Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

My thoughts are with you for the weekend. x

Hi blondie

Thank you for the comment on my thread it was lovely. Well done for almost 7 months such a fantastic achievement. I hope your weekend goes well for you, and it's not to hard.

Take care

Nicki xx

Yo,

Hay sweety, just wanted to say , you will be in my thoughts this weekend .

It's ok to be sad , it's all part of the grieving I think.

But you sound like the plans you have made will also see you laughing and reminiscing about the good times and I know there were plenty .

Sending you daily squeezes ,

Shiny xxxxxxx

Hi Blondie...

Also thoughts with you too and with Dad as HP he shall be with you ..walking along side and so proud of his girl....

Whatever comes up on the day just let it be and dont try and fight it...theres no one to let down or keep it all in for..youre all each others rocks..boulders and pebbles... all one thing in common...a strong solid family..

hugs

R and D xx

Hey,

Like everyone else I hope Sunday is a day for remembering the good times, the smiles, and the laughs. Yes there will be sadness and tears but from what you have said about your dad I think he would much prefer you to spend the day talking and sharing stories that brought all those things mentioned above.

I was having a read back through your diary and many times you mention gambling as your escape. You have overcome this! Many times you have said I can do this One Day at at time. You have followed that philosophy.

You are a top top lady and I would never say anything but nice things about you I mean how many other models also play the XBox 🙂

Gamcare Dinner watch this space!

Sending smiles and hugs aplenty.

Flagg

Hi Blondie

Just to say , thinking of you today and sending hugs to help you through

Lucy xox xox

Hi Blondie

Again thoughts are with u today , I'm sure ur dad will be so proud of what ur doin its an amazing achievement and u still av all the motivation to carry on with ur journey

Take care

Castle2

Hope you and your family get through today ok Blondie, take care

Steve

Take care and keep strong today

Irene

x

Hi Blondie

My thoughts are with you this weekend honey. ...he'd be so very proud of you.

Take care and big hugs x

Jewels

Spared many a thought for you today my friend,

Flagg x

Hi Blondie,

I have been thinking about u 2day, u have done brilliant on this journey and I know ur Dad would be so proud of u. I hope 2day went as best as it could 4 u!

Stay strong xxxxxx

Thank you everyone for the posts of support you don't know how much it means to me and I am forever grateful .

A really tough weekend in places for me but also a weekend full of laughs and being surrounded by the people I love . Saturday was the worst day really my head and thinking was a bit like a firework exploding with different thoughts and I lost track of the times I just burst out crying , I was transported back to that day a year ago in the hospital and at times it was unbearable I wished at times I could just find the off button for my head. I still find it quite hard to talk about that day and how I feel about it but I tried to think about my mum and how she must feel which at times made me even more upset.

My mum is an amazing women and she said at breakfast on Sunday that she is going to try and take a leaf out of our book and accept the things she can not change and be thankful for the things she had and the legacy that my dad left behind.

It was so special to be around All the people I love and we have made a pact that we will do it more often.

I had lots of thoughts of gambling over the weekend but I know that is the addiction trying to take Advantage of me whilst I was at my weakest , what I learnt is that I am a lot stronger than I think and even though it was tough those emotions of grief were never going to kill me because they will pass but gambling would drag me back into the black hole and I knew deep down that I wouldn't give in.

So today the resolve and the body armour is that bit stronger and another victory for me in the battle.

I am off to g.a tonight to top up that strength a little more.

Take care everyone and thank you.

Blondie xxx

blondie.

I am so glad to read your weekend was spent in a fitting tribute to your Dad.

Yes the urge to punt does come along at these times when we are weak,but You stood strong and layed another brick infront of the addiction, A brick with you dads name on it!!!!

Be emmensly proud my dear friend,enjoy this journey because you have brought about nothing but GOOD!!

I accept gambling had me licked,it beat me but our resolve wont let it take our "second Half"

You put one right in the top corner!!

duncs stepping forward never back.

Morning Blondie.

Many thanks for your kind words on my diary.

Hope this finds you well and in good spirits.

Stay strong,

Best wishes,

gazza