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Hi Sandra,

Just popping in to say hi.

In recovery and certainly in the rooms of G.A they say "keep it simple" as us addicts like to think things to death. Maybe you won't ever understand this addiction so just let it go and hold on to what you do know , and for me I know the devastation it will cause should I ever go back.

Each day you keep gambling at bay you will get that little bit stronger and wiser.

Keep going your doing just great.

Take care

Blondie xx

Hi Sandra,

Well done on your 70 days plus. I relate to your thoughts. My gambling is closely intertwined with how I feel at any given moment. My running and swimming and cycling helps to keep me on an even keel... mostly anyway.

Am also one for dwelling on stuff and analysing things to extreme. I reckon its partly because I have too much time on my hands but maybe its also just a part of my make up. Blondie is right I think. Just try and keep things simple. keep doing what works.

take care... S.A 🙂

Thank you Feb, Blondie and S.A, lovely comments and i shall put them in my recovery.

Weekend nearly over, and no matter how drained i feel from work ( which got another round to do) i feel strangely optimistic. It is what it is, no pain no gain....that just sums up my whole life actually.

I start hating money all together now. I know we need to work, pay bills, debts and so on...but any spare cash don't make me any happier, i don't want to treat myself or spend a penny.... I don't even want to save, because that evil lurking round the corner, waiting to take it all of me...

It's not normal probably, we all like money, and thats one of the reasons we gamble...maybe that's why...i don't need money...i want myself back...

Carry on a bit, i'm sure it's not making much sense for anyone who reads, but i know what i mean.

Time to go..round three and lovely Monday tomorrow( challenging as always)

Take care all and stay strong

Day at a time

No looking back

Sandra x

Hi Sandra,

You make alot of sense and never worry about finding the right words. I really appreciate the support and it is a comfort knowing that there are other folks out there like you who feel what I am feeling and that I can relate to. I totally hear you. Keep going!! -joanxxxxx

Hi Sandra, I know what you mean about the money. Sometimes I think that if I won the lottery maybe I would end of gambling it away - that thought scares the hell out of me! I guess I just have to keep strong and remind myself that a gamble free life is so much sweeter. Keep strong hun x

Hey Sandra thank you for your post and just popping by to say well done on 70+ days. I completely agree with you re money any way keep strong xx

Thank you pinksparkle and needtomoveon,

Good early morning diary.

I so hate these hours. No doubt no sleep all day tomorrow, lose few more of my marbles and pass out early evening....hm...exciting lol

Anyway feeling good, despite stress here...i just start letting it pass me, they don't pay me enough to start getting gray hair on my head:-)

Another day further, hopefully quiet swim later on with my session, and some relaxing time for few days.

No gambling thoughts, except huge hater towards it....atherwise all good...keep moving forward...slowly but certain..

Take care all and have good start of the week, i know i'm already there haha

Sandra x

Hi Sandra

70+days 🙂

Look how far you've come in those days!

I hope you have a good couple of days off- try to chillax!

I hope you're mum's much better now.

You should be so proud of all you're achieved in the past couple of months- keep at it!

Take care

Irene

x

Irene darling, thank you so much for you encouragement, yes mum is better and i keep constant contact with her:-) thank you for asking.

Dear (dead) diary ( lol Rach),

Well my day goes as planned...losing marbles, because im tired, but it's ok, half way through the day and won't be long sleepy time:-)

That place really drains me out, but good news is...maybe just maybe i've got a chance to leave for something i want. So fingers crossed, waiting for a phone call! Would be great, night shifts not for me, i feel like owl sometimes, and it don't help with my moods and emotions, all hours the same, no sleep + stress not the best combination ...

Anyway, i am really happy today! (So far) and my session went well, bearing in mind after 3 nightshifts i am surprised i get there and back. My counsellor is the best woman in a world, so understanding and trying to help. Most appreciated, thank you very much...

So yea, read few wonderful posts, which picked my spirits even higher, and i'm so proud of you all on this site, we all moving our own ways, but heading for the same destination...keep it up all, we all unite here and there is no 1 in a team.

Still day 71 and it will stay this way for today!

Take care all

Sandra xxx

Something to help me to go by..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lcrbM1l_Bol&sns=em

Hey Sandra .

I hope you find something on days ...

I've never worked nights but I know that it can mess up your body clock and can feel like your sort of in the twilight zone ..my friend does them..

I know the more you go from strength to strength you will easily get something more suitable to reflect your new confidence...you're worth it!!

I'd love to be a doggy sitter for ever but I could not afford to be...maybe when I retire when I'm 100 at this rate ..lol

keep smiling and your posts are so upbeat again..no matter what happens it sounds like your a lady who won't be kept sad for long...and ever better that you have a counsellor who you trust ...

tried to look at our video but could not see it ...I've an iPad and no adobe thingy so maybe that's why...

Let me know what it was ..as you know I love love love music

R and D xx

Hi Sandra,

not chatted for a while, so hope that your spirits are high and that you are keeping well. Well done on a another week and hope to catch up soon.

take care

Phil

Hey Sandra

Hope you are ok, not been on for 5 days so got to catch up on everyone

Lisa 🙂

Hope you get they phone call!! Good luck. 70+ days is fantastic. 10 weeks no bets that's just brilliant I'm glad I done this 90 day thread cos I'm getting so much inspiration from you guys its keeping me going.

No Sandra

Thanks for the support.

Hope working these shifts aren't messing your body clock up to much :). Glad to hear you have a good counsellor, I'm petrified of going to my today. Not very good at speaking to people one on one about things, but need to get over it if I want to overcome this. But glad yours is working put well for you :).

Enjoy the rest of the week hope your kit to tired by the end of it.

Take care

Nicki xc