Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Yo,

Hey chief Angel , good job !

Thank you for making me laugh .

Oh and also being my co conspirator in trying to put just alittle smile to the faces of our wonderful gamcare family today .

🙂

Shiny xxxxxxx

Thanks 4 the post blondie ur rite recovery is not easy but it is far easier than being back in that world of pain called gambling.

Your glass is always half full and your doing just great a day at a time and this forum is very lucky to have you!

Take care

Thanks for your post Blondie, i am feeling quite raw and emotional and you have managed to come with the perfect words.

Keep up that positive vibe and lovely idea for the tatoo!

Take care

Paulds

thanks for the support blondie.

irene

Thank you for the posts everyone its always appreciated.

My tattoo is on hold till january or till i come back of holiday as the guy has said its probably best to wait and not have it in the sun and sand so soon after its done bit dissapointed i cant get it done now but then thats back to step 4 lol... take a fearless and moral inventory, PATIENCE is something im working on lol.

My head is full of this time last year thoughts as it was on saturday that i received that dreaded phone call from my mum that she was going to hospital with my dad he died at 2.18 on the 18th of november a day imprinted in my heart forever.

I really am trying to kick myself everytime that thinking comes but really struggling at the moment, saying i will treat it like another day and putting that into practice are 2 different things.

So for me this week its about keeping as busy as i can if i can get past this weekend without doing anything stupid like gambling then I can do anything.

Emotional times always led me to gambling but I have my body armour on and im 6 months stronger and wiser to this horrible addiction.

So positive reminders for me are

its 6 and a half months since i gambled

I have learnt so many things in this past 6 months

I dont want to ruin all the hard work i have put in.

I have the support of my family and boyfriend

I understand myself and my triggers so much more than i did therefore i am stronger.

I have seen everyday on this forum and at GA the devastation gambling causes and i dont ever want to go back to that.

I have this forum and you lot who are doing this ,You inspire me.

Just for today I will not gamble.

Blondie xxx

I know nov 18th will be difficult for you and your mum Blondie, it's bound to be. Yet that's a testament to your father, it's shows what type of man he was and that he meant something. You were all lucky to have known someone like that and have been close. Nov 18th will come and go, it'll be a time for tears and believe it or not a source for a little happiness as you remember the good times, the funny times even. It'll feel raw, emotional but you'll cope because you're one of life's copers, take care.

Steve

Hi blondie

Sorry so hear your father passing away.

I know it will be a very hard day for you on the 18th November but stay strong and remember the good times you had with your father.

If you can visit his grave with your mum and lay some flower to show how much you and your mum miss him so when your father looks down from haven he smiles on you two.

So stay strong and stay positive and remember every day the sun sets and the next day the sun rises with new hope.

Hi mate,

Thank you for your posts and your continued support. I will be thinking of you on Sunday and remember to think of all the good times you had with your dad, remember the laughter, the love and the support and know that you will always have those special memories.. no matter what!

Well done too on your continued progress my friend!

Take care,

Lmm xxx

hey hun

Thinking of you this week and know in my heart that you and the rock will come through the day ....

Look after each other and woody will protect you too....in time the memory of that day won't feel as acute but it will also not be forgotton..

keep strong

R and D xx

Ah, just keep on doing great baby, cause that's what you are doing. A real inspiration to all newcomer's and the long time folk.

I do class myself as an old fogie, at 35 years of age, but i guess i would not have i not gambled the last 8 years away. Well, I think you have every bit to be proud, an awesome spirit, self confidence for beating this deamon.

I know one thing that's killing you, the fact you cannot tell your dad how good you are doing, well, you don't even have too. Cause, he know's oh yes. He is still with you.

Have a great evening Blondie.x

JP.x

Blondie.

hovis came back when I called him!!!

He must have been hungry LOL!!!!

Just to reitterate what has already been said my dear friend, Your Dad would have without doubt been watching this journey your on,just look at all the joy it has brung, Your relationship Great(bf and kids!!),your mum reads your diary,the worst challenges are met with a smile!! Oh I think you packed up smoking and you got a woody!!

For that he will always wear a massive smile!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

cheers for commenting on my diary blondie

hi blondie

Carl

Hi blondie just wanted to let you know i will be thinking of u over the weekend especially Sunday

take care mate

thank you everyone for the lovely posts Its always very much appreciated and gives me a boost especially when im feeling a little sad.

No gambling to report had a few thoughs of last night but i have come to accept that they will come and go the main thing is I wont be acting on them even though I feel quite weak emotionally at the moment I know deep down I am strong enough to fight them off.

On sunday we will all get together as a family and try and remember my dad together, my brother and his wife and 3 kids , chaos and mayham as my dad used to call the twins lol My mum , me and my 2 daughters and boyfriend, we have booked in for an early breakfast at a really nice place that we go to then we will go for a nice long walk with the dogs in the woods somewhere and im sure there will be lots of stories and memories that will bring the tears and the laughter.

My dad always laughed and he always made people laugh you could always tell when he had the devil in him and he would tease and play with grandkids for hours and hours and thats what he was like when I was a little girl.

My dads death a year ago was the defining point in my life in lots of ways and I just hope he can see how im trying to turn my life around.

I miss my dad, I always always will But his blood runs through my veins Im half him so in a way he will always be with me.

It will be 7 months gamble free for me next week the longest time ever I have gone without gambling so something good came out of losing my dad.

This weekend will be spent with the people I love most in the world and I will be free from the stress and worry of gambling I couldnt really ask for more than that.

Take care everyone

Blondie xxx