goodbye dizzymissy78

1.30 and I'm awake again hey I just realised it's 28 DAYS A WHOLE MONTH!!!!how awesome is that even in a month things have really improved mostly mentally (apart from the not sleeping and still having guilt)very happy and have absolutely no feelings of wanting to gamble so all good for the moment planning a 10k beach run tomorrow my new hobby and making a new recipe from weight watchers ok try and sleep now!nite

Woken up soo happy it's been a month!!!!I never before thought I could do it when the hold was so strong.i remember when the kids were on the 6 weeks summer holidays I think I went about 2 weeks before I'd find a reason to "pop out on my own with the pretense of going to the supermarket and sneak into the bookies and wham all my money gone worrying about how I was going to entertain the kids on nothing! How I was going to feed them as they eat so much more when they are off!turns my tummy to think about it but it's recording these memories which will stop me from doing it again and SO TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE X

Massive well done on the month...look what youve achieved. ..yeahhh x

OK so today I did a 5k beach run,made home made dinner from scratch,usual washing etc,family time and ohh let me see ohhh yeah NO GAMBLING WHOOP WHOOP,I love it now that when I say "I'm going to bed I am actually going to bed(and this time I relax and chill out instead of being stressed and anxious which I think is really bad as bed time should be a haven) when I say I'm nipping to the supermarket I am actually buying food and not in the bookies.i am not a fraud who pretends so I can cover my alter ego dizzymissy, I am just plain old me a little crazy quirky and odd but I am me my thoughts are my own,I am a great mum a brilliant cook and I'm glad to welcome me back and as for today I WILL NOT GAMBLE GOODNIGHT (I'M HERE ALL WEEK)

1.30 in the morning bloody awake again dreamt I was caught drink driving I think this is another memory from the gambling if it had Been a bad one I would drink a lot in the middle of the day then when I did the school run I'd frantically be using mouthwash.i do still drink but on a relaxed fun level which is fab also being careful because of diet, strange how these coping mechanisms ,leave us once the stress does too,also strange how our addictions lead us to other addictions I was listening to a famous ex footballer talk about his struggle with drinking but how it led to gambling and him losing hundreds of thousands but also I hear of people chain smoking whilst gambling ,any how feel better in myself but the dreams still haunt me hey just realised DAY 29!!!!!got some work on today which is great!just need to plug away chase clients get stuff paid live my life!will try and sleep x

Hi guys o*g I had a close call!I realised that two of my accounts were still active only on "time outside had only done time outs rather than exclude I couldn't sleep last night as I had "the itch"i so wanted to scratch!i logged in on one of them and self excluded straight away and the other is still on time out so I emailed customer services so it's never reopened it panics me the thought of having to wait for it to open I'm still weak!glad I've taken the action!x

Thats great dizzymissy78. Congratulations on your recovery. Keep it up. Remember as compulsive gamblers that thought of 'one small bet it won't do any harm', is so wrong and creates a whole heap of s**t. It leads to bigger frequent losses. The bookies always win in the end. Avoid, avoid, avoid. Good luck.

I realise that bookies are complete b******s I emailed via a certain email address they emailed back saying it wasn't linked to the account ffs!just exclude me!!!!!!!!

Had a bit of a funny today i think it's the reaching 31 days they say 31days to stop a habit well I properly wanted to gamble today not sure if it's the cockiness of 31days I'm over it I'm not an addict any more really struggled popped to my dad's I had just gone out to do a job I pulled the car over outside the bookies went to look for my purse I absolutely was going to gamble but check this out for a higher power being involved I'd left it at home! I did have £20 cash in my pocket I could if gambled but I wanted to but food I chose to put food on the table I started the car up and drive to my dad's but it scared me I had a huge panic attack it's a blur I can't believe it nearly happened I'm still upset that it nearly went the wrong way strangely enough one of the bookies was having a refurb and was shut I also thought that was devine intervention who ever is looking out for me thanks you I have a feeling it's my mother in law god bless her died 2 years ago what ever it's been a lucky escape and today I DID NOT GAMBLE THANK GOD X

Try snail mail? Get someone else to find the postal address or find it via Companies House on the GOV website. Quote all identifying details, say you're a problem gambler and ask for permanent self exclusion.

CW

And the self exclusion (over on Oldhamktf's threads) if you've not already done it...The thought of those greedy sharks keeping all those millions of pounds that you're gonna win (not) if you cave should help keep you sane!

Well done!! Mirror image...the debt too xx

Thanks guys your the best pick me up xxxxx

Hey dizzy...well done you for kicking the addiction into touch when it tried to grab you again...
Your doing grand. ...keep plodding on love xxx

Tucked up in bed with no resources to gamble god a really scary day I thought the urge had gone then wham it was there! !!so glad I didn't let u guys down I was near it who ever was watching over me I'm grateful thanks nite x