I can do this

Hi Jane,

It's a really good feeling when you get that next bank statement and NO transactions have gone out for gambling.

Suzanne xx

Thank you Suzanne for your post. Only one more day to go until it is the longest I have gone with out gambling in a good few years! It is my last day off today - back at work tomorrow - I plan on keeping myself busy with house jobs and I will be cooking my hubbie a roast dinner for when he gets home from work - I usually sit on my laptop chucking my money away until about half an hour before he gets home and pretend I haven't stopped all day! Hopefully we will both have a cleaner and more tidy home over the next few weeks xx

Lol Jane I remember those days off too well, the rush round in the last half hour trying to get things done, after losing our money is simply ridiculous and then bare faced lying to them about our so called productive and happy day off, BIGGEST JOKE GOING.

Stay strong focused and busy today, take one hour at a time if need be.

Enjoy your day gambling free ofcourse .

Suzanne xx

Hi Jane, popping by to congratulate you on your ongoing journey. Each passing day will put bigger gap between self destruction and sad feelings. Embrace the unknown and reap the benefits of aabstinence. Many many good things will come into your life - freedom and peace will never leave your side. Enjoy every minute, life is simply too short. Take care and stay strong. Sandra x

Hi Sandra, thank you for your message. I have kept myself busy today just a few thoughts of going on line - I have just kept telling myself that I am a guaranteed winner each day I don't! Back to work tomorrow so I will be too busy to give all of this a second thought xx thanks again Sandra xx

Hi Jane, been reading your posts over the last week, they are quite upbeat which i find encouraging for me. I have been on/off here for a couple of years, thought I could beat the addication (called chasing my losses) but as many of us know on here, you think a week reading/posting you are cured, how wrong was I. I have no debt but have lost an entire pension fund to roulette, i have been 'clean' for 9 days, have to say I have never felt worse, knowing my funds will never be coming back. I had my first counselling session today and I have to say the counsellor was very positive and made me feel I have a chance to recover my dignity and confidence. Good luck Jane in beating this terrible addication, remember baby baby steps, one day at a time.

Hi Lost!

Well done on being a gamble free winner for the last 9 days!! You can do this!! From reading the other diaries the 'guilt' of past loses usually happens - I know from my own experience when I have been 'on-one' (and if you saw my bank statements) I clearly didn't think about the consequences of chucking my money in the bin!( this is how I am finding referring to losing my money on line as) I CAN NEVER WIN BECAUSE EVEN WHEN I 'WIN' I CANT WITH DRAWER THE MONEY OUT! For what ever reason I always think by putting more in I will get more out.....crazy!!

I am glad you have found a good counsellor, from what I have read they can be hit and miss. So well done for getting a good one!

I no longer want to be a gambler, I want to be a winner of control of my own life!

Xx

Good day today! I have been busy at work all day, so I am too tired to think about spending money x hope everyone else has also had a good gamble free day xx

I thought I had already posted in here?!? But it doesn't seem to of appeared. Any how another gamble free day for me xx

Hi Jane,

Well done on your gamble free days, keep going

Suzanne xx

Hi Suzanne, thank you for your message. I am having another busy day, trying not the think about gambling. I haven't thought about how much I have lost over the last couple of days - I am hoping that this is a good thing, it has helped that I have been really busy with work. Fingers crossed the rest of the day stays positive and gamble free xx

Hi Jane ,

It is so good to see your posts every time I log in. You are doing everything right and you must be in a better place since you started this journey. Have you all the security in place so that if you get a strong urge to join a new slot site that it is impossible ? This is so important. The urge will pass but it is much easier if you are unable to gamble. Scratchcards are all over the place but they are such a waste of time. They would lure you back into gambling if you let them.

Keep up the good work .

Suzy

Hi Jane,

Letting those losses go is such a big positive, because it means we are not going to chase them and therefore deposit more money that we will lose, whether we win or not.

As Suzy says you are doing everything right, and make sure all the blocks are in place and of course the triangle,

Every day you beat those urges will make you stronger, keep going and well done again.

Suzanne xx

Thank you both for your kind words and continued support.

Today I am in double figures DAY 10!!

Good day yesterday - at work tonight (just on my break) though I would pop on to my diary to celerbrate!

After tonight I have one more night shift to do then it's my days off! I have already got plans in place to keep myself busy so hopefully I won't have too much temptation, I will be catching up with a couple of my friends this week that I haven't seen for a while - which I do think is partly due to my gambling. And I have my trusty cleaning list at the ready.

Xx

Well done on ten days its early days but your doing so so well and you will soon notice the days soon become weeks and then months and keep strong but keep your guards up too thats so important its easy not to gamble but its just as easy to gamble again so keep strong keep positive and everyday YOU are the winner for not throwing your hard earned cash away x