I can do this

Day 59 today

Good morning Diary,

Sorry I haven't been around much lately, I have been on and off reading other people's diaries to keep me motivated. Last few days have been a struggled......one that I won but a struggle all the same! I am not sure why it's been so difficult as you would think by being busy with christmas it would be easier. Maybe it's all the adverts on TV??? Anyway I have managed to stay completely gamble free now for 59 whole days I have my own mini target of 70 days which I really want to reach so I won't be falling for your 'Free' cash bingo web site adverts!!!

Xx

Hi Jane

Just been reading through your diary and wanted to say a huge well done on your great efforts to remain gamble free. My experience being on here and setting myself mini goals has really helped me to remain focused and positive and along with putting blocks in place, has helped me to remain gamble free for almost two years now.

I am confident that you will be able to achieve your first mini goal and go on to set some more!

keep going - you are doing great!

Take care.

Feb.

Well day 60 is here! I really hope I can keep it up so that I can reach my 70 day mini target.

Deep down I know I am struggling and if wasn't for the fact I am self excluded I would of spent all my money.... But I am so I haven't! Aaaaarrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhh............!!!!

Keep fighting those urges Jane42, they will soon tire & leave you for a while. You have gotten here so your next mini target is well within your ***, it doesn't matter what tools you use to remain gamble free, they are all @ your disposal & this is the reason why we put the blocks in place...You may not feel it @ the moment but you will soon feel chuffed that you did & they helped!

Mini target here you come - ODAAT

Thank you ODAAT I am struggling today I know I can't get on line but for some strange reason I feel I need to!!! I need to ignore it and move on!! Keep my wits about me :o) xx

You need to breath & eat & sleep, & keep your wits about you...This is just a want & I promise you it will pass & you will be all the stronger for knowing that you can, just for today, chose no! Tomorrow may well bring new challenges but you don't need to worry about them for today!

Keep winning - ODAAT

Hi Jane,

This road of recovery is not easy. There will be some bumps on a way, but you are in control to pass through them urges and see yourself to safety. Thoughts won't harm you, they are only thoughts and you don't have to act on them. Ride the storm out..come out the winner only if just for today. Tomorrow is another day, maybe smoothest ride possible. Today counts the most.

Stay safe, sound and connected. You are Never on your own.

Sandra xxx

Hi Sandra,

Thank you for your comments, I feel a little less stressed today. Tried to keep myself busy tidying my wardrobe chucking clothes away that I no longer want - very therapeutic! I have to keep telling myself that I am doing ok and not to worry about the thought of gambling. I will just keep myself strong and focused.

It's newyears Eve tomorrow and I will be celebrating not only a new year but the fact I have kept my own promise not to gamble xx

Well done Jane and I wish you the very best of luck on your gamble free journey for 2015.

Take care.

Feb.

Happy New Year to you all!!

I have made it until the new year Gamble free!!!! Finger crossed to everyone that this year will continue that way and good luck to everyone that today is your Day 1 xx

Happy New Year...Great work on your week 🙂

May 2015 bring you the strength to sail right through to 2016 kicking the demons into touch - ODAAT

Day 64

6 more days to go to reach my mini target

I had the worst night sleep I have had for quite a while last night, I am laid here in bed willing myself to get up.... We are meant to be going out today but I am not sure I have the energy.

Loads of thoughts about gambling for the last few days all TV adverts happy smiling people playing bingo ha!! I am pretty sure I never looked liked that when I was playing.

Xx

Hi Jane42, thank for dropping by...& great work on your 64 days 🙂

Hopefully you found the energy to get up & out, it is a glorious day! The thoughts about gambling serve to remind me of where I have been & where I am today. I am able now to do the same ha that you just did & it makes me happy. In my mind the people in the adverts are happy because they aren't gambling, just prancing about in front of a camera 😉

Your mini target is in sight, keep doing what you're doing - ODAAT

Day 65

Thank you both for your comments xx

I think that all gambling adverts should have a health warning and not be on before 10pm ha ha!! I don't think I realised how many there where until I stopped gambling.

I managed to drag myself out of the house yesterday and had a look around the sale.... Didn't buy much as I couldn't find anything I wanted ended up buying a couple of birthday presents but that was about it.

A couple of thoughts about gambling but I managed to ignore them started reading a book instead which has got to be better than chucking my money away! I keep saying to my husband about how it is I have money now very strange but a good feeling! Every other christmas for as long as I can remember I have been totally skint by now and willing the days to go by until I get paid again........not this year!! I have even started saving for next Christmas ha!! I am such a sado ....

I wish everyone a good gamble free day xx

Hi Jane,

65 days, very proud of you, you know it's not that easy, but it does get easier as we build those days up, but when/if those urges come back they can be quite strong( they are starving by now lol) but they are just hideous thoughts, but do not underestimate them, concentrate on your recovery it's the only way forwards

Well done Jane,

Suzanne xx