Going to do it this time.

A few more days have passed and still not had a play on the fruit machines although not really had any urges or the chance to anyway.

19/159

Day 21, 3 weeks will have passed since I last gambled if I get through today, it seems like an eternity to be honest since I was last in the zone, going to keep myself busy and away from any of the arcades, still got to self exclude from the arcades/bookies/bingo halls/etc.

Keep going pal, long road

Day 22

Had a few thoughts of the slots last night, this morning but no real urge to play the machine's, maybe the thoughts are my fault as I've been reading/researching quite a bit on how the machine's operate, the return to player and how the pnrg works or how people believe it works.

I'm trying to get some more knowledge that will hopefully educate me to keep away as the advantage the machine's owner has over the user/player.  The more I read the more I realise you're never going win and the machines are developed in such a way to make you believe you can win but you can't in the long run.

Well today feels already like a day I would partake in a flutter, but I won't instead a bit of shopping is on the cards, take the pooch for a few short walks as she's recovering from an operation earlier in the week and the rest of the day will be spent lounging around the house today, getting ready for another busy week working.

till later....

Well another day has passed, that's 22 out of a possible 159 free of addiction

till later...

Well here starts another day, a day of abstinence, a day of keeping busy & staying focused because today is another day where I shall not gamble.

Till later.....

Anotherer day again, wish I could of stayed in bed this morning feeling proper groggy and body ache's but up and at em anyway, roll on the weekend for a few day's of possible lie in's past 5am.

Till Later....

Well today hasn't been so bad, the tiredness soon wore off this morning once I got to work and did a bit, not really had any thoughts of "going and having a quick punt on the slots", just need to keep this mindset and stay away from the arcades.

Another busy day tomorrow so I'll not have a chance to have a punt which is good.

Till later..............

Well today(work cancelled due to not been told correct info therefore I'm down a day's wage) would usually be a day where a visit to the arcade would occur and a mammoth session on the slots(trying to win the day's wages), usually resulting in me losing  a vast amount, but today it will not happen I'm going home to do some office/paper work instead.

Will not let this get me down, may be down a day's wage but not going toe down hundred's of pounds more as well.

Till Later ...........

26 Days racked up gamble free, been quite easy to be honest no urges but a few thoughts which are soon put to the back of my mind.  Still need to put some more blocks in place, self exclusion from all arcades/bookies/bingo halls is going tome a good start, although at the moment I don't trust myself going to any of the places to fill the forms out, having a week off next week so going to look into doing it all then.

Till later....

Day 29, still going strong had a few thoughts about playing the slots to be honest but the feelings of how bad I felt last time have not subsided yet so easy to put them to the back of my mind.

28 days -  4 whole weeks without succumbing to the slots machines, come next Sunday (35 days) it will be one whole month, which although not my longest spell without playing the slots, it will be the 1st time this year I've managed to not play for a full consecutive month.

Will be treating myself as well, going to go back and buy one of them paintings if there still available.

Had plenty of time to think lately and alto it will isolate me even further, I have decided to knock in the head going out socialising/drinking as the temptation out there to play fruit machines in pubs is massive especially once I've had a few drinks, although not done much drinking since stopping smoking last year (not had a cig since mid November apart from February this year the I was stressed and bought some L&B, but they tasted horrible and I gave more than half the pack away, the cost also put me off at £12+ for 20.

Time to start getting focused on my future and putting in place my plans for retirement which will soon be upon me if time carries on going as quick as it has, I swear it seems like yesterday it was the millennium not nearly 20 years ago. 

Till Later...

That's 29 days wracked up, No  urges today, might have been different if I'd gone to out to watch cricket, but not really that interested it would have just been a reason to get soaked in it, usually involving copious amounts of alcohol,  a lengthy period on various pub fruit machines, 40 of yer finest Lambert & Butler and probably a bit of m*************r.  

Staying at home has saved me a great hangover (financial one as well) , saved me feeling s**** all day tomorrow,  but more importantly it has kept me away from the fruit machines and smoking, Although there is a downside to this which is isolation from your friends as you decide to stay at home and not attend the social gatherings.

Surely there is a way of obtaining a happy medium but I never seem. to find it, so until I have conquered this affliction I will just focus on staying gamble free, building up my business, sorting my life out and looking after my four legged friend who gives me a reason to get up in the morning (usually 5Am when she's jumping on my bed telling me it's time for breakfast and walkies)

Till next time............

Another day is upon us, the weather is great but what to do ???

It's a bank holiday so do I get off  somewhere for the day, stay at home and do a few jobs or what, one thing is for sure I'll not be heading to any arcades or bookies that's for sure.

Till later.................

Been a bit of a strange day, not really done much apart from lounging about in garden, starting to embrace it now.  Usually I would have sat about ten minutes then decided to jump in van and go somewhere, this would be the local arcade centre's, Occasionally returning home with hundreds more than I set off out with.  Any winnings would always be given back with more on the next visits on the following days.

Not no more, from now on I will be using my money more resourcefully investing it in my future, what ever it may hold but for the foreseeable future I'll be checking in on here most days, reading peoples stories/diaries and my own previous diary's, reminding myself why I have to keep abstaining from this addiction because if I don't it will end up breaking my financial health, my health & my mental health.

Till later...

30 days out of a possible 159 free from the slots.

Start of another day, already been up a couple of hours time for a bit of breakfast then off to work for a few hours.

Another day of abstinence ahead.

Till Later .........