First day of rest of my life

Hi Mr Hearn.

Welcome to the forum.

I wish you the very best on your recovery journey,

Best wishes

Suzanne xx

Thank you Suzanne xx

Well its day 2 of beating this addiction with the help of you guys and my beautiful wife. Ive downloaded k9 and had wife put a password in she has also changed the password on paypal. Been around all the bookies to self exclude all very helpful. My cash ive given to the wife to prevent going that little further a field. I wasnt thinking of gambling but was tempted to check racing results which is just as bad as thats when i get urges if favs are winning so u go to bookies and find the roulette machines. Ive put in for overtime to make up for the money i spent. Well doing it that way is away to stop me chasing. Plus i dont see y my family should suffer cause of my stupidity. My partner asked y do i do it dont i care about her and the little one that is due in 5 months and she couldnt b more wrong i love her to bits and couldnt b happier that were having are first child. But said its wierd and hard to explian how gambling makes u think i say that word think loosely. Guilt is still a massive part at the minute of me wanting to stop once that disappears then the hard work starts. Im pretty sure we all come on here feeling guilty of losing as a gambler never thinks they ave a problem when winning and again use that word loosely. Are we ever winning really. But i am going to b a winner at beating my addiction. Thanks for reading please feel free to comment a problem shared is a problem halved well the more i share it keeps getting halved makes this journey that little easier

Two great positives there Mr Hearn, you have told your wife, that is so important for us to be able to move onwards, secondly you have put blocks and barriers on, ( the addiction hates that ) make sure every single block, barrier is in place not even an inch can be left open my friend, because that addiction is and will be sulking, lurking in the background just waiting for even less than an inch to get in.

Be very proud you have been honest with your wife and putting blocks on everything, but think to yourself is this enough, long term or even short term, we can never underestimate the power of this addiction,

Stay close to your new choices and stay determined, stay safe and WIN .

Suzanne xxx

Day 3 gamble free its was ok yesterday to b honest went to work and normal have a footy coupon on for a few quid and thats where i fall down as i dont class that as real gambling but that is where the snowball starts and a avalanche is the end product. But i passed the coupon day with out a hiccup even when asked by my work collegues wat bets ive put on a simple said no more bets for me ive promised the wife without give the details that im have a addiction. I am a footy fan so did check the results wasnt to sure if that would b a good idea but i cant hide away from everything but it never passed my head that i wksh i had a bet. The worry about failing to quiting gambling is still pretty high in my thoughts but yesterday i passed a landmark with missing the footy as its something ive done 4 16years every weekend. Even when i have quit b4 i kept that going. I know im only on day 3 but along with my gamble free days i have goals in them too like breaking routines. I feel breaking them is the key to my success. Moments like yesterday bring a smile to my face only saved a fiver but i havent i saved much more including my family. I read many ppls stories and they give me strenght. Goodluck all and keep strong

Cheers NT and those fiver soon grow to 10-20 even bigger bets on horses or the devil themselves roulette table. And ive always kidded myself that placing my footy bets that im in full control but ur not as soon as u have a big win im thinking i want more money and the self control is no longer there. Thing that bugs me i may shopping and um and rrrrr of something that is ВЈ50 and think can i do without as its ВЈ50 but then blow ВЈ100-ВЈ200 in space of 10 mins in a bookies. And even if u win your still like it cost £50 i will do without. And deep down the real reason is thats betting money for your next session in the bookies.

Well done on 3 days, everyday we abstain is a big achievement.

Whatever we win we will put back, and if we lose we just deposit more, it really is a waste of our time, money and lives.

Keep winning by abstaining and maintaining, the addiction simply hates that.

Suzanne xxx

Day 4 of being gamble free. Still had no major cravens to go have a bet which makes the job in hand so much easier. But saying that ive threw myself in work and aint walked past a bookies since i start. I know in my head thou that any ammount of good work can go to pieces in one moment of stupidity. I to like many on here say ive a adictive personality in all things i do not just gambling so im using that to defeat my gambling adiction. My new adiction is getting my day counter higher and higher and like i do to many other stories i read think i cant wait to b like that guy or girl clear for 6 months + and see all the comments. That is my new adiction and that is how my mind works or wired. Good luck to you all

Day 5 and completed my first weekend gamble free even better it was a bank holiday weekend. I havent had the urge to bet as of yet but yesterday whilst walking the dog i did start think what if i had done it this way in the bookies. As my last day gambling i was winning left then went back and carried on winning until i went on the roulette lost the lot and much more. So went through head if i hadnt gone back or never played the machine i would of been fine. Wrong as i know at some other point it would of blown up. But need them thoughts out of my head. On a positive note slept last nite without any dreams of gambling. Today is going to b a good day

Day 6. Pay day today but placed measures to make sure if urge comes i cant. Wife has cash card and would need to walk about 10 mile to bookies that im not excluded from. Today is going to be a great day. And with another big goal only a day away the week mark, even thou ever day is a goal. Good luck all

Just think one WHOLE week tomorrow, that reads pretty good doesn't it.

Keep strong and stay focused

Suzanne xxx

Thank you Suzanne

Today is a day that normally has routine of get up early, tidy the house then take dog for a walk whilst on that go bank the pop in bookies to do a lucky 15 then go work.But dont want to pay for it so throw ВЈ20 in roulette sometimes i win so get a free bet but others i lose my wages in the space of 10-20 mins then have to think how to mask the lose to wife. A big one ive used a few times is went cash machine withdrew my cash and left without it the cash someone must have took as it didnt go back in. Today my wages are happily being put in a savings account by the wife whoop whoop we are looking every week to save ВЈ200 from my wages as it was always used for gambling my wife never got to see it so putting it saving for a year to see what i spend this is minium spend over a year as would take money from wifes wages. Scary thing is its £10400 min over the year wasted from just my wages. Could of paid for are wedding without struggling. Also noticed my mood is changing happy more of the time.

Day 7. Whoop whoop a whole week longest ever i have not had a bet or spin on roulette. Today is my first day off since i quit. So got plans to keep my mind occupied. Each day is a goal but i set bigger goals like a week then a month then quater of a year and so on but in time i hope i cant remeber when my last gambling day. Good luck all