Going to keep this thread now!

Hi Freda

Thanks as always for popping by my diary, hope you are ok! Work is going ok and i am looking forward to christmas, are you?? done all christmas shopping?

Anyway a hot bath waits me and a little tv then bed, routines, routines and more routines... Life, what a joy, lol!!

Take care freda and by the way i agree with grahams post. ands xx

Aw thanks guys, Im all misty in the eyes now 🙂

I'm just being a bit moody, im sure it'll pass!

Aching all over and whining like a right old pansy, but my lovely hubby (have decided to start calling him that early) is giving me lots of hugs and love. He dont mind a twisty face now and then.

Feeling very rough today!

Went out at 1pm yesterday for xmas, and didnt come home til 9.30pm - and I was the first to admit defeat! lol.

Is a bit weird, because the people at my part-time job are nice enough, but they all like going out on the lash, Im not into that anymore so i dont really fit in.

Thats not rejection though, just different lifestyles i guess. A couple of them can be a bit b****y and critical about people too. The one Ive mentioned before, who is moody and a bit funny with me at times was taking the wee out of the new lad yesterday. He is such a canny lad as well, he hasnt worked in two years so is a bit wobbly on his feet - but I dont think you should knock someone who is really trying. He is not lazy at all, he is just not as perfect as this particular princess, lol.

Was kind of a nice feeling though, to notice that I fit in just fine last night, but was hard work for me. In these situations I used to desperately try to make people like me, now I just accept we are different and dont have to be best of mates.

Me and hubby off to get some lunch and then we are stopping in with a dvd cos its freezing!

Hi Freda... xmas work gatherings can be tricky affairs, seeing collegues out of work context and all that. Great that you felt able to be yourself.. cheers.. S.A 🙂

Hi f. Thanks for popping on to the diary. Well I`m OK ty. Took the Misses on a date tonight. little foody pub we like. Had a good talk. We are supposed to be staying with them for a week over the New Year. It`s gonna be pretty uncomfortable. It`s like things have changed for ever in a way. Trust gone.

Had a text today from my niece, she is 23. She walked out Friday when bro-in-law came back and has not spoken with him. Very angry and doesn`t know what to say.

We may well stay there in an hotel so we can at least see the kids and hopefully have a chat with them.

Silly begger, if it had been a leg over well that`s one thing but this is just dumb. Angie, my wife, is just hoping that he wants to get back with P for the right reasons, Oh well, at the end of the day it`s their problem. I just hope that he realises all the carp he has caused.

It`s the kids I feel really sorry for.

Am sick of Christmas already! have spent a fortune in the last couple of weeks, much of it on people i dont even like! My siblings and I are all in our thirties, all married - why do we need to still buy gifts for each other? its madness!!!!

I really do hate christmas with a passion. Lol. I agree we should all humour little children and all that, but you should be able to just opt out once you are an adult. The shops are packed, the pubs are full of violently drunk people, its dark and cold, the gas bill is due next month - arrrrggghhh!

Thats better. Nothing like a good rant, eh?

Exactly!.. your thoughts echo mine precisely. Rant away thats what i say. cheers S.A 🙂

Hello Freda

Hope your ok, just wanted to say hi, i wish you all the best over the festive period, hope you have a great time even tho you have spent a fortune, know the feeling, but its better than gambling!

Take care you sweet lady, all the very best to you and thank you for all your support and kindness over the last 6 months.

Andrew xx

Hi Freda,

Summer is my thing really, but hey just popping in to say have a good Christmas, and thanks for your help in my journey this year.

best wishes, Grenson and Maddy x x

Hi Freda,

Happy xmas.. if its possible for the likes of us bar humbug people.. cheers for now.. S.A 🙂

Thank you all for the lovely messages 🙂

I am quite low at the moment, but confident that it will pass. I find Christmas very hard, as I am still very awkward and unsure of myself around people.

I am not wallowing though. I will use this experience to drive me forward, to make my life better, to push through my fears and insecurities and be the best I can be in the coming year. This can be the last Christmas I feel depressed and unpopular - all it takes is a bit of hard work. It is in my power to change my life for the better.

I have had the longest break from gambling this year, that Ive had in years. I have started to dabble again in a very small way, though I dont mean to make light of it. The dabbling has been a way of treating myself and medicating my emotions and this must stop. I dont seem to have the energy and motivation that I had 6 months ago to stay clean.

I have to stop completely, because this is the only way I will learn to deal fully with all of my emotions. Its pretty scary, but the longer I avoid this, the harder it will get.

Anyway, Im off to get some exercise. A great new habit I have acquired - do something positive when you feel painfully negative.

Well got lots of housework done, but still feeling awfully low Im afraid.

Just wish things were better with my family. Im going to do some ironing and recite my blessings, time to change the mental record to something a little more upbeat.

Thank you for your lovely message> Hope you feel better soon. You are one very nice lady. I hope the new year is a good one for us all.

Cheer up Freda :-))

I hope you have a lovely Christmas sweetie!

Jas and family xx

Freda just read your kind words from Crimbo eve it was nice of you. I think you and Graham doa lot of supporting and you guys seem to be the pillar of strength but sometimes you are allowed to feel low and have off days but from what i have come to know about you you will bounce back. Hope you had a good christmas and i will be in chat tonight so c ya there if pos.