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Thanks Malc. Hope your journey going well too.

150 days! Your milestones seem to whizz round!
Keep doing what you're doing because what you're doing is fab!! x

Thanks LML. I dunno about whizz around, I definitely feel like a huge ammount has happened in this time! I am still gamble free and going strong. Never again!

Day 153 today. Had a great day out at te football yesterday. Busy day today too. Hope all are staying strong, keep going!

Matt

Woop 154 get in there 200 will be here in no time.

Good on ya

Malc

Thanks Malc. Yep day 154 begins. No interest in gambling, no urges and I now consider myself an ex addict. I feel free of it, I truly do. No complacency though. Hammering into my debts and I know my financial future is secure.

I am still very emotional and wish I had addressed this all sooner but one step at a time and my life is on it's way to being re-built.

Hope you are staying strong Malc

Brilliant what a result good on you just remember and watch your back this horrible thing can come from no where and before you know it boom it has started all over again.

I self excluded myself from that other betting shop on Friday happy days and to be honest I dont have the time or the energy to bet some much more to life.

Malc

That is the thing I have been there a few times before where I felt I had it under control but this is so so different. I feel like I understand it. It is not about will power, I am not weak willed, probably completely opposite. If we can gamble like we have despite knowing the damage etc that is someone very strong willed. I now feel like nobodty can win gambling so there truly is no point. I am happy to abstain and never feel those feelings again. The buzz or high it gives us is what non gamblers feel on a daily basis. So lets be non gamblers, life is so much more enjoyable.

Well done Malc, good call. Take away the options and you won't be able to gamble.

Day 155 begins.

Bit of a nightmare day yesterday having to get a locksmith to break into my own house in order to collect some documents. My ex denied locking me out on purpose. I have been beaten down by all the mind games but still no gambling.

Great result day 155 woop that is massive,

I know how you are feeling with all the mind games, easier just to take it in your stride and move on. Things will get better infact they are ready are better.

180 days that will be half a year good on you great stuff.

Malc

Hi Malc

I just feel so sad today that it's come to all this. I love those girls so much and it literally means nothing. A lot of tears shed last night and this morning. Really really tough on my heart and it continues to be. I am so close to that rock bottom place I just want to feel some genuine happiness again soon becuase I am desperately sad.

Matt,

You know and I know you can not change the past only the future. I cried for about a year when my Ex and her two boys left. Things will are getting better, you just need to sort out a few other things and move on your life will become good again.

I know how hard it is but there is nothing we can do, move on be happy be the better person keep a morale high ground.

Stay strong things will turn around you will see.

Malc

Hi Malc

I have never known pain like it, at least I know I did truly love them, I have never loved like this before. I am doing my best to stay strong and positive but wow it is hard.

Thanks Malc, your words do mean a lot.

Matt

Sending you a hug Matt. You can get through this. You've come so far already. x

Thanks LML, what I would do for a hug in real life now. Only positive is another day gamble free, no urges.

I should be proud of myself but still feel so lost. Life has to get better from here but it does feel a very long way off.