i absolutely love..... ....not gambling

in replying elsewhere, I did a quick tally, think im now 253 days gamble-free

then I thought about how long i was gambling for, I made it about 5,110 days, so a way to go yet before Ive levelled things out!!!

new app available, free, gives you your estimated life expectancy....mine was 90 so just following on from my last post that means I have approximately 21,535 days left of not gambling.

so 255 down, 21,535 to go..... not sure I'll be updating this stat everyday!!! 🙂

Hi Dan

Congrats on 250+ days gambling free, I am not that far behind you, come on 300 days.

Shaun

I have a MASSIVE addiction to gambling, which is why I choose not to do it anymore.

Hi Dan.. well done on your gambling free time. I once went for just over a 1000 days without a bet and then gambled again as if the time in between had never happened. But from what you say I don't think you are going to get complacent like I did. Thanks for your support... S.A 🙂

well done dan you truly are an inspiration. Wont be long unil you have the year up!!! Keet at it!!

Hi Dan

I really enjoy reading everyone's posts but look forward to reading yours for some reason. Stalker...maybe!! Take care

Bobby, smiler, sa,

Thank you!

have had a few moments during this week, I think the hardest thing for me to comprehend is that for the rest of my life I'm probably going to have to consciously think about not gambling.

It's fine in the sense that this week I thought about the fact I could gamble, opportunity, very overworked and very tired, pretty fed up/bored so could gamble, not for one second did I actually want to nor did I even think about making it a reality, just a few sweeping thought that I could, of I wanted to. Im now wondering if it's because I've been on here a bit more, reading everyones diaries, passing on my ''''''wisdom!!!!'''' to others, so do I stop and then relinquish one of my cOntrols or do I continue on the site and have a constant reminder of gambling in my life?!

Still life Is 10000 times better than December, I come to that figure as it's about what I've paid off of my debts!

Long way to go still but I am still choosing not to gamble!

Hi Dan

That is a good point you make. I wish I knew te answer. For me I need to post on here at present. Hopefully I'll learn to live without it but for now it is a saviour. Take care

Dan,

Just thought I'd swing by, and thank-you for your continued contributions to my diary which have been invaluable. Your 9 months gamble-free has really spurred me on following my latest 'blip'. Good luck mate.

Well done Dan on your continued success and the support you have shown to me. keeping in touch with the forums and peoples stories reminds us of the horrors of compulsive gambling when our own personal misery starts to fade. Thast how I look at it anyway. Thanks again for passing through my diary.. S.A 🙂

Hi Dan

Don't worry about thinking 'no more gambling for the rest of my life'. I gave up f**s 11 years ago, haven't touched one once, but still think about them.

It's just a thought we will get about gambling that will last 2 to 3 seconds tops.

Shaun

Hi Dan

Wanted to comment back regarding your post on Michaels thread but thought it was unfair to keep posting on his.

I can only imagine how much anger you'd have had when 13 landed and the session timed out. If an urge comes into my head, I think about that time they screwed me.

But I do honestly believe its only when events like these occur they make us more determined to stop.

Well done on your progress.

I spend a bit of time everyday on this site, normally only two or three minutes, read a post/diary then 'move on' - I find it helps remind me of my past pain and struggles, however I try to balance this with not spending too much time dwelling, in fact I keep forgetting about my own diary,

so thanks for the posts people, much appreciated....

Brad, going back to the number 13, the worst bit for me, is that I knew what I was gambling against, I knew not only was I chancing the odds that themselves where not stacked in my favour, I was also gambling against the 'system' which throws up too many, far too ,many differences from my own experiences of the real roulette tables - I knew this yet I still hoped I could overturn those odds.

It's just such a sad way to spend a lot of time, destructive, pointless, soul destroying and yet highly addictive

still not point in thinking about what ifs or spending all my time regretting past decisions, I choose to gamble and now I must live with the consequences

a few more years of hard graft and debt repayment and then hopefully I can treat my wife to the life she deserves, not least for standing by me through all this, I just hope that I'm a good enough person that I could of done the same thing, had the tables been turned.

Was really pleased tonight to see a post from andrewdp on his diary, not heard from him for a while and as someone who is battling his addiction in secret, my heart goes out to him, I have found it hard enough, even with the support of my amazing family

I do find it scary just how many people relapse but I also really admire those that have a slip and then recover quickly, it tales huge guts to own up and I know from my own experience that once id started again I would very quickly spiral out of control

still I think I can start looking forward to a year without a gamble now, roll on the 4th December, I know it a way yet but I like my targets and I'm now in sight of two big milestones - I also know what my next milestones will be - but lets get to these two first

if anyones is reading this then all the best in your own battle

I cannot win, because I cannot stop

still no gambles..... really looking forward now..... just hoping i stay strong, no reason not to, one year is only a couple of months away..... can't believe it in someways but then I've probably never comitted to anything in quite the way I have to stopping gambling