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Hiya.. hope you enjoy your 10km. I'd love to start doing running events again. I can't do the Brum half or the great south run this year because I can't afford the entrance or the train fares. A direct consequnce of my gambling. Anyway do a good time, your fit and healthy :-)... S.A x

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Hey there SJB

I'm sorry to hear the ol' black dog has paid you a visit .. I guess looking back isn't always helpful. Easy said I know, but: look back but don't stare is one of my favourite quotes I've heard. It stops me dwelling on the past, stuff either within our control, and often not.

Easy said I know 🙂

I wish you a peaceful evening and the same for the week ahead.

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Been having a catch up on your diary.

Lots of strong emotions coming up from childhood pictures, huh? How does your inner child feel? Is this where the strong emotions are coming from?

Take care,

f x

PS - I think not beating yourself up, is progress, personally. What do you think?

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letting go has never been a "one day thing" for me either.. try 12000 days.

...glad that you and your four legged friend are getting along well.

Take care.. S.A 🙂

Hey, my dear. Yes, abuse eh? Sick. He's gone. Permanently.

I was so happy right before I met him. Cannot believe how much my positive energy has dropped. Truly believe these people can kill, if you let them.

Such a pure love for an animal. Unconditional. Just enjoy it. Be present, thinking of the future is not for you, right now. Well, thinking of what you wish for, is. Focus on what you desire, not what you fear. It's OK. You are safe, if you let yourself be.

f x

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Take your time. Remember inner child. Meet her, and love her, first.

Love,

f x

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Miss S

For as much tragedy and pain there is in the world there are equal amounts of good and joy... seek those out today.

Have a great gamble free, drink free day... just for today.

Cathyx

Very easy for us to lose count of all our blessings.

Get how you feel Sandra. Much how I've felt for many years. Forgiving yourself is one of the hardest things to do. If you're struggling - keep trying.

It was about ten years ago I committed my last deplorable act. Homeless from gambling, did what I could to survive to quickly get myself off the streets. Got away with everything. No punishment.

Well...there's a Swedish proverb: "It is the crime that causes the shame, and not the punishment."

It's human to make mistakes Sandra. Punishing yourself isn't going to help you with the pain, hurt and shame (in my case).

It's going to be very difficult to allow the good you deserve into your life if you put up a wall of worthlessness that will block it all. Happiness will be attained after you start believing/knowing you are worth it.

You need to break the wall, first the code...

2W Be Ce

2W = Two words

Now, the other two words of the code (Be Ce) would of been almost impossible to break because unintentionally it might not accurately translate. The two important words are in Italian, which I always think I can speak a lot better than I can - which once again hasn't ended well for me.

At least this time my company didn't lose an important contract in the European market because of it.

Be = B_ _e = Bene

The code is the first and last letter of the word in my interpretation of Italian. This possibly should of been 'Bn' for 'Buon', although I'm not sure what I'm trying to say translates.

I probably should of checked.

I'm using bene to mean 'good'.

My overriding observation from your posts Sandra is that you have a good...

Ce = C_ _ _e = I'm going to let you figure out the last word of the code because I know you have it in you Sandra d;-)