Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hey Blondie,

Thanks for your supportive post on my diary.

Great last post from you there on the definitions of recovery.

It's a journey for sure, and your supportive post has made my day all the better.

Thanks again.

Ade xxxxx

Thanks for the post and examples. Hopefully some opportunities will come my way.

Best wishes on your continued recovery.

Yo,

Oh dear I quite like James Blunt perhaps that's why I am such a moody cow lol

To add to your recovery statement , the biggest thing gambling took , stole or I gave away was my self worth.

Recovery for me is the journey to it regain it .

I see you , and so many other dear friends on this site building in confidence day by day by day 🙂

Best leave you to sponge off your Hunters ready for your next outing ,

Take care ,

Shiny xxxxxxx

Morning Blondie

Great post on recovery its so important to understand what were dealing with and that takes hard work commitment and never giving up, you are a perfect example of this and its great that it allows others to see how it is done

Castle2

Hey Blondie,

Thank you so much for supportive post on my diary. It means a lot

Great post you got there. Recovery is huge word when you think of it. It's our Life, it's a way out in the right direction.

Be proud, you deserve everything what Life gifts back to you in this recovery.

Take care

Sandra x

I am learning every day how to basically cope with life again as gambling made me almost child like, I could hide in my little world forgetting about how I felt and all the responsibility that went with my life.

I always had someone to bail me out, my mum and dad, my ex husband, loans, I was never self reliant as maybe not consciously but I always knew there was a way out, And each time I got bailed out I swore on everything that lived that I wouldn't gamble again, Then the old behaviour and warped way of thinking would set it, And bosh..... I would be back to ,square one.

I have learnt that I can be self reliant, in fact I'm pretty good at it, I have learnt that I am strong, I have learnt that I am determined and I can ride out the S***e without taking the cowards way out and looking for an easy option.

Life is hard, life isn't fair, life can be S***e, people will hurt you, get over it blonde, Life is also precious, beautiful, amazing, and fun, I will always try and choose the latter but I must also remember I can't control people, places and things, only my own choices and the consequences that go with it.

Today life is a bit grey round the edges but I accept that and I'm ok with that.

It's been a funny week, my boss has got himself in a whole load of deep s**t, he is a bully end of and people will only accept that for so long and maybe now he is reaping the karma he has sown.

Not my problem all I can do is be honest .

My fiancé had a biopsy on his foot removed on Thursday we will get the results in a couple of weeks, nothing I can do about that either apart from be there for him and support him, Having said that I am not with him this weekend, which I sort of feel bad about but then I have to make sure that I am rested and have some of my needs met, I still struggle with that but I'm getting better.

A bit of a waffle for a Saturday but f**k it, better out than in.

Thank you for the posts all.

Take care

Blondie xxx

Hi Blondie... great post. I understand exactly what you mean about becoming self-reliant and developing an inner strength in recovery. You seem to have developed a mature and realistic outlook on life.

Like you say I also become just like a dependant child when I gamble all my money away and I also (for many years) had bailout options... until the day came when I didn't... the banks said no, my family said no, friends said no, even rehab said no...and when that ultimately happened I entered a whole new layer of horribleness.

Nowadays i'm kind of "getting it" in some respects in that it doesn't matter how rubbish I may feel.. but I really cannot gamble... to go back again could just be the end of me. Thast a good motivating factor to stay stopped.

I have a friend of aged 56, approaching rock bottom (again!) and I don't want to be that way when I get to 56... still a while away I might add.

Anyway, great to see that your in good karma and positive headspace, despite what is going on in your life. Regards... S.A 🙂

Hey Blondie,

Inspiring and so true post. Your determination tackling problems head on shines through. It is the only way forward, no more hiding.

I learn so much out of this site and people on here. if i feel like going round the circles sometimes, i know where is a way out. The choice we make daily - no gamble today....anything but gambling suits me.

Thank you for your honesty and inspiration, I can look up to you, and get that sense of hope back. We can do it!

And it could always be worse than it is...

Take care

Sandra x

http://youtu.be/iDEdZfnULIg

Hi there , thought you might like to see the words too, poignant for me as my Dad used to sing this when he was washing up with me.

Hope you other half is ok.

Take care

xxx

Hey Blondie ..

You are rolling with life's punches as they say and inner strength to guide you through and deal with them ..

I am made up you are out there living life to the full..music, trips away and also with your hubby to be..I could not have genuinely wished it for a nicer person.

I did enjoy your operatic link..lol ...think it can move you when you least expect...in the past I thought it was all about shrill, large ladies singing in a high pitched voice but I guess when it comes to conveying emotion it's the best...

I hate it when a piece comes on the radio and a the DJ says it so fast that its illegible. I used to spend a lot of time singing in high pitched voices at the HMV staff ..till the booted me out ..lol xx

blondie.

great last post my friend that's two in a row!!!

I get a great deal reading posts like that and feel we sing from the same hymn sheet.

maybe it's our time spent at GA, it gifted us both a glass half full.

yes there is S***e in our lives, it is how it is dealt with.

first and foremost that is about looking after ourselves something gambling stopped us doing.

as you say i was too like a forth child to Sarah.

keep making the right choice.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Thank you everyone for the posts.

A rainy day in Manchester I suppose summer is finally over , I find winter a struggle it has previously affected my mood quite significantly , but with the glass half full mindset these are some of the things I am looking forward to. Snowball fights when it arrives, hot. Chocolate with marshmallows , soups and stews and potato hash, onesies and curling up on the sofa whilst its raining, getting full use of my hunter Wellingtons lol, my daughters birthday, my birthday, a good book.

Like abstaining from gambling, I have a choice I can try to be as positive as I can, some days I will win, other days I might fail dismally but I will always choose half full, something gifted to me by recovery.

I found this and really loved it.

"A stonecutter may strike a rock ninety nine times with no apparent effect, not even a *** on the surface. Yet with the hundreth blow, the rock splits in two. It was not the final blow that did the trick, but all that had gone before.

When we work on ourselves to change who we are, we sometimes get discouraged because we can’t see anything happening, everything still looks the same as yesterday. We have to remember that recovery is a process not an event and every time we do the next right thing we are affecting change inside ourselves even when it still looks the same on the outside.

Then all of a sudden at one moment we will be able to look back and say wow “this is a different rock” there was change here, but its not that final blow that did it, its the constant perseverance in recovery despite our falls and slips that does it." Posted on the website Spiritualcondition.com under the title Recovery Is A Process Not An Event.

Take care all.

Blondie, no bet today or since 23 April 2012.....

Xxx

Hi Ms B

The stone cutter story is perfect...thanks

Irene

x

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=…F73j0c&feature=watch-vrec

I absolutely love this women, if it helps just one person then great.

Second post from me today xxx

Hi Blondie,

thanks for your sustained support - much appreciated. It's always nice to see replies on your diary.

And 'well done' on 17 months. That really is something.Time to take a leaf out of your book, stay positive, and start striking that rock.

MM