For myself and my family

Well this is it... I had some extra expenses this month which is not great as it does not leave me with a lot of money to manoevre with however it was nescessary so my debt free timing will be bit longer than expected... i'm ok with it..

anyhow... happy 30 GF to me....

I'm finding it tough.. not gambling urges but the fact that my wife is moving in with me after number of months.... I think it spells disaster...

31 GF

I feel so sad... yet i'm so happy....

33 GF

I'm totally on your page with the mixed emotions, up until not that long ago I would wake up either really positive or feeling like c**P and then be like a yoyo all day. Then days would pass then it would happen again! In the end I just learnt to ride this and hold onto the thought of making it through that particular GF. Best wishes on your journey take care S:)

Hi Sharon, its a real emotional rollercoster for me right now... really sad thing happed today which I knew about but still knocked me down to tears... and its really tough... I suppose the good news in all of this is that I have no gambling urges, but what I do have are daily thoughts about the amounts of money I lost...

35 GF

Fair play, while I was in the cycle of gambling I felt a bit like a machine going through the motions. But I have definitely been more emotional and fragile since quitting especially in say the first 2-3 months then seemed to gradually turn a corner. I can only say be kind to yourself, take a day at a time and as long as you don't gamble there's nothing more you can do. Take care S:)

Hi Sharon how are you going??

Well done on 153 days how amazing!!

I've come back to reset my counter today nothing really doom and gloom just wanted to be honest and set some new goals to keep in check I have explained more in my diary.

Hope you're doing well 🙂

Xx

Thanks GirlJ, will post on your diary S 🙂

Half a year almost... that is impressive.. cant wait to be there too... at that point I will have some money hopefully 🙂

37 GF

I've decided once i'm out of overdraft, and debt I will start putting asside 10 pounds each day... and will make sure that we enjoy that money as a family...

39 GF

Big fat 40 GF

I dont have any real urges to play.. but the amounts I lost are chasing me all the time... I dont have many thoughts other then how much I lost... and what if, how to get it back etc...

Regardless of all of this I am 42GF

Again I'm in a similar boat, am confident and have reassured myself I'm not even going there with gambling but this doesn't erase the losses. But I'm going with the fact that nothing will bring that cash back end of, the only way to go is forward (tough though!) Take care S:)

Have been so busy at work... now taking week off with the family and from then on will have them with me... excited but scared...

Anyway... 45GF

My bank balance finaly got above 0 (even if it is just for couple of days before the bills get paid) but it still feels good. Cant wait for next month payday as that time the balance will stay above 0 even after bills...

48 GF