Here we go!

Well done Colt for starting a diary. Good place to put down your thoughts and in time re-read to see how far you've come. Some days will be easier than others so always try and remember the end goal is not just abstinence from gambling but becoming a better version of ourselves

Thanks Sam. One day I will look back on this first message with a huge sense of pride

Last couple of days have been easy! No urges or even thoughts. Then today because I was in on my own and bored my mind was racing and sorry to say had a relapse. I opened an account and deposited 100 pound. Thankfully I managed to give my head a shake and never gambled it. Still feels like a loss tho.

That's a dam good result if you can deposit without gambling!! Good will power there..... I think if I was in your position that £100 would belong to the bookie now.... Every credit and keep strong

Cheers pal appreciate it

Fair play to you Colt, have you self-excluded from the new account you have opened? If not, it only takes a couple of minutes!

Yes mate self excluded straight away.

Still going strong today. Wife working so I have my son all day. Busy day so I'm confident What to do what to do

Good stuff keep those barriers in place. Enjoy the day with your son, I'd love to be able to spend all day with my little guy! Remember money can be earned back but we only get to spend our time once

26 days and still gamble free. I've been working away the last week so I've bin busy- I haven't even thought about gambling.

Although I did get an email through rom an online casino that I had bin using. Obviously no names but it sounds like fister glean.

Basically I had a pending withdrawal waiting to hit my account. They wouldn't release it until I had send "verification documents" they wanted the equivalent of war and peace off me which has taken me most of the day to send and satisfy them.

Anyway isn't it amazing how they can take money out of ure account with no documents what so ever but to put it back in they want to make it as difficult as possible.

Maybe me bin naive but there seems to be so much with the gambling industry that's slightly underhanded

Anyway 26 days that's worth Sumert.

Ciao for now

Couldn't agree more with what you are saying about withdrawing Colt....but when you complain they just tell you it's in their terms and conditions.

Well done on the 26 days....keep racking up those numbers.

Damo

Cheers pal will do

Dam it was all going so well. Had a relapse on Friday night. 500 pound when my wife was out and my son was in bed.

I actually cried. Haven't done that in such a long time (nearly 10 years) so back to day one

Hate the websites with these online roulette and blackjack. So so rigged. Why am I not wise enough.

I've got to get some resilience when the urge comes. I've got to do this. I don't want it to be the end of me I don't want to lose my home or worse my family.

Very low right now and another week of working away. I've got an awful dull aching in the bottom of my stomach which I know is anxiety. I'm actually in pain with worry. How did it get to this how did I let it do this to me.

Well after that little set back I'm now feeling better. Had a gamble free week and haven't had any urges. Payday yesterday so abit more sent out and paid off.

Feeling positive. Two weeks off with the family now. Lots saved up for and planned duch as days out and shopping.

Feeling good today

Gamble free- 8 days

Debt paid off- 3%

20 days down. No urges feeling good. Had a nice two weeks off work. Still skint but feeling like I'm fighting back now.

Gamble free- 20 days

Debt paid- 6%