goodbye dizzymissy78

Well done nearly at 50 days and yes everything is not all sorted but palbd are in place for it to become sorted. One thing that does seem sorted is your mind you seem in a much better mental state and that will only keep improving as long as you abstain and maintain.

KTF

I agree I have targets now and I keep very busy kids break up this week and working hard so brain is not straying and it the wanting to gamble is easing love that in November my loans get paid I feel excites about that!thanks for stopping by x

51 days feeling a bit down today still struggling with the devistation my actions have caused permanently being skint what the hell was I thinking worrying about money but November! November things will get better xxx

54 days whoop whoop enjoying real life bought a 10ft pool for the garden with a pump ВЈ40 bargain nice days off can be cheap now sat enjoying the sun cold cider and nibbles no thoughts of having a few spins (especially as hubby not here and playing golf so it would be easy)life is good I can't complain we are healthy money is always a struggle but some how I manage November like I say things will get better loans will be relayed looking forward to that and now I owe my parents ВЈ750 from £1300 I consistently pay then every week regardless of how tough it is because in mind I would of easily gambled that every week (and a lot more)so I know I can pay them I still get chased and still trying to organise payment plans it has not been easy particularly council tax!but nothing is as hard as living with addiction not sleeping spending bill money wondering how I was going to pay for food or petrol still don't like opening letters or answering the phone but things are getting better!llove today sat here enjoying sun and my kids and some peace of mind day 54 who would of known x

59 days bit the bullet yesterday and contacted the payday loan companies to arrange payment plans to my relief 2 of them accepted and even though I'm sad it will take to next year to clear it the pressure won't be unbearable and I can live; that was the best advise people gave me here don't ignore it I wish I'd done it sooner still waiting on the 3rd company but if accepted it will free up £500 per month how the hell did I get in this mess also they free the interest meaning the debt is payee much quickly this way I can concentrate on my priority debts like the council tax I still need to sort things are slowly working out slept much better last night!

Well done for making the call, told you it would be worth a try, if you ask for help and support sometimes you get it, coming up to a couple of months good going that girl keep it up

Well it's 61 days I'm completely shocked just over 2 months how come it feels like a year ago it's quite bizarre the thought of gambling seems distant and a bit alien now I think obstaining really works but I remember how tough it was in the beginning felt like my arm had been cut off a habit so strong more familiar than brushing my hair or cleaning teeth.im glad it feels distant and I'm so much happier the money thing is difficult but in 61 days I've made so many changes contacted all the people I owe money to and I built that up to be awful and in fact I was surprised at how easy it was I guess they are used to it more than anything it's the time is takes sending emails and letters but it's mostly done now and the relief is huge!I still worry when the post comes but the guilt of what I done is slowly easing and I've set my sights on a new future I want to own my own place and be debt free and I know from the money I've wasted in the past I can do it!I write these logs so I can look back on it and never forget this has impacted my life so massively I need that reminder x

You ok missy x

Heya hun I'm. Good havent been coming on here much as the time goes by gambling seems to be becoming a distant memory altho I'm still really not safe I realise,I have absolutely no temptations but then kids are off .we are buying a puppy I'm very excited and still battling debts as per usual how's u?and thanks for caring xxxx

Good to hear your still with us...school holidays keeps us mum's and nannies busy !
Exciting news about the puppy....start collecting the newspapers for the puddles ! Lol
Stay safe x

o*g feel like I'm having a baby I can't wait for long dog walks and enjoying the outdoors I love living real life not sat in front of a screen I feel like I've had cataracts and now I'm seeing for the first time in years everything in HD ,life is hard financially but my guilt is going and I'm dealing with each day as it comes thanks for your support nice when someone has your back xxxx

80 days tomorrow feeling pretty damm good ,don't hate myself anymore just feel a bit foolish why didn't I do this 2 years a go thanks for the second chance and thanks for this site being here couldn't of done it alone x

I'm all good things for checking up on me.

Good to see you're closing in s the century club and the gambling fog is clearing and you are getting some clarity in your thoughts. As for the regrets of not doing it sooner we all have those but that's something we can't change but we can and you are changing the future.

KTF

Thanks for your message means a lot x

Thanks for popping in dizzy. ..I'm all good thanks.....been mega busy with family and work. ...addiction behaving itself ...so feel quite at peace at the moment...
Great to hear your doing so well...can't beleive how those days have built up for you...and it's all down to you ...well done honey...your doing great...x