Going to keep this thread now!

Not gonna support you cause you talk about P***s, vaginas and poo! LOL LOL LOL

Keep your big girl's pants on, never let anyone grind you down.
Keep being you, looking after yourself, appreciating lil things in life!

As of the job, i do hope you can do the steady transition back soon. Sometimes it's the best place to run away from our feelings ☺

Be good & enjoy your weekend!

S x

Ha ha! Cheers, S x x

Gratitude Day 1

1) I'm grateful for the delicious toasted cinnamon and raisin bagel I had for breakfast today. It is great to get your day off to a good start

2) I'm grateful I was on time leaving the house this morning. I got to walk to my friends at my own pace. It is great to go with the flow.

3) I'm grateful for the doggy snuggles I got this morning while I was dog sitting. Love is great.

4) I'm grateful for the wonderful feelings of joy I experienced last night. It is great to feel joyful.

5) I'm grateful for the lift I'm getting later today to go for a gong bath. It is great to have friendship and to receive help.

6) I'm grateful for feeling better in general, lately. It is wonderful to be able to get out and about more.

7) I'm grateful for the cheque I received in the post for a council tax refund. It is great to receive in abundance.

8) I am grateful for the s*x I keep having in my dreams. It is very enjoyable!

9) I'm grateful for my sense of humour - I'm f****n hilarious.

10) I'm grateful for vegan cheese. I love having cheese and pickle sandwiches without being mean to a cow.

I think the idea is brilliant.
I love seeing people post positive piece's from there life.
Number 10 from post 2569
Was gold
Thanks for sharing

Haha! Thanks, Deano. Appreciate the feedback! I think we can find positives in the little things if we look for them. Life doesn't have to be all promotions at work and romantic marriage proposals to find things to be grateful for.

Gratitude Day 2

1) I'm grateful for the opportunity to meet some new and interesting people last night. It is great to broaden my horizons.

2) I'm grateful for the lift I got from my lovely friend last night. I appreciate her kindness.

3) I'm grateful for the gong bath I had last night. It was therapeutic.

4) I'm grateful for the resolution of something that was really upsetting me. It is great to find the answers you need to integrate an experience.

5) I'm grateful to my ex-boyfriend for participating in the above. He hurt me but at least he has given me the answers I needed in order to heal and let go. It is great to receive co-operation.

6) I'm grateful to feel more peace and less anger now as a result of the previous two reasons to be grateful. It is wonderful to be at peace.

7) I'm grateful for the ease with which I can forgive, once I understand. Forgiveness is healing and divine.

8) I'm grateful for the positive influences around me. I know some amazing people. I'm honoured and lucky.

9) I'm grateful to have witnessed someone being deeply moved and having their suffering profoundly eased last night. It was wonderful to see this happening. It is wonderful to witness healing.

10) I'm grateful I was able to express my authentic self today by doing something I often can't do due to anxiety and/or depression. It is an important part of who I am. I joined a protest against a major highstreet bank and helped raise awareness of their dangerous and immoral business practices (funding fracking) It feels great to stand up for what you believe in.

Hi interesting read x

Thank you!

Gratitude Day 3

1) I am grateful for the lovely cuddles I got from the cats at the rescue today. They were really sweet. It feels great to give and receive love.

2) I am grateful to have made peace with my ex-boyfriend last night. I'm left feeling a lot of love and compassion for him - how much of a result is that?!

3) We are staying split up and not staying friends but we had one for the road last night! Wahey, why not, eh?

4) I am grateful that I managed to sort out some bank statements with ease today. When you are on benefits you can't f**t without them wanting paperwork to prove it. Oh, well. C'est la vie.

5) I am grateful for the chance to do some laundry today. We share one washing machine between 4 flats and it's been almost a week until I could get a look in! I got my laundry done and will have clean bedding to sleep in tomorrow.

6) I am grateful for a healthy blood pressure. It is great to have a strong, healthy body.

7) I'm grateful for the lovely chocolate vegan ice cream I had today. It tasted like s*x in a pot.

8) I'm grateful that I have plenty of clothes to wear and good shoes to put on my feet. Not designer ones but just in good repair.

9) I'm grateful for an interesting article I read today. It is good to read about interesting things.

10) I'm grateful for feeling so happy at different points today.

night freda. great gratitude points

Cheers, Triangle 🙂

Gratitude Day 4

1) I am very grateful for the courage I have to try new things. Brace yourself - I got my b*m cra ck waxed today! hahahahaha! It was f*****g painful but variety is the spice of life!

2) I am grateful for the beautiful sunset tonight. What a bobby-dazzler.

3) I am grateful for the lovely toasted raisin and cinnamon bagel I had for my lunch. It was epic.

4) I am grateful I got myself into gear and did most of my washing up last night. It was considerably less sheet to wake up to some clean knives and whatnot.

5) I am grateful for dogs. How great are dogs, man? I've had a right laugh talking to dogs in the park, today.

6) I'm grateful for the laugher I had with a random old man today. He told me his Alsation was an ex guide dog. I didn't really believe him. Do they train Alsations for that? I asked. "Oh, yes!" the old man said as the Alsation tried to drag him into the road while cars whizzed by. I said "probably just as well he's retired! Can you imagine if he dragged a blind person into the road?!" Oh, how we laughed.

7) I'm grateful no one set fire to my wheelie bin last night or this morning.

8) I'm grateful for the lovely fresh air you get in the park. I especially appreciate this, living in a city centre.

9) I'm grateful I didn't pass out from pain this morning, when I was getting my a r*e waxed. That would have been embarassing.

10) I'm grateful for my freezer. It's got lots of meals inside. Hooray!

Hi Freda , I alway's find myself looking forward to your post's of gratitude and am amazed at what your gratefull of ?.

I'm gratefull that you alway's make me smile , it's good to smile !

Thank's Freda

Alan x

Thank you for making me smile , another interesting post x

Abundance is all around us if we only care to notice, Alan. Honoured to serve as a catalyst for your smile.

Gratitude Day 1

Wow! Days are getting busy and intense. Too tired to list my gratitude yesterday - something needs rebalancing!

1) I am grateful to hear I've helped someone smile. What is not to be joyful about that?!

2) I am grateful I was able to donate £2 to Syrian refugees yesterday just by eating a meal! My local cafe is donating a portion of their profits to refugees every day this month. What a wonderful business to have in my neighbourhood. It is great to give.

3) I am grateful for my new chess buddy I met with yesterday. He seemed very happy to have won 2-1. It is great to see people happy.

4) I was grateful for the opportunity to serve as a channel for Reiki yesterday. What an honour. It is great to be of service.

5) I am so grateful for the Scottish politician Mhairi Black. It makes my heart sing to see a strong, working-class woman have a voice in parliament. I felt joy watching her latest speech, urging Tories to go and watch the film I, Daniel Blake. She makes sure they cannot claim to be ignorant of the truth.

6) I was grateful to bump into my friend yesterday and be asked to provide a Reiki treatment for her again. Abundance is literally coming to my feet.

7) I am grateful for simply feeling better, lately. It's great to make progress.

8) I am grateful for vans. They carry things to my house so I don't have to!

9) I am grateful for my toothbrush - it stops my teeth from rotting.

10) I am grateful for my work colleague who is going to post my payslips through my door on her way home. It is very kind and kindness is magic.

I'm not bi-polar or experiencing some sort of hallucinatory state, there really are this many things to feel grateful for. Gratitude attracts more things to be grateful for. It's like a snowball effect. If you're thinking "I'll have some of whatever she is on" It's gratitude. Gorge yourself on it. Have a binge today!

Hello Freda,

Thank you v much for your post, but can i just please clarify that no physical outbursts are present. By lashing out/ rage and anger i meant mentally and emotionallly. I am not hurting anyone physically.

I know what you're saying and thank you again.

Everything will get better, keep your soul intact and appreciate lil things in life.

Look after yourself and stay safe.

S x

Having a low day. Probably the first in a while.

My faithful diary is always there for me, to spill out all my feelings good bad and ugly.

Things have been a lot better lately. I rarely feel that strong terror that would grip me, making it feel impossible that I could be OK, that I could put my life back together. I really didn't feel safe. Everywhere I seemed to turn there was pain and fear.

I've still got a long way to go. I've experienced a lot of trauma. I still crave that person who feels like family, or a safe parental figure, who can hold me and keep me company, tell me everything is going to be OK. I feel much more like I can take care of myself the majority of the time but still have the odd day like today when I just want to be a child and be looked after. Be held and feel safe like nothing bad could possibly happen to me while I'm in those arms.

I don't really have romantic feelings for him anymore but today I just really miss my husband. He was the only person I can remember feeling so safe and loved with. Truly accepted 100% and he never really needed me in a way that felt scary. He never had problems that were too scary for me. I could support him and encourage him and listen to him when he was feeling fed up but it was never too much. He gave me a feeling of belonging and roots. The stability to know I could rely on him to be there. He was my companion and I miss him.

I saw my ex boyfriend on Sunday for some no-strings-attached s*x. It was good and nice to have a cuddle afterwards and share some affection. I felt loving toward him. Not in love, or even romantic love but just loving fondness. I felt it from him, too. It was nice to get my needs met, on my terms. He has been suggesting meeting up again, playing chess together, hanging out but I don't think we should. He is very chaotic and doesn't take care of himself. He also has some very scary problems that I just don't want to be involved with, or hear about. He is gambling, which I already knew - and this I could cope with to an extent. As long as he wasn't going hungry and getting his electricity cut off or begging me for money. The problem that really scares me is he is still getting anonymous letters threatening to kill him and he had his car scratched again. Whoever is doing it also sent a threatening letter to his parents house. He managed to intercept it this time - the first time - as they were on holiday. His Dad has had 3 strokes and they are both in their seventies, so something like that could kill them. That is just far too much for me to cope with.

So, I'm feeling lonely and moments of closeness with him are reminding me of what I miss, I think. I don't want to be in a relationship with him because of his problems but those moments are nice and leave me wanting more - from a safe person.

So, I'm just aware of the lonely feelings, of not having anyone home at night to cuddle up to and seek comfort with, of not having that significant other to be by my side if I fell ill or had a bereavement or something. You know, just that aloneness that doesn't feel good.

Hi freda

Thank you for sharing your feelings so honestly in this post. It sounds like depite your loneliness you still have a lot of strength, to recognise that you don't want to get involved in your ex's chaotic life.

The situation you describe with the threats sounds very worrying. Is this linked to borrowing money perhaps? You could get some advice from the Loan Shark Hotline - you don't have to give your name or your ex's. https://www.gov.uk/report-loan-shark

And you are very welcome to contact us for support on our helpline: 0808 8020 133.

Best wishes

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Thanks, Gamcare. I don't think it is related to gambling debts although I did consider this as a possibility.

I think it's related to his ex partner who received threats, too. He thinks it is linked to a police officer who is obsessed with her. It's very complicated and I have no way of knowing the truth for sure.

I can't get involved. His family will be able to bail him out if it's debt.