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I am on it, there is so much more out there than gambling.

Excellent, keep it that way mate!

Hi Matt

Sorry to hear of things with your ex have turned out this way, but as you said this is what she wanted but expects you to still pay sky & internet, in my eyes you have done correct as this was her decision to split but still expects you to fund her lifestyle and pay for these things ! It's very hard mate when we get horrible messages from the ones we love not to be hurt, but we have to stay strong so we don't slip back into the gambling world. Things will get better but sometimes it's very hard to see when this will happen, but if we stay gamble free for ourselves, our live become more manageable and everything around us also improves !! Keep your chin up mate and let's stay GF !!

Darren

Hi Darren

Funding a house mortgage etc while I was expected to sofa surf. She has used her daughter like a weapon against me and prayed on my good nature in wanting the best for them. Facts are now though I need to move on with my life and can't do that tied up financially it's gone on too long. She has stated on many occasions she is worth more than me and I will never see her daughter again so there's nothing left for me to deal other than move on and heal my horrible open wounds of hurt. I still love them and always will but the decision has been made for me.

She made her decision a long time ago now and I'm still in limbo. Time to put my new life foundations in place now. A gamble free, trouble free life is ahead of me and I can't wait.

Matt you are getting through this and growing stronger day by day.
Keep it up, you're worth it! x

Hi LML. I am getting through this and only God knows how. Masses of regret obviously but my new adventure is awaiting me.

One day I will feel worth it but right now it's time to concentrate on me and taking the small steps to freedom and some happiness at some point.

Day 149 begins.

Had councelling last night, she has told me to look on the future as a new adventure rather than holding onto the regrets of my past. We can waste life in regret. I struggle with this part a lot, looking back. I wish it was all different but it will be in the future. A life of autonomy and free of self harming behaviours.

Keep going everyone.

Keep going Matt as tough as it is the only way is the future.

You've done a great job in getting this far you will get there you will see in a year from now you will look back

Stay strong Stay G/f

Malc

Cheers Malc,

I hope so! I want this all over now so I can really go again but properly this time.

Hope all is good with you.

Well done.

Malc

Hi Matt

Stay strong mate and yeah at some point we have to think about ourselves and if that means moving on to pasture new then that's what it has to be, it's onward and upward for you even though you are still hurting but I'm sure you can and will come out stronger on the other side. All the Best and keep your chin up !!!

Darren

Thanks Darren

Thinking about myself is completely not my bag, the gambling etc was selfish but it was an addiction, an illness now I am free I can see the wood from the trees. My life has to move forward, the emotional blackmail nearly destroyed me but I now have to move forward and get to the end goal of a new, happy gamble free, trouble free life.

Day 150 today, a little mile stone I guess. No urges, no gambling and inner strength growing.

Day 150 WOW keep going mate you are heading in the right direction, there will be many up and downs on our recovery but it's how we deal with this when it happens !!

Thanks Darren.

Day 151 begins. Busy weekend ahead so looking forward to that.

Stay strong all!

Keep going mate 200 days will come round in no time.

Have a great weekend.

Malc