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Hello diary,

Well, all i would like to record today is that i am pleased with myself managing to get over with quite bad urges hoday( yesterday) what a hell of a day!

But at least i'm into day 91 feeling ok, ready to catch up with some sleep and just face morning in better spirits:-)

Thanx GC, i needed my chat today and big thanx to my mate Sofi, which managed to steer my attention from bad thoughts.

Fantastic, i'm back on track, money in a pocket, day off tomorrow, and glad with my continued abstinence;-)

Goodnight good people

Sandra x ..... rambling rambling rambling lol

Dublicate.

Hey Sandra

glad to see you are navigating your ship through some stormy waters ....I've changed my name to Rambling Rach as I've had some probs with my log in ...lol

I quite like it and given the fact I do a lot of talking and also have an amazing pair of hiking boots i figured it was quite fitting..lol,

keep strong Girl !!!

RR and D xx

Thank you Rachel xx ( love the new name lol)

Helloooo diary!

Feel 100% compare to yesterday. But it's gone, today is today, good start and i'm ready to face today's highs and lows.

Fantastic, i so want to carry on, and as i was tod yesterday, it's ok to feel down sometimes. Human being after all lol:-)

Anyway better get in gear, and move on with my day

Have a lovely Sunday good people

Believe in yourselves

Day at a time

Sandra x

Good evening diary,

What a great day i had. I should call it 'sports day' lol. Started with voleyball, went for a good run and then went for even better bike ride:-) didn't stop there lol, went to the swimming pool too and ended my day by going to cinema. Fantastic good comedy 'Grown ups 2 ' 😀 i would recomend it to everyone who likes to have a good laugh.

....After yesterdays near slip i thought that i can't just sit and wait for better times to come. I need to act, move forward and socialize....which is the hardest thing to me....to go out and face ppl.....

I did little steps today...and you never know, i might end up working in 'Oldrids' as my counsellor keeps suggesting me hehe

Retail....not my field but never say never 🙂

Anyway, pretty tired, had a great day and it all cost me just over 10 quid. Fantastic! That's the 'price' i was ready to pay online slots last night.....and i know where i would of ended up.

Upwards i carry on! Love it

Take care all

Day at a time

Sandra x

Good morning diary,

Well, got distracted by so many new entries tonight....just now stopped typing.... time just flies....really sad, this desease is destroying everything on a way...

I wish there was a cure....loved ones don't deserve that....

Day 92 for me...

Goodnight diary

Day at a time

I wish you all strentgh and believe in yourselves

S x

Congrats on your days. New week, month, year, decade. Whatever it takes.

This is encouraging for all.

I found without gambling problems surface but its nice to get them out of the way.

even if its slow progress

Thanx Soul and Trevski,

Hello diary,

Today been a good day so far, optimistic about things.

Getting ready for work, which is going to be challenging today, but hey ho, as long as it keeps my thoughts of this addiction, i'm more than happy to go through it.

Decide to look up at some courses, not sure what yet, but really determined to start something more exciting and time filling than sit at home and reason with myself.

Another day gamble free, and it will stay like that for today.

All the best good people,

Take care

Sandra x

Hi Sandra,

Yes, an evening class. That's a good idea. I use to do them quite a lot. Like you say, gets one out of the house of an evening and around new people. I spend much time reasoning with myself and doing very little.

Great stuff on another gamble free day. Regards... S.A 🙂

Hi Sandra

Oh, you're energy yesterday was amazing! I think the idea of an evening class is excellent- as SA says, getting out and socialising as well as learning new skills is so positive.

Gambling-wise, you're doing great! Keep doing what you're doing.

Take care

Irene

x

Hey, thank you guys:-)

Good morning diary,

First time in ages i can honestly say i don't mind to be here today lol.....hmmmm...white lie actually ...:-) really busy, i suppose it's good side to it too, time goes quicker.

Anyway, Rachels post got all my imagination going lol...cyber world ey...you can be so surprised:-)

Well, another day ahead GAMBLE FREE, i am coming back to my senses. First i need to get back to studying...Some kind of classes, good job i've got College near by and next week they have open day so really want to go hav a look around. See how it goes...Just want to make something out of myself while i can and have clear head on lol

Actually lost count in my days...i think it's day 93 today...over the moon, how silly i was to get myself into all of this. But hey, it's addiction...and it's better come out clean later than never.

Thank you all for your kind words and support, i know i can be too rambling sometimes( if not always lol) but we have plenty of characters here and are unique in our own way...

Take care all

Day at a time

Sandra x

Hi sandra

Seems like you have had a bit of a tough week, i am so glad that you stayed strong and got through it ok. Evening class sounds good, thats why i like doing my dog agility, it helps me focus and i have made lots of friends. Good luck in whatever course you choose.

Speak soon

Lisa 🙂

Thank you Lisa, keep fighting the good fight:)

Hi diary,

So, day progresses, 13 weeks in and feeling ok. just back from the looong run, because had stress head on since this morning. The "best" worker decide to stab me in a back before finish this morning..I'm still fuming, but know i have to keep it together.

I feel what's coming tonight, long hour in conference room issuing discipline.

I don't get some people, i keep out of the way, and they just have to hit you in a face constantly...all that couse i got lucky in interview and got the job? ( maybe i had better skills and decent English....!)Cmon grow up!

I'm not trying to be liked by everyone, i'm not perfect...but there is no need to S*** you off in every single step...

Ramble over......

Looked at College site and prob going for Travel and Tourism...seems low fees for the year too.

hey ho...keep calm and carry on

day at a time

Sandra x