Holly’s diary

✅ GF 

Seeing the end of the week being GF and how it feels to be ! 
I feel calmer more alert and less irritable, this week the urges are not at the front of my thoughts yes they are still there but  I have found more distant and easy to push away my being busy .

Very happy with this week and here’s to the next week ?

Holly 

Days are just being ticked off and going so fast 

I remain GF and it feels great to be able to say that 

Had some urges in the week thought about it and then thought how better I feel not gambling and I won that battle ✅ to me 

Holly 

??? Congratulations Holly - 30 Days Gamble Free ???

Respect to you dear Holly

May you have a life of great pleasure

Gamble-free this weekend

Means Monday you'll still have your treasure.

Wishing you every success on your life-changing adventure.

Aum ?

Thank you Aum 
Hope your keeping well ?

Lovely words for the week ahead this will be in my mind as I go to 40 ✅

Holly 
 

Dear diary 

Been some time since I have wrote on my diary

Life Is going so well still GF and it feels amazing ?
I feel a change in me and Better for it, looking forward to restrictions lifting and being able to see my family and friends .

The Urges have subsided and I find myself focusing on other things that make me happy 

GF free life is the way to be 

How lovely is it to Wake up with no dread and have money to spend on nice things instead of panicking how I’m going to get through the month and will I be found out.

I know there will be challenges ahead but at the moment I’m on track, I take it day by day but I’m just living my best life right now and it feels Great

I can see how far I have come and that keeps me motivated roll on 100 days and that Will be a personal milestone for me ??

Sun is shining ??☀️
Holly 

Excellent progress Holly. I am pleased you are feeling positive and taking one day at a time.

In the past you showed great courage by picking yourself up after a couple of setbacks. Respect to you for that and congratulations for tomorrow when you will be 70 days gamble free.

Aum. 

How time has flown 

And glad to say GF and strong at the moment I have had days it’s been difficult and I think how can I ?! but I have come to far now to undo all my hard work and what will it achieve absolutely NOTHING apart from disappointment hurt and anxiety not worth pressing that button for that quick fix. 

My relationship has improved and I am honest now when I have those thoughts we discuss it the openness is what I didn’t do previously, think the shame around  having to admit a relapse is why I hid things but we just get deeper in the hole. It was part of my recovery and I have to accept that and make sure I see that coming as I progress in my recovery. 
There will be more difficult times ahead but as long as I stay open and honest I keep the urge at bay for that day and it’s all we can do. 
I am proud of where I am today to see how I was back last year Makes me more determined. 
Holly 

Another 4 weeks since I last wrote on my diary time does go fast .

Had a lovely last few weeks with my family the sun was shining and great fun in the garden and pool.

played some lovely games and have found myself so content.

Not thought about gambling and I don’t want to either those memories will be with me forever Fun and content 

183 days I don’t constantly Check anymore on the days I just get on with life and go from there 

But 250 will be a milestone so let’s keep going strong ?? 

Holly 

Gamble-free for half a year

Holly having fun

Playing games & splashing about

With loved ones in the sun

Proud of you Holly

Aum

?

Thank you Aum for posting on my diary 

A lovely post to wake up to ❤️
Holly 

Dear diary 

1 year Since I joined this site trying to make sense of what was actually happening to me, I have has some bumps along the way in getting to a happier place.

I’m thankful for finding this site for being able to access therapy for finding people who understand and care to just write you a little something back to you when needed in those dark times.
Still a mountain to climb but a little step at a time is getting me closer to the top of my mountain .

So thank you to everyone who got me to this point and continue to do as it really meant a lot to me 

Holly 

Hey Holly,

Its great to see your doing really well with your recovery, life on the other side is so much better. Like you this site is very valuable to my recovery also.

Keep going you'll soon be at the peak xx

Proud of you Holly and pleased to see you rediscovering yourself.

Summer can be great fun with plenty of adventures now we have renounced that horrible addiction

Best wishes now and forever. 

Aum  ?

Thank you secret and Aum lovely encouraging words as always 

Holly