Going to keep this thread now!

I have heard of this, Stephen. I'm going to be trying it in October on a weekend retreat 🙂

Focusing on what we are grateful for invites more of the same into our life. This is my belief.

A gambler's mindset is one of 'lack' This attracts more of the same.

This is a powerful practice and knowledge to have.

Hi Freda,

How are you keeping on? Thanks for your post....LOL..i pi***d my "borrowed money" down the drain and did the deed in high fashion!

...not the way i want to live my life...absolutely not. Things could be worse of course, but why go for worse if you can reach for the better ☺

Time to ac ept help..i cannot do this by myself.

Hope all is well in your world and you're keeping safe and calm

B&S xx

Hey, everyone 🙂

I'm OK.... Anxious sometimes, not much these days. It happens! I'm moving in the right direction.

Been for a run this morning, gradually getting fitter. Gave a Reiki treatment on Sunday. Really want to get back to doing this! Felt great!

Going for some Reiki myself this afternoon. Keep those reserves topped up 🙂

Things with boyfriend have calmed down, emotionally. I no longer feel panicky like I NEED him. Can take or leave him but happy for now.

The sun is shining. I am blessed.

Nice 🙂

Ugh, I have self-sabotaged! not with gambling but food. I have eaten almost a full tube of flippin Pringles.

I know it's not the end of the world but I'm frustrated.

I would never have left a few in the bottom!! 😉

Your right... its not the end of the world... the body needs some extra salt in this warm weather

Cheese on bread has been my downfall today... I have been for a run mind.

All the best 🙂

I had been for a run 🙂 Well, a 30 minute jog/walk, rookie run, but a run nonetheless!

Weirdly, I think this is why it upset me so much. Sabotaging my own hard work to hold myself back.

I do the same, hence why my wobbly belly never fully wobbles off!

One solution is to lie in bath for ages after run... gives a chance to burn some fat and unless you have very long arms ya won't be able to reach the munchies cupboard.

Happy days 🙂

We are all running around huh ☺...well, cannot relate to the same really :-(..Didn't run for ages and didn't eat for a while also.
I did feast today and cooked chicken and salad & had a pack of popcorn!

I needed to eat that's for sure. ..

Back to original thought.
Thank you for the message the other day. Still trying to work it out...lol...why? My addicted brain choses to miss important stuff out but i will keep plucking at it because your post had a lot of good points...

Thank you for your support. You know how we roll huh...just thank you.

I hope you have had a good day. Maybe another walk/run was on the to do list! ..i had an amazing walk in the forest today...found really beautiful spot to walk. Pure trees and fresh air...absolutely loved it! Hoping to go back tommorow..

Look after yourself f...same as SA..be kind to your best friend - YOU! ☺

Sleep well

B&S xx

Thanks S x x

Well, nice weekend with friends and boyfriend, although got a migraine on Saturday which cut my fun short.

I am frustrated. Boyfriend struggles to connect with me like he used to. Without this connection I feel lonely. He holds my hand, kisses me, we have s ex but the connection is hard to achieve. I can't be bothered. We may have to break up soon if he can't give me this connection. It's in the eyes. Always in the eyes.

Gambling certainly won't solve anything, that's for sure.

Hi Freda,

Connection...yea, i guess i understand where you're coming from. Maybe open chat about your feelings and finding the solution accordingly?..Worth a try, honesty - best policy ☺

You're right, gambling won't solve it..it just makes things worse...

Be good to you

S x

Yeah, just sick of feeling disappointed. I used to get addicted to these kinds of relationships. They are kind of like fruit machines - they randomly pay out occasionally. You never know how long it will be until another "win".

I just want to be adored all the time, really. I'm a consistency, predictable-affection seeker these days.

You can't find love if you're with someone who doesn't love you! Don't waste energy trying to make them love you, just keep looking.

I feel proper, well and truly FED UP!

I want to let my frustration out today, I want to cry and stamp and vent. I will get back to positive thinking tomorrow. I think people often don't let themselves vent, they are scared to feel it, but I think it's healthy to feel it. Yes, it's healthy to think positively, too, but emotion needs to be felt and released.

I'm sick of not getting what I need, sick of being patient, sick of struggle, sick of frustration. Eventually the world will have to change because humans can't live like this. Today, I'm sick of waiting and I'm angry that it hasn't already changed. This world will test the patience of a saint!

Things are getting better for me and I am grateful for that. I want them to get better faster! It takes so much energy "hanging in there".

I'm tired of waiting for people to have time for me, I'm tired of going without. AAAAARGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Somewhere, somehow, there is enough for me on this planet! I will find it!

I reject the world that currently stands in front of me! Show me more, universe!

Gambling has always been a very "angry" behaviour for me so I'm determined to not do that and just to feel my anger instead.

Good girl on coming by and getting it all out! I used to go to the fields and scream my head off lol...it did help!

Hun, some things are out of our control. We need to work through the pain or dissapointment (in our eyes) and keep looking ahead.

I feel your pain. I am in similar pain...truly am. & do believe i am coming out different person. (Part of me has been broken and that piece won't slot back together no matter what)..maybe with different expectations of others or myself..the world..hmmmmm...world can be nasty olace but we are here and now and nothing can be changed here. Hope this makes sense.

Feel the feelings...you will get through them.

CW said very true statement: " it gets worse before it gets better"...do not give up on yourself...this shall pass..

Be kind to you

(((((((Freda)))))))) xx

I just wrote a post then lost it.

I'm devastated. I told boyfriend I was really unhappy because I felt he wasn't into me and needed showing more value or I'd have to walk away. I really didn't want to but it was becoming too hurtful. His reaction made me really furious and I flew into a rage.

He was just like "Oh, well". The reason that enraged me was not because he wasn't that into me. A person can't help that. What he could have helped was asking me for a second chance when he saw I had feelings for him. It is spectacularly selfish to do that when you're not that bothered. I trusted him that he cared enough to not ask for a second chance unless he really was sure he wanted me.

Really fragile today. This has opened my "no matter how hard I try, I am not loved" wound. If I had a job to go to I wouldn't be able to attend. I'm just weeping. Earth feels like an unbearably cruel place.