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Day 185,

Thanks LML.I am coping somehow, although no real idea how. To think I was going to be marrying a girl who in the space of less than 10 weeks can fast forward into another relationship, introduce her child to him and have him in the family home I shared with her as though I never even existed is pretty messed up. More fool him though, I am glad to be free if I am that easily dismissed. I feel for the little girl though I really wanted her to be my daughter.

My niece is amazing, it is her birthday next week. Uncle Matt will be spoiling her rotten that is for sure. Love her so much!

Councelling tonight, a lot to talk about hey?!!

Matt you had a very lucky escape there matey. Very lucky. Who does that, who plays mind games with a child like that.

Now I am going to be very business like, can you get the 'house stuff' dealt with sooner rather than later, or even allow the estate agents or solicitors to do it for you. I know that will incur some charges, bit I just feel that by having to keep going around there, your still in that situation. You cannot move on, until everything is tied up, and I get that. But rather than opening it all up every time you go, maybe just put some distance between yourself and herself...

Take care and have a fab weekend ahead.

Julie x

Hi Julie,

I know, it is nuts what she is attempting to do. It is so so sad as that little girl is really going to suffer with that as an example.

It is all in the hands of my solicitor now, looks like I will be buying her out of the house and then she can sail off into the sunset with the new guy and I can start in my mission of living a complete and fulfilling happy life in future.

Day 186 today, I had a councelling session last night and she has officially checked me out and is confident her work with me is done. I have to admit I feel amazing at the moment, like a new adventure is just around the corner. Nothing can break me now after what I have been through.

Well done with the councelling nice one, Move on with life be a better person be happy. Only way to live.

You've done a great job to get this far keep it going and you will get to 365 in no time again great effort.

Malc

Thanks Malc

Appreciate that. Feel free of it for the first time in my life now.

Day 187

First GRand National I have not bet on since I can remember and was I bothered?......No.

Stay strong all.

Well done Matt - it's a great feeling isn't it?!

Take care and enjoy the rest of your weekend.

Our Lady

Thanks O L. Yeah feeling really positive about my potential future now.

Day 189 today, less than 2 weeks until day 200!

nice work 11 days to go get in there.

Not long now and 200 will be here then 365 that will be a day to party. Day off work few beers well deserved.

Stay Strong Stay G/f

Malc

Thanks Malc,

One step at a time but I am starting to feel really proud of myself in all this.

Glad to see your still on it too mate. Keep going!

Hi Matt, Stories like you really inspire me, you've had a lotto contend with, your a fine example of even with struggles you can overcome gambling, Massive Kudos for approching the 200 day mark

Day 1 for myself, sure there will be ups and downs but I hope one day to be in your shoes nearing the 200 days 🙂

Hi Naneek,

I appreciate that, big part of the reason I want to keep this diary going. If I can help to inspire anyone it is all worth it.

Day 1 is the only place to start building the foundations, just remember you can never win. Every day gamble free is a day richer and not just financially.

I will keep an eye on your diary and I wish you well in your progress.

Matt

Day 190,

Ex still driving me barmy with her refusal to get a solicitor for me to buy her out, saying she can't afford one. She is also saying she is going to take me to court to force a house sale instead as I won't agree to a 50/50 split of equity as my parents are owed some money when house sells! Her sense of entitlement is literally incredible. I can't wait until I am free of her madness, she has accused me of all sorts it barmy!!

The nightmare continues but hopefully it will be concluded before my day 365 on here!!

And they wonder what drove us to gambling - NOT ANY MORE stand tall and take it all face on deal with it day by day, just smile and walk away then let the rage out where she can't see you.

I feel your pain I was clearing out my house last night and my Ex left so much stuff it was scary looking through it all painful but needs must.

Anyway you are doing a grand job

Stay Strong Stay G/f

Malc

I am happy in my new found freedom but could do with her grasping a bit of reality and realising at some point she has to leave the house! She is pleading poverty and can't afford to live etc, well go get your new fella to leach off of!

Sounds sh#t mate but keep going Malc