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Hi Sandra,

Thanks. Your post on my diary made me smile. 😀 -joanxxx

Hi Sandra

Day 88 eh? Brilliant progress and a true testament to all the hard work you've put in every one of those days.

Be proud of all you're achieving!

Take care

Irene

x

oh! think we posted simultaneously yesterday lol

Hi Sandra,

I like your determination to stay stopped. Its one of those things that needs renewing and re-invigorating on a regular basis and your doing just that, so well done, keep going! 🙂 regards... S.A 🙂

Hey Sandra

Loving the new name of your diary....;-) ...

I can tell you have got your spirit back and that determination ...yeeehhaaaaa !!!

Onwards ..YOU GO GIRL !! Xxxxx

Thank you so much for your comments, Lady Feb, Joan, Irene, S.A, and Rachel 🙂 I wish you all the best on your personal journeys

Mood seemed to pick up higher around forum - FANTASTIC!

Good early morning diary,

Yep, early again... i forgot what sleep feels like lol. Busy bee all week. Nevermind, i will have my chance over next 3 days.

Well, not very nice weather i have to say( raining ....), really hope it picks up later in a day.

Feel good, except a bit tired, but hey ho a bit of tiredness never killed anyone...( i just need to wach out of my lower moods ) lol nothing new:-)

Not sure what i could do over weekend....but i'm sure what i'm NOT doing! Ha ha, yea guessed right

Still going strong, still getting what i'm given...good or bad it's all worth in this journey.

GAMBLE FREE, GAMBLE FREE!!!!!!

That said it all:-)

89.....gets better every day

I feel like rambling again.....oh dear...i just never learn haha

3 hours and i'm free as bird.....c'mon!

Take care all lovely people

Day at a time

We will get there

Sandra x

Morning Sandra

Great positive post and really pleased for u

The mood is much better at the moment there will be times though where conflict will happen it wasn't the 1st and it won't be the last, remember all that matters is ur own recovery that's all u can control selfishly and rightly so , what others do and how they do it is up to them ultimately don't let it affect urs

Soon be at the 100 day mark and that's a fantastic milestone to reach and then just keep pushing on, really really pleased for u

Castle2

Sandra

There is a saying I relate to your recovery.

'is your glass half empty or half full??'

I believe addiction makes us look at life through a half empty glass, we always feed our addiction saying well i've only half a glass left, what good is that!!

Then through recovery we view life with a half full glass.

Look everyone I still have half left!!!!

To look at the positives will continue to build the resolve to better our tomorrow by making a choice today

No bet today.

Keep topping up your glass.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thank you castle and Duncs for your kind words,

'Morning' diary ha ha....i planned to stay up today, but didmistake and sat down after work, next thing i'm passed out lol 🙂 if not phone call from sis telling me how good time she is having on her holiday, i would still be sleeping...

Read Rachels post about draining people. It's so true, i have load of them in my place and sometimes think i get tired of them more than my actual duties. It feels like they enjoy sucking your blood and waiting for your reaction...people like that winds me up....

The true is you can't be liked by everyone and i never try to be in a group, a**e licking or backstabbing.

I do try to avoid bad wibes, which is hard sometimes, couse part of my job is teamwork and comunication.

But as i said there are a lot of diferent people with diferent characters around, prob makes world more interesting place to be...

Anyway, my day carries on, day off, do some housework, take car to the garage, go for a run and chillax later on.

Definately no gambling in my plans!

Day at a time

Take care all

Sandra x

Hey Sandra, congrats on the fab progress!!!

Just reading your last post - I guess that's one of the positives of me being unemployed at the moment - no vampires to deal with, just the husband lol!

Hope you have a great gamble free weekend xxx

Thanx pinksparkle, love the pic:) Glad you doing well, keep it up

Hi diary,

Well my day draws to the end with mixed emotions.....I didn't keep my cool again and express my thoughts on other tread...

Quite strong urge to g....... at the min, but i know it's cause i'm a bit P***** off......but go and get my bat with spikes out and beat the s**t out of them...Simple as, i hate what this disease doing to me, and i feel i went too far to turn back.

f**k you urges! ( sorry for my language)

Upwards i go, ......no gamble just for today

Night all

Sandra x

Hey Sandra,

don't apologise for the language, do whatever it takes, sounds like there were some pretty strong urges and you are dealing with them in the right. Graham said last night that you were asking after me, I appreciate your thoughts, all ok with me, just been busy, hopefully we'll catch up on the chat soon!!

Phil

x

Hey Sandra loving the new thread name, thanks for the post on my diary been pretty rubbish at posting this week and feeling a bit at risk of returning to my old ways. But will try and keep strong, well done on your achievements - I look forward to the day I get there! Moving on xx

Thank you both and take care,

Dear diary,

Day 90. Just watching world go by.

All good my end.

Sandra x

Hi Sandra

A massive "well done" on 90 days gamble free! You have worked so hard to get this far and deserve to enjoy the benefits of giving up.

Good for you and the way you cope with the urges, giving them the heave-ho (that's me being polite lol)

Keep doing what you're doing cos its working for you 🙂

Have a great weekend!

Take care

Irene

x

Thank you Irene, you are fantastic support:-) all the best

Dear diary,

I'm back again. One of the 'thinking' days...these are not always helpfull actually. For some reason feel like failure again today. Reasoning with myself, and trying to think of how i could keep myself occupied. Feel drained, don't want to do anything. Could easily log on my phone for some sites....but i know the outcome..

Simply lonely....home sick too...

One of them days, i feel like better be working instead of wasting day off doing nothing...I suppose money issues don't help at the minute...some spending on a car at the end of the month....seems like work for nothing recently...

I know it's ok, and i'm moving forwards, no damage done...

Just need to get today over with and tomorrow is another day.

Haven't wrote letter for ages, maybe that's what i should do today...Letter to parents ( ain't got penpals to write to lol)

Miss them loads...

Thanx diary, it's fantastic to put my feels down on a days like that.

Day at a time

I will not give up:-)

Take care all

Sandra x