HARMONY !

Hi shiny

Wow that was the quickest week ever ! Lol

No just a quick thank u for the post I'm off to bed let the night owl take over , phones goin away tomorrow so just me and fp for a week

I wouldn't be goin away if it wasn't the likes of urself and others who av been there for me in my times of need so a nice little gentle pat on the back for u and go to sleep knowing u helped someone turn their life around now that's somethin to be proud about

And there's just not me hundreds more so even if it's just for tonite my humble friend be very proud

Thank u

Castle2

Hello my dear friend, thank you so much for popping into mine. I was there when you changed your name, you just didn't know it 🙂

I have continued to follow my friends journeys on here, manys the time I wanted to speak, but was too afraid to.

I wish that I could say that things have been good but in all honesty, they have been worse than ever, but I am drawing on all my strentgh to turn this mess around and get myself back on track.

I have to do this ODAAT, its not just the gambling its the whole shebang.

Once I get my head in the right place, I hope and pray that I can get ME back, Ive lost myself along the way.

Will explain bit by bit as I heal myself, just gotta get the mindset right.

Thank you for being here for me my friend and for continuing to call me your friend.

Early morning chats coming up !!

Take care Shiny,

Cameron

Hey,

Missed your tuesday post somehow! Been a busy bee but still I don't like missing posts. I think I like to look out for you make sure you are still firmly in that middle. However, I don't need to because I saw you freewheel past me just this morning. I like to do that myself especially on a run, after negotiating a hill it's nice to freewheel down the other side.

Anyway, I talk absolute wind as normal. Good to see you still middling and in addition dipping, tackling, and winning.

Flagg

Morning Shiny,

Yup, Im up and about as usual. As you say I got through yesterday unscathed, and I know that I can quit gambling, I just need to face up to the reasons of WHY I do it.

So much cr** going on in my personal life and I find myself running for the "***"(slots) when it all gets too much.

One day, my friend, One day.

So, enough moaning, what about you ? You are doing amazingly well, I love your middle situ, sounds a great place to be, and you sound pretty content with life.... you go girl !!

Have a great day, Take care friend,

Cameron

Good afternoon ,

Busy busy busy that how I would explain my life in the last two days .

But in a good way , not in a foooooooook it,I need to escape into a gambling frenzy to get away from it all

Dads this morning application to St Dunstans completed , washing done , dinner made, duty job completed and the VAT sorted .

So know its meeeeeeee time .

Settle down to my easy reading book , lol it's is about a serial killer .

No it really is , lol

Maybe this is the reason I am not sleeping well , may need to try mills and boon , as for 50 shades of grey do not even go there !

So all is good in the middle lane, still free wheeling , ,no punctures , no bumps and praise the lord no road

works .....

Shiny xxxxxx

I've just read a great book called 'Glue,' I couldn't put it down. (joke).

Glad you're well and happy Shiny, busy is good thing to be, you never see a melancholic ant do you? Played hockey again earlier, much more civilised this time, she's learning thank goodness. It's good that everything is organised, especially your father, now you can relax a little.

Touch wood, I'm sleeping better now, the Nytol do genuinely seem to be working, although I do exceed the dosage. Nothing worse than having your 'talking head' on at three in the morning so I hope that you're getting some sleep also.

Keep in the middle Shiny, that's the road to contentment. It's nice that Cameron's back too, probably took a lot for him to come back but I'm really glad he did, now he'll have a proper chance to mend himself, like we are all trying to do and become the person we are happy with.

Take care

Steve

Shiny,

Thanks for the post,yes I do get what you say very much so,and for me my constant pace I give to recovery I think on occasions has overwhelmed the folk around me, but as I have stated many a time I think a trait of the compulsive gambler is to go gung hoo at life, f****k the consecquences this is something I am getting alot of satisfaction harnessing and using for the things that count, e.g the profit margins of my latest stock take today are up 2.1 % enabling a decent bonus next week, cash to spend on worth while things to congratulate our eldest two's recent achievements,something in the first half of my life the one at it would have been a pipe dream,followed by a stack of broken promise!!!!!Today no chance!!!!

Thanks again and your eldest seems to have found her path with many years ahead to enjoy it, well done to her.

Duncs stepping ever forward never back.

NO BET today.

Hi Shiny,

Read your post on Duncs diary about your daughter.....wow...what a credit she must be to you ...access course....really found her feet!

Even though she stumbled....like lots of kids do...she has found her path....You gotta give yourself some credit mum!

Your doing grand job Shiny!

Hugs from Posh Womble....................xxxxxxxxx

Hi shiny, thanks for the support, its ALWAYS appreciated in these difficult early days. I am doing ok, just keeping busy helps a lot. I hope all is well in your world.

Take care

Mark X

Just want to say that I made sure, this time, that I made the six hundredth post on my thread, before you could pinch it again.

I've become a petty, pathetic shadow of my former self. Look what you've done to me shiny. Oh well, take care.

Steve

Morning Shiny,

just popping in to wish you a great day, and to congratulate your daughter on her wonderful achievement. Stand up and take a bow Shiny Mum, your girl done good 🙂

Take Care Friend

Cameron

Yo,

Thank you all for your messages .

Yes I am very proud of my youngest , she has really sorted life out , and her future looks very bright .

But in the far reaches of my mind there is still a little and honestly I do mean a little worry that she will stray off the straight and narrow .

I suppose that comes from living 2 years on a knife edge . And must be the same for the parent , partner , friend or family of a compusive gambler or come to that any one with an addictive personality .

But for now alls good with her , and alls good with me .

For today that is enough !

Shiny xxxxxxxx

I do worry massively for the younger members in my family about what lies ahead for them.

It's mainly due to the fact that gambling opportunities are simply everywhere right now and one small experiment could lead to a massive downfall which we all know about.

I just pray that I know about this experiment so that I can give them experienced advice!

NT

Hi Shiny

Thank you for the post, stay strong Shiny, deal with one problem at a time, the pressing one first and so on, we can reach the mountain top, one step at a time.

With regards to your eating, rather than cut down look at your diet and change a bit at a time, replace carbs with more protein, eat more regular but smaller portions, drink a lot of water and slowly introduce exercise into your regime.

Do not use scales, if you do weigh yourself every two weeks.

Good luck!

Bless

Luther

Yo,

Thank you for your advice Luthery and I will try to take it on board.

The thing is though , an eating addiction is like a gambling addiction.

We could say , oh you have a problem , just bet a penny a time . Does not quite hit the spot though .

Eating drinking gambling I have very little will power .

So great i have been bet free for nearly a year , but I can not eat a single chocy buscuit ,as one leads to another , leads to another and before you know it the whole packet has gone I do nothing in moderation .

Knock that into touch , I think more worry more , visit this site every 20 minutes , knock that into touch I become obsessive and manic at work. Or smoke more . Sort those out , a week or two later the gambling urges get stonger , or I start to drink more .

But that's me and that is my life time battle , so I just keep on battling , on which ever compulsion , obsession has at that time taken me over . Always trying to keep the gambling right at the back of the line , as for me it has been the most damaging mentally .

Again thank you for you advice and I really do appreciate it , just wish it was that simple .......

Shiny xxxxxx