Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

hey hun...

just checking in whilst i cook me tea...glad you are getting the support you need ...

I sometimes struggle with what to say as its not my place to give kick up a**e and to be honest i wouldnt know when and where to do it...but as Duncs says and MM maybe this is necessary with something so destructive as gambling to keep you on the right track....

If ever I give tough love I always feel guilty and think someone will die and it will be my fault...I know that sounds ridiculous but thats how I feel....

anyhooooo....the darkness is behind you and with all the support on here you are in thee best hands my lovely xx

R and D xx

another big milestone for me tomorrow, 8 months gamble free. !!

I dont think i have to say much more than that, the numbers speak for themselves.

Take care all

Keep going, stay focused and i will to.

Blondie xxx

Hello my beautiful friend,

o*g...Just realised you have been in "my town"

Don't let the college grads put you off...Us locals are ok!!!!!!! Town and Gown we call it here!

January blues is what you have.....springtime will bring you to blossom again.

I have really appriciated your messages hun.......such wise words...Feel you really "get" me.....thankyou.

Wombly one xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

P.S. Huge congrats on the 8 months!!!!!!

hey hun

hope oxford is treating you well....need to send search party out to find Sue.lol

just a flyer...nowt much to report...sending big congrats on your achievement too .wow..what a year and time sure does fly....

lovely post on Duncs diary from you..xx

hugs

R and D xx

Hi Blondie

Thank you for your post & support.

Congrats on your 8 months gamble free that is a huge achievement. one that everyone wishes to have.

Stay strong and focus

hi blondie

massive well done on hitting the 8 month mark, i wish you more success for the future

Hey blondie, many thanks for the lovely post on my diary, will take time to read thru yours but see that today is your 8 months gamble free, this is a magnificent achievement and one that you should be proud of,

I will be 2 months in a week and that's my goal

Well done again

Hey,

Think we have both suffered a little bit this month with the old January blues but its time for us to shake it off and think about how far we have come and how much we have to look forward too :)!!

On the subject of looking back you know I said I would keep the count going for you well Mr Flagg thinks you have underestimated your progress!! I think my good friend is 9 months bet free today :)!! An inspiration to so many on this site well done!! After yesterday and seeing Duncs reach the 365 I think you and I should make sure we drag each other to that same milestone!

Ill be walking alongside you 🙂

Flagg x

I don't know what made me pop on for a read today but so glad I did so that I can give you HUGE congrats on another milestone (whether its 8 or 9 months lol!) on the right day for a change!!

Hugs. x

ETA: Tis 9 months, just checked the date your first post - go you!! 😀

Thank you everyone so much for the posts, it always means so much to have your support !!

So i got it completly wrong. (thank you flagg for correcting me in a good way )

Today i am 9 Months gamble free, Wow Wow Wow !!

God how my life and more importantly I have changed these past 9 months, Its been really hard in places but then nothing worth having is easy.

When i first joined this site 9 months ago I was a mess, My life was unmanagable, I hated myself and everything that I stood for. I was racked with guilt and grief about the sudden death of my dad and I was heading for a nervous breakdown, but i continued to wear the gambling mask, the mask that I put on everyday to kid myself and the people i loved that everything was ok.

I had so many masks I was losing track of what was real, I lived in a little gambling bubble that consumed me everyday.

I was blowing my hard earned money like it was going out of fashion, I used to sit up on pay day waiting for my wages to hit the bank so i could gamble.

On friday it will be my 9th pay day , my 9th pay day that i havent wasted not one single penny on gambling, my 9th pay day that has allowed me to have numerous holidays , my 9th pay day that has allowed me to settle some of my debt, My 9th pay day that allowed me to get through xmas without any worry, My 9th pay day where i could save some money to fullfill my dreams.

Today i have dreams I havent let gambling steal them from me.

Today i have pride and self worth im not letting gambling take that either.

I gave away so much more than money to gambling and each day gamble free Im claiming some of that back.

I have tried each day to be a better person, to work on the things that i know dragged me to gambling, and I will continue trying, I cant ask more thant that. !!

I continue to be inspired by people on this site, I read everyday and I read at least one newcomers post to keep reminding myself of where I could be should i decide to go back.

I aint going back today.. Wooo Hooooo

GAMBLING CAN KISS MY a** lol.

Take care everyone

Blondie xxx

Blondie!

What an awesome post, so positive, so inspiring and of course so true.

At times it is difficult for us to be positive as we often remember only the negative stuff and can't see how far we have come. You have done incredibly well, those 9 paydays are incredibly special and with all your hard work i am sure you can look forward to many more.

You have turned your life around in so many ways and your dedication, perserverance and determination to life life in a positive and fulfilling manner are such an inspiration, I salute you!!

Stay safe and strong and keep building up that armour

paulds

Hi Blondie,

Well done girl!! You are an inspiration to us all and today, the Belle of the Ball. HUGE HUGS for 9 paydays in YOUR pocket! -joanxxxx

Whoopee Blondeeeeee

9 months is a marvellous cause for celebration- well done. Thanks for allowing me too share some of that journey with you.

Keep up the fab work you do.

Irene

x

Thanks for the posts everyone,

really love this

Gratitude is a form of wisdom. It is patient, loving, hopeful, and rigorously honest. It denies nothing, and it overlooks nothing. It looks reality full in the face and says: This is true, this is me, this is my situation, and I have the opportunity to build from here. This is my starting point, and I will succeed!

Blondie xxx

Hi Blondie,

Can't believe you missed a month on your gamble free time...lol Good old Flagg keeping ya up to date!

So I will start again....congrats on the 9 months!

Loved you writings on gratitude!

Next time you are my way let me know and I will def buy you a drink...I know all the "cool" places here!!!!! It is soooo much nicer in the summer!

Done the punting a few times but am usually the 1 to fall in!!!

Sue xxxxxxxxxx