Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hi Blondie,

Thank you so much for the post........Was just what I needed.

Went to bed really down......checked my diary this morning and had soooo many messages.

Womble is back, standing tall and very very proud!

Don't worry bout not having much to say can assure you words will start to flo again!

I'll start you off shall I..........Subject of the week......SHOES!

Hugs sent to my gold medalist!

Sue xxxxx

Morning,

You know me always putting a different spin on things must be annoying lol but mayb it's not enthusiasm you are lacking for your diary but simply words?

All our diaries read similar to begin with, how we started gambling, what we lost, how we want to stop etc. We have lots of stories to tell many of them pretty horrible in all honesty, people we have let down, people we want to make things up to.

So then we settle into the pattern not gambling its great and we celebrate it everyday often referring back to what we would do in the past. As time goes on though we don't have so many stories to tell.

Infact our story over time becomes the best one possible because we simply say much like you today I did not gamble and I have had no urges, brilliant really but it doesn't take up many lines on your diary.

Just my little spin on it and I am sure you are fully aware by now that even if the enthusiasm or the words won't flow then just a simple hey today I didn't gamble is enough to keep those days ticking by.

Have a nice Sunday!

Flagg

Afternoon Blondie, thanks for the post. Hope you're ok and Woody is too. A roast sounds lovely, well it would cos I'm starving at the moment. The Olympics has been brilliant, really enjoyed the coverage as well as the events. Me, a fishing champion and I was the only one there who wasn't taking drugs. Last match of the season this week, I'm going to wear my Victorian suit and flat cap again, if I could I'd turn up on a horse and enter the water like a scouse Mr. Darcy. That I'm sure would guarrantee another success. Anyway better go, take care, Steve

Hi Blondie, thank u 4 ur post on my diary 🙂

I'm really glad that Woody is better, u must have been soooo worried!

I hope u enjoyed ur roast, and I hope u r ok 🙂

Stay strong xxxxxxxx

Hi Blondie

Again no thoughts of gambling no urges is exactly what we want to be saying , when u say u av lost some enthusiasm for diary then believe me when I say I totally understand this has happened to me on several occasions even to the extent of wanting to quit for good , I find sometimes it's best to av a few days off from it when u feel like that and then return when the enthusiasm returns , if u notice many of us now who av many posts like urself can take it or leave it a little bit more now that we are further into our recovery

Ultimately everyones recovery is different and only u know what is best for u , I know one thing u won't be goin back to the days of old the progress u av made and how ur life has changed is a real credit to u , sometimes it's good to reflect on our journeys always remember to be proud of what u av achieved

The enthusiasm will return I am sure of and this site will be so much better for it

Take care and stay strong

Castle2

Hi Blondie,

I hope that all is well with yourself and that you are having a good day.

Take care

Dave X

No gambling urges. Sounds good to me. I suppose it's only natural to not be so involved in your diary after a while as you getting more out of life and have others things to do plus of course you don't need as much help as you once did. Which is great. Obviously our guard must always be up but it's great to hear that your living life not worrying so much about gambling.

day 106.

Had an alright weekend, been feeling a bit down the past few days and ive not really been able to put my finger on it but have been thinking about why, I seem to be letting the stress levels from work and last week get to me. Last week sort of hit home to me that although im in a relaionship i felt very much alone last week.

I talk to my boyfriend every night in the week for hours at a time and with the worry of woody and running around again like a blue a**e fly (no idea where that saying comes from ) I sort of feel like im carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. Its really difficult having a long distance relationship as sometimes sub-consciously i know i hold back, thinking that something will go wrong or that why should i put 100% into it when i feel alone.

This is obviously just my feelings on it, i know its difficult for my boyfriend as well as we miss each other and he is trying to sell his house down south and find work here etc but if he ever sells his house work for him wont be that important as his house only has a small mortgage. I think it stems from last week when i asked had he rang the estate agent about a second viewing that he had and he didnt ring them, i then think well is he serious about all this. Im probably blowing it all out of proportation and i know i need to speak to him about it, but that natural default kicks in and i didnt, then it brews and brews and comes out in other old behavouirs.

No thoughts or intentions of gambling but I know that these are the behavours that led me there and i have to keep making a concious decision to change them.

So although i feel that ive put the gambling demons behind me there is still a long way to go.

But im aware of it and therefore now i have to do something about it.

Thank you everyone for your messages as always they give me plenty of food for thought.

Blondie xx

Blondie.

For me my dear friend this situation is one as a cg at it would be easy to explain we go gung ho at everything and expect an instant solution, today in recovery I am still impatient and this lesson I know gets easier over time. Take a step back in the last 100 odd days yourself you have achieved a massive amount and gamble free this will continue, be kind to yourself, treat tuesday tomorrow!!!

You are doing an amazing thing here.

I know that it is not all plain sailing but life is warts and all for sure on the up.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hmmmmmmm it's really a hard one that dilemma. Relationships, I'm pretty lousy at them but I'll offer my thoughts for what they're worth. You both love each other and enjoy each others company, that's a certainty. The only problem is the distance and taking the relationship that stage further. It's a big commitment to sell your house and relocate elsewhere. Yet many people do and go on to live happily ever after, so to speak. I've no idea what's going on in your BF's mind yet I'm sure he's still very keen to make that commitment and settle in with you and woody. Any doubts in your mind can be alleviated by gentle talking, just tell him how you feel, how you want to be together forever, to cement the relationship further, your hopes, your fears. Get it all out in the open. If you speculate then worries grow and manifest into irrationalities. I'm sure though that everything will turn out ok, it always does in the end.

Well that's my thought for today over with. The other dilemma was much easier to solve, running round like a blue arsed fly is simply referring to the frantic , continuous movement associated with a bluebottle or colloquially called a Blue Arsed Fly.

Take care

Steg Attenborough

Yo ,

So just to add into the mix of the advice and thoughts of two very wise gents. Who prob know more about how men think than all us beautiful ladies put together lol

I think as a gc I always looked for worst sencario ( not sure how to spell that ) . Over thinking and often putting two and two together and coming with 360 oppps .

Talk to him , tell him how you feel, find out his fears , cause he might be sitting at home thinking and expected a different reaction from you .who knows ??

We know you were destined to be together , ( I did read about how you met ) Sure miss womble will have a comment or two to add on that subject lol

It will all work out ok. Like you said been stressful week , but hay you are facing things head on , instead escaping into the dreaded world of gambling .

So for that I say well done, cause through this journey we grow more and more capable to do that

Anyways sleep well , hope woody is on the mend

Shiny xxxxxxx

HIya Blondie ....just a flyer before bed as been on the other channel...lol

Thanks for your post hun ...and i'm also very proud and thrilled at your achievement in such a relatively short time....

Also really glad to hear Woody is on the mend as its a worry we lil 4 legs are not well.

I can also relate to your post...my relationship is also long distance but i'm a lot earlier on in it than you i think...having said that I guess some of my old behaviours kick in like "you'd be better off with someone local " etc.. just hurting myself really by pushing away.

Im amazed nowadays how many people do long distance as i guess the t'internet has kept love alive and also exciting.

Great in the early stages but not so great when you want to move to another level of commitment i know....also had the move discussion too.

I am confident you will work it out Blondie ..and

that things will literally be moving soon...you do sound like you are made for each other....

alright hun...I shall sign out for now....and yes..in answer to your question it will be a bonfire...you should see the glow from the 56...lol xxx

Rach and Doo xx

Morning Blondie,

I hope that you are okay this morning. Great to hear that Woody is on the mend. I really hope that things work out for you relationship wise.

Take care and keep smiling.

Dave X

Mr August! Nahh, I want the top billing, my agent 'Tiny Richard' demands it. Mr December or nowt, the nativity month. I can picture it now, dark peaceful nights lit up gently by the cascading colours of sparkling Christmas lights festooned in the silent blowing of soft white snow. Shoppers are merrily passing shops buying gifts for their nearest and dearest whilst amidst all this serenity I'm hanging there upside down naked in the friendly butchers like the last turkey in the shop.

Merry Christmas one and all, and a happy new year.

Father Stegmas.

Hi Blondie,

Firstly thank you for yesterdays post.......Kick up the backside...just what I needed.

Now onto your relationship.

You are feeling slightly insecure......From what I can make out there are just a few things you are holding back. Do you feel you can't question him too much because of your lack of disclosure?

Do you feel because of that you can't question why he doesn't seen to want to fast forward the relationship?

You know m8...I think you are reading too much into it but because you are holding back. You are going too deep.......in all honesty...I think you should lay all your cards on the table. At least that way you can both move forward!

Got me new glasses today and am trying to be intellectial......lol

Massive hugs...Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx