Hi Char
Sorry to read that things have been hard. Try to focus on the positives and don't give a lapse too much power. You have made such great progress over the past few months- you know you can do it!
Take care
Irene
x
Hi Charlotte
2 steps forward and one step back. That step back feels like crapola but all you can do is keep trying and moving on. Great to see you are still examining what else you can do and handing over the cards to your bf. Keep going char, it feels like when you have this episodes of gambling after a long period of absence that nothings changed and you haven't learnt anything and its all hopeless. I think those previous efforts and determination do add up and you do learn, all be it at times slowly. Its just the cloud of pain and the numbness of falling back into gambling masks this, progress not perfection as Rach would say.
Rob xx
Sorry to hear about your slip - I know all about them! Just gotta pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start again. You know what It takes and you will get there again. Your doing the right thing. This gambling addiction is a tough thing and people don't realise that. Slips are all part of the recovery process. You just have to make sure you learn from them and let them add to your strength and make you realise even more that your doing the right thing giving up. I know you will be alright, your very strong and you will make your family proud. Good luck and take care. You can do this!!!
hi charlotte
long time no speak sorry I wasn't around when you had your slip but ive had mine as well so hopefully we can go back to day one and build up that tolerance once more. I even went to gam anon.
take care
carl
Been gambling heavy 4 a cpl of wks now, I h8 the person I have become. I am beginning 2 feel like there is no hope 4 me. I'm.so miserable snapping at everyone that matters. Sorry 4 the down post its just how I feel rite now.
Hey Charlotte
Sorry things are not so good for you right now. Please try to remember just how good you felt while you were not gambling and how well you were doing.
We all get urges, I had a couple this week, fueled by ads on my mobile but I quickly talked myself out of them
Take care and look after yourself.
Feb.xx
Hiya charlotte
Its a tough journey and on it there will be low points , they will pass that strength will come back just need to get a few days gamble free to start believing again
Support is key and not sure what u av in place away from here now u dont use it so much , its difficult to get that balance right with here and the outside , the support will always be here for u as u av given so much in the past
Try and stick around if u can
Castle2
Charlotte
I am so sorry to read that your in a bad place at the moment, to gamble brings out the worst in us that's for sure.
Those feelings are the results of your addiction taking hold, for posting well done, you have a choice my dear friend, one day at a time, it is not easy, the compulsion to gamble is relentless in it's pursuit of taking all we have to give and more.
My advice, take all the help you can, you are not alone, addiction feeds off that, isolating us, dragging our worth into the gutter.
Well put those blocks in place, take things at your pace and most of all be kind to yourself.
it's unconditional.
Duncs stepping forward never back.
Don't give up Charlotte. You know it's not doing you any good. I used to think of it as me sabotaging my future. "Self-sabotage" I often thought as I gambled.
I suppose, you may want to take a step back from the fruit machines and ask yourself, if this pain is worth it, or do I really want this year after year.
Gambling is a chain reaction, one bet suckers us back in. Next time you see one of those dreaded fruit machines, remember the hassle they have caused and give it the finger. 🙂
There is no more one last bet with this. You have to choose to stop.
You're not clueless. You're aware you have a problem.
As you've come back on here though, it shows you can win the fight. Don't give up on beating this. You can do it.
Stay strong & positive
All the best
Alex
hey there lovely char
so sorry to hear that your in a bad place right now, if its any consolation im only just in front of you.
look at all those times i said i would be interested in gam anon, and now ive attended and will continue to because i realise now just from that one session that i will never be cured its about how to control it. and i musnt become complacent, anyway enough rambling for one day dont be too harsh on yourself like im being remember the past is the past so today we will not gamble and make it a better day.
hope that little maddie is doing well and heres a virtual black chery magners and big hug from me
Hi
Charlotte much like yourself I have went back. Hope you get back on the right track soon.
Michael
hi charlotte
hope you managed to get through the weekend and not being too hard on yourself, remember what really counts is maddie and your little family
here to listen if and when
carl
Yo,
Hay Hun , just wanted to send you the biggest hug .
Sorry things are not going so well , but we both know you can and will come back from this .
We have all seem that strength , we have all seen what you can achieve .
Time to pull yourself back up sweet pea , and join the rest of us fighting the good fight .
Take extra special care !
Shiny xxxxxxxxxxx
No such thing as a down post Charlotte...it's all good..
Ditto Shiny and all the other people who are saying wise words...
Come back when your ready unless your on chat which is even better..keep connected.
R and D xx
Hi Charlotte,
Just echoing the other posts. Falling down is all a part of the ongoing process. I too have been having one hell of a time getting back up again after a relapse but, together we can do this. Hope you are reading and as Rach says, chatting and maybe coming back to your diary when you are ready. Your diary is an internal dialogue. A personal conversation you have with yourself. I agree again, that there are no bad, negative or downer posts. It's all good. -joanxxxxx
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