Hi Matt
Just had a catch up with your diary mate and keep up the good work and the good days are now starting to outweigh the bad days and this is what we strive for isn't it ! I will have a watch of that video later on when I've got more time available.
"It's good to talk and take it one day at a time"
Darren
I would say I am 50/50 good days and bad. I know there is only one way through this and that is to feel and deal with all the pain head on though.
Hardest times of my life but I have to get through it. Day 168 today.
Big news today is my boss has just promoted me to Business Manager! I feel pretty shocked because I've had an awful time and this has come from nowhere!
All good things come to those who deserve it.
Well done, see told you things would start looking up.
You will see.
Stay Strong Stay G/f
Malc
Thanks Malc.
It is a weird feeling. WIll make my roll here a lot more bearble now as I am free to work the business however I please. My previous hard work has paid off. Have to use this as a tool of motivation and drive myself forward again now.
Just want to say, 'good on you Matt!' Great news regarding your promotion!
You have been through so much heartache but the positives for all your soul searching, determination and positivity are starting to shine through.
Loved the post #379 regarding your aunt. Being able to show people we care costs nothing and brings so much joy.
In sure in the not too distant future you're going to meet your true love and when you do she's going to be one very lucky lady! x
Congratulations on the promotion Matt and a massive well done on almost 6 months bet free
Best wishes
Congratulations on the job Matt.
Thank you all so much. Means a lot to know people are following my journey and keeps this diary alive. The promotion will give me an added bit between my teeth so that will help my day to day.
My personal life is still very much in limbo with my house still not sold and my ex not yet responded to an offer of a buy out, she is far too busy it seems! I truly want to fulfill my potential now and be the guy I know I really can be. I have a huge heart now completely unlocked but very broken. Time now to put that back together in positive ways.
Thank you all again so much
Matt
I feel your pain mate,
It's so strange when as you say your doing well in work, things are going good in certain areas and you still can't stop gambling. If you stopped you could probably afford everything you want and more but there is always something that drives you through the door into the bookies pockets.
I am looking at going to see a GP and discuss CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy), Reading a self help book (The Easy Way To Stop Gambling - Alan Carr) Using the helpline when i feel the urge and making a point of updating my new thread on here every day.
I think the only way for me to quit is to remind myself every day. I need to stop putting my head in the sand. Recovering from what i did to myself and getting caught out and doing it again when my confidence comes back a bit.
All i can say is i hope you find what you need to get through this difficult time. If someone somewhere has genuinely managed to stop gambling then it is possible!
Hi Kev
my gambling is 168 days in the past and I feel it will be forever now. My troubles are my heartbreak of losing my fiancГ©e and her daughter, it truly ruined me.
i have read the book and it is fantastic and I really hope you get something from it. I fully recommend you get some professional help too it's what set me truly on the path to a gamble free future.
good luck mate
Day 169 today. Not far off 6 months free of my addiction. I feel confident in the fact I will never turn back to it either. I have come through the most traumatic events of my entire life in the correct way. I do feel sad for my loss but I know i have a lot of potential to fulfill now.
Stay strong everyone
Day 170,
No bets, no urges. Never again will I put my life at risk the way I have done for so long. Time to work hard and fulfill and enjoy my life now.
Stay strong everyone.
Must be day 171 today woop only 11 more to go and that will be 6 months, great job great result.
I just read your diary again well the first 3 pages anyway take my hat off to you what you have been through and managed to come out the other side, your a top man.
Bring on the 182.5 days.
Malc
I can't bring myself to read all that again, far too painful, I was in utter despair and close to a breakdown, or worse.
My ex still f#cking with me, she already has someone else but I know I am better off without her now. I just want my limbo sorted one way or another and get rid of the house or buy her out. I put an offer to her but she has yet to reply. I have to move back in a couple of weeks as have no where else to stay so I am under no illusion it could all get pretty toxic again.
One thing I won't be doing is turning to gambling, my life can only get better now I am free of the horrible beast.
Thanks for your comments Malc, glad your still GF too.
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