Hi Blondie... am not sure if i have posted to you before but just in reading your first posts and your last few posts I can see how well you are doing with the not gambling especially just now with the sad times concerning your dad. Makes me think how important family is. Anyway, thanks for your support. I will muddle through my latest trauma and in time I will reach a better place. Regards... S.A 🙂
hi blondie
Well done on passing another very difficult stepping stone
You keep on going from strength to strength
You can't change the past but you can dictate the future
Carl
Hi Blondie,
Thank's always for your support on my thread, means a lot. I think any armour is good, but it does take a strong person to refrain from those gambling thoughts especially when you going through a bit of the past, and some bad times. Awesome for getting through that one!
I keep getting thoughts, I dont think theyre urges. More like what if I just put 20 in... Type thing, then all the bad things start creeping through my head about what if i did. Is it worth it? The answer was no, so I take a step back. Many of those bad things are mostly the way I felt in my darkest day's but a lot of them I get from this forum. I think about all the people I have read about and the ones that stick to mind. That does it for me. SO hopefully for both of us, never again it is!
Have a great day,
JP
Yo,
Hay Hun that's that weekend got through .
Well done , spect it was not easy but you did it , so here's one of my extra special super duper virtual never let go of you hugs .
Oscars Friday .
Speech ready , carrier bag ready , outfit ready , contenders ready
ONLY A TREADMIll TO RUN UP
OXYGEN MASK READY lol
SHINY XXXXX
Thank you everyone for the posts xx
I love this forum and the people who walk side by side with me in unity.
It never ceases to amaze me the strength and character of people even when they have slipped.
I use all the posts that I read to my advantage good or bad there is always something I can take away and add to my body armour to make me stronger.
I admitted defeat to this addiction 6 months ago, I cant win and I actually dont want to I dont feel inferior admitting that and I dont feel any less in control in fact I feel more in control because I know the tricks it plays on my brain and now I have lots of new skills to deal with them.
I cant place not 1 single pound on gambling because I know I wont stop there and If i have to tell myself this everyday then so be it.
I tried on willpower alone to stop for nearly 20 years, I bribed myself, I lied to myself, I hung on for dear life and each time I went back because my head said "Go on just 10 quid wont hurt", that part of my brain is broke and everyday I try to re-programme it that yes 10 quid will hurt because I wont stop at that and then the madness will begin all over again.
Repeat untill done. Well guess what Im done with gambling. !
My name is christine and Im a compusive gambler, Just for today I will not gamble.
Blondie xxx
hi blondie
Wow
Well my name is Carl,I'm a compulsive gambler and today I shall not gamble
Carl
Hey,
Christine is it? Did I know that? Feel like I have made a new friend 🙂 although it does make me think of a film by my main man Stephen King!!
Great post today my friend and it's always a real pleasure to read your diary. I often take bits from it and apply to my own recovery so thank you!
Flagg x
Good post Christine. Gonna have to get used to Christine. I'll bet I'll be typing blondie next post lol. Great to read such a strong sounding post. Thank you for the post the other day it did feel great being 6 months gamble free and slipping felt horrible. So why do I still want a bet. Crazy isn't it. Well I'm back now and looking forward to getting some distance between this last slip. Thank you for your support it gave me a lift and I think with each day I'll keep getting stronger. I'll take the advice and call it a day admit defeat and try to never let if effect me again. Thanks.
Hi blondie,thanks for post on my page it really keeps me going knowing others are keeping a eye on my progress which makes me fell am dot doing this alone.i read your diary to and that post ment alot in my recovery I feel the same way and hopefully can go on to do as well as your doing the now.BIG WELL DONE keep up the good work and remain betfree xx
Thankd again scottboy
Aye Up Chrissy...we always shorten names in the North as you know...
Now...just need your surname and address and can send you a chrimbo card...tee hee xx
Always good to read your thinks hun....hoping your weeks going well and you and the family all pulling together.....rocks together.
hugs
R and D xx
Yo,
Hay Hun , just saw you jump an Olympic jump forward on that recovery road .
Was going to write my names xxxxxx and I am a compulsive gambler , but could not risk it coming back on me .
What you did was very brave 🙂
Hugs to you , well done !
Shiny xxxxxxx
Hi Christine,
My name is joan and I too am a recovering compulsive gambler. When I am not posting I am reading and reflecting-- you are someone that are often in my thoughts and prayers. I don't even have to say what a constant support you have been to me and so many others on this forum. You continue to inspire me and I know so many others as well. Hugs! -joanxxx
Hi christine
Just read your last post and would like to say that that is exactly the mind set I used and still do.
You are on the right road to recovery , keep going and never forget where gambling leads us.
stay strong, you are beating this.
Jim (last bet 22/04/06)
Hi Christine Thanks for taking the time to post on my diarie.I can see your doing so well so just keep it up.am sure this is a time thing and the longer we go the better we will feel.together we can and will all beat this!
Thank you so much for the posts everyone. Gull yours was one of the first diarys i read when i arrived to this site its people like you that give people like me hope and prove that with the right attitude and commitment a gamble free future is possible.
Another milestone approaches for me 7 months gamble free on friday also it will be my 7th pay day without wasting 1 single penny on gambling now that makes me feel even better.
I look back on xmas 2011 which was one of the worse christmas i can ever remember, my dad had died suddenly my gambling was off the rickter scale it had progressed to roulette by then and i couldnt lose my money quick enough. I hated myself with a passion, I couldnt look at myself in the mirror without feeling sick, I was racked with guilt, I was wasting so much precious time on gambling, I had no motivation, I was depressed and in such a dark dark place tettering on the edge of a breakdown.
Fast forward to xmas 2012 and It couldnt be more different , with hard work commitment and a want to change I have lots of things to be proud and thankfull for possible by being gamble free.
The possibilitys are endless if I continue to put my heart and soul into recovery.
Just for today I will not gamble.
Blondie xxx
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