Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

So this is a special post for me, ive been thinking today (always dangerous lol), Its my mums birthday tomorrow and i thought a good gift to her would be the link to my diary.

Id like her to see what ive been doing over the last 86 days and Im hopeing that it will make her happy to know that i have made such a determined effort to do something about my addiction and change my life for the better.

So I hope you made it to the end mum, I love you and I hope your still proud of me

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Soooo Hope you got to the end mum,

Well done , I am proud of you. This will take away the dark demon and allow you to be the carefree and untroubled soul you deserve to be.

Than you for sharing and finding the resolve to get past this, to the new future you deserve..

Rock.... the other side of the big shoulder xxxxx

(Otherwise known as Mum).

This is the best birthday present ever!!!!

hey Blondie was lovely chatting earlier and thanx so much for your post ! i didn't know there was a 90 day thread thing so will defo join up to that think it will help ,Oh and yes little man went to sleep finally after an hour ! cheeky monkey lol anyways i will keep posting and keep upto date with everyone's progress and together we will all beat this ! stay strong Sunshine : ) X

Hi Blondie

That's with fantastic bout our diaries we can post whatever we feel on any given day , I am sure ur mom will be more than proud , standing up and fighting with everything u av dealing with everything that life has thrown at u , and throw into that helping so many people along the way finding the time and putting in the effort when u had so much goin on urself

I'd say she will be very proud

Take care

Castle2

Hi Blondie,...Hi Blondies Mum..im also a supporter too....from the supporters side of the forum..

My ....what a creative daughter you have here...she is an absolute star and is doing fantastic work on this forum keeping us all lifted even though she herself has some low times....

Proud to cyberly know her and as she is your own I can see already you are also a top woman too...

Happy Birthday ! and big hugs to Blondie and You too ...

Lots to smile about and the future is looking bright for us all on our own paths ...Just get Blondies job situ sorted and those concrete shoes on her boss then it will be further celebrations all round...

night night

hugs

Rach and Dotty ...wuff wuff xxx...fellow northerners just past manchester airport xx

ps NO MORE RAIN .

Hey Good Morning,

Just wanted to say I think you did something amazing yesterday. It takes a huge amount of courage to tell some one you love. You virtually mention mom everyday and I can see she is immensely proud of what you are achieving. I think you will also see the benefits of having someone so close knowing.

Another huge step forward on your personal journey a journey I have followed from day 1 and will continue to follow as I really believe you and many others on this site deserve a happiness and contentment which can only be brought about by not gambling.

Have a lovely day, and Happy Birthday Mom!

Flagg

Morning, the Blond one, I think it's really good letting your mother trace back the steps you've taken on your journey thus far. I'm sure she's proud of you anyway but this'll raise that bar a notch or two. Take care Blondie, enjoy your weekend.

Steve

Oh, keep thinking its Friday, I mean enjoy today, Thursday.

Big well done on sharing things with your mum. It shows how far your journey has come and shows your strength and determination in continuing this journey.

Haha ha madferrit, got the accent and the imagery off to a tee. Shameless! But fun.

Steve

Hiya Blondie

Thanks for the post hun...thinking you and your rock must have lots to catch up on...

Keep posting and keep telling us about your day...

Its great to have a laugh along the way and im so glad that too your extended family is part of the mix....truly I believe all things like this can also heal families ...it only takes one person to get into recovery ..more of this on my thread as don't want to hijack your diary ..but you and rock an inspiration xxxx

Rach n Doo xxx...

Hi Blondie,

Wow girl....You put me through some emotions today!

Firstly read your entry about sending the link to your mum.....I cried hun...but tears of happiness for you....You deserve so much...Bet mum is sooooooooooo proud of you....just like all of us!!

Then I opened my post from you...with the womble song....then I cried tears of laughter!!

Have come to the conclusion that the one good thing about my gambling addiction has been getting to know all the fantastic people on here!

Psssssss....did you see Flaggs post on Sunshines diary....Not wanting to STIRR or anything.......LOL

Anyway Blondie have great time tonight.

Hugs....shoes....and.....all the womble fur going!

Sue xxxxxxxx

Day 88

And a really emotional day, Had a long chat with my mum about my diary and my addiction, I know she understands its funny rach you was right what you put on your post it opens up so many conversations, It was definatly the right thing to do, my mum said its the best birthday present ever to know that Im ok and im determined to keep going and heading in the right direction.

I suppose it opens up so many more conversations to come and i truly feel like now i dont have to hide anymore, it feels like that was the last nail in the coffin for my demons, no more secrets no more lies, you have nothing now to drag me back into your lair.....

Went out for a lovely meal and I hope I brought a few smiles to my mums face, the first of everything is i suppose the hardest, we have to get through my dads birthday now on the 31st.

My mum has just made me cry i have a RIP page on my facebook this is what she wrote.

Days slowly go by as the precious memories of our life together come and go .

I realize I need you so much because I’ll always love you. Every moment apart feels like an eternity.

I miss you when I'm sad. I miss you when I'm lonely. But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy.

I try to be strong as you would wish, but today, on my Birthday, my thoughts will return to last year and I will picture you singing “Have I told you lately,” with the mike in one hand and your other hand in mine and I will see the love in your eyes, the love that keeps me sustained and will continue to do so until I draw my last breath,

Today the fantastic family we started ,their partners and our grandchildren, who show me every day how much of you exists still in this physical world, have enveloped me in their love.

Goodnight my Peter Pan ……” first star on the right and then straight on till morning”

Emotional day but im still here gamble free, making the right choices every day.

Blondie xxx

hiya lovely....

Wow...What a day and one to also remember as part of your family story....

I think this week has probably brought you all that bit closer...

You probably have heard me say this before but the most precious gift we can give each other as family and friends is to be "known".....secrets can also often bring people closer when they come out.

In my own life so many have passed and it was only after they had gone, years later that i found out secrets that we're kept but only if I had KNOWN it would have made me understand more and maybe healed so much earlier and brought us closer.

This is why I am so open about my life including the stuff that folk may be judgemental about...

I think you and your Mum will enjoy an even closer relationship and be able to keep your Dads memory alive....and Van the Man there to help your mum remember all the love.

The time was right for you Blondie and even though it was too late for me and my family I get an absolute buzz from knowing that other families like yours are being brought closer together and that you are all on the way to be truly "known"..

Big hugs to you and your Mum the rock.....hug each other a little tighter...precious cargo xx

R and D xxx

Happy belated birthday to your mum that was just lovely what you done 4 your mum fair play 2 u.

I know day 90 tomorrow means so much to you you will be chairing your meetings now il, pop in tomorrow blondie on your big day your doing brillant a day at a time!

blondie,

thanks so much for your kind words they make me realise further that recovery really is a wonderfull gift,we just need to unwrap it sheet by sheet as there is a priceless gift inside all of u,simply to live gamble free, I am so glad you got to share your diary I did the same and I know it did help my mum understand me more. As for the tabs I am 23 weeks today without a cigarette and good luck, my advice would be use the same approach to quitting that as you have gambling,help is ther (gum for me) and you will feel better,

hope the sun is a shining there and you enjoy Mr Weller oh no wiggins LOL ride up the champs a wot not come sunday!!! the first brit winner.

Big day tomorrow 90 up for you my dear friend a brick in recovery I hope you enjoy half as much as I have walking by your side!!! you do sooo much deasrve it.

Duncs stepping forward never back.