barriers in place to stop this from occuring mate. k9 software to block betting websites, self exclude from all online bookies, take your photo into local bookies and self exclude, let a loved one look after your finances, get a new card, scratch the cv2 number off, read and post on here regualrly.

i wish you the very best of luck and i am really looking forward to following youre diary
Stay safe and one day at a time my friend!
BEN 🙂

thanks all, I'm back trying and know I need be more careful about when impulse to gambling is kicking in strong again and not try pretend I'm ok, but keep using the forum to remind myself I can kick this and want too

keep catchimg myself starting to think about trying win back losses, I know it would just make things worse. having a difficult time

2nd day I am not going to gamble, going to keep updating more as find it helps to write thoughts here as otherwise just keep them to myself. I hope we can all beat this

Hi Gareth ..I have battled with online slots for years on and off .. I know just how hard it is stop ..at first I didn't take these awful sites or indeed this addiction seriously .. I realised I was spending too much and thought I could simply stop ..a call from my bank telling me I was £1900 overdrawn was a wake up call , they set me up an overdraft to cover it and stop any charges .. the overdraft still hasn't been paid 5 years later I stopped for a while then when things got a little better money wise I started again . I have lost thousands over the years . That money is gone but not forgotton .When I think what else I could have done with the money it makes me ashamed . I have recently joined up again after another slip up this time I am leaving nothing to chance . I have done away with my laptop , excluded myself from every site I have been on but by far the best deterrent I have applied so far has been to limit my WiFi with my current provider .. They block gambling sites ..also I ordered a new bank card and got my son to scratch the secure code of the back ..all my bills are now paid by direct debit . I have also had a few councilling sessions ...
All I'm saying get the blocks in place don't leave yourself open to temptation
Your doing so well and with the blocks in place you can beat this

Keep strong and continue to stay gamble free .

L.M

day 3 I will not gamble and the panic is wearing off after last relapse, need to try stop thinking of recovering losses though and making things worse

day 4 for me, need try keep myself busier at weekend and try avoid temptation

Hi Gareth

I hope your well mate!! I just been catching up on ur diary hope ur ok!! U know where u are and well done for stoping have u had therapy before ring gamcare its free or tried somthing like ga! Im doing both at the moment and is helping me! Look letting go of the money is a tough one its not called compulsive for no reason try take a breath. This weekend try make plans and keep as busy as possible and keep posting!! As much as possible it has helped me so much!! Take care! Adt

I am back to update, a few reasons why. first reason it helped more when I wrote updates to stay strong and stop when I messed up again and gambled last time and things got out of control, second reason its been a month I've managed and althougn I have not gambled I wish I could say the urge has stopped, but have been really tempted this week so back to update to try help myself. I really want to ditch the compulsion to gamble I know the damage it has done and will do if I do it again....

totally disgusted with myself yet again...have been on another gambling binge since sunday lot a fortune and now sat scared stiff that I just could not stop myself and walk away. tired of being tired too, and having the shadow of gambling always over me

It's grim mate. I've had a lot of relapses so I can't preach. You've got to better mate. Pick yourself up and go again. Try something different. Good luck pal.

Not easy but keep trying.

back to day one..but at least to day has been a day without gambling, one day at a time it is then again!