I cannot win because I cannot stop

Hey Stu

So glad to hear from you again but sorry to hear that gambling has taken a hold again.

I think if you really want to stop and make a real effort, it is so important to put those blocks in place. Im so pleased to hear that you have done so. I also think you would greatly benefit from using this forum more and even returning to the live chats as you used to. Its worth a go to receive the extra support.

Come and join me any time on the Bright Side of the Road - It's so much better than dragging yourself down the road to ruin and despair.

Take care Stu and please use your diary as you used to - you need the support.

Feb - waiting for you on "The Bright Side of the Road".

Hey thanks Gan Eagla and Feb

I do want to beat this so much because at the moment it is the gambling that controls my life, the addiction has taken control away from me, but I want to take control back.

The blocks are on, the boxing gloves are on! although at the moment I don't feel very strong for a fight just quite weak and stupid about losing all my money again. Anyway I know I can't look back, just got to look forward. New day, new start.

Going to Mass this morning with the family, getting some divine help and intervention as well.

thanks for the encouragement guys

have a good day

Stux

Stu

Fella again welcome, I hope to see you stick around this time, this forum can offer you a great place where you won't be judged for your failings, just offered a wealth of great advice and some fantastic support.

Bottom line is my friend it is up to you to make the choice, the choice to arrest your addiction, with that those losses, not just financial but the time wasted too.

Reading your entry to this new thread, I related to what you wrote about having enough to get by.

Addiction does that to us, it makes us purely survive, get by on next to nothing.

from today enjoy the fact again that you have decided to become a winner, I hope you can again find a belief in yourself.

Recovery is a job for life, a life choice, it's a gift we can give to ourselves.

Keep taking yours

Duncs stepping forward never back

Well come back Stu,

Remember sharing your journey last year, barging through good bad and the ugly. Surely we can do it again!! Never give up giving up, support is here to take, do not turn away,,, anything is possible, strengthen your belief and determination. Happy to have you back on a fighting field. Let's do it soldier!!

Day at a time, upwards we go

Take care and b kind to urself

Sandra x

Hi Stu,

I remember the 100 days you got through last year, you did so well and there's no reason you can't do it again plus more. 100 days is just a number, its about adapting a lifestyle where gambling isn't apart of it anymore. Easier said than done i know but I think you've shown the strength to get over the hardest part in the past so can do it again.

Take care mate and keep posting

Jimbo

I have such empathy; I'm in exactly the same boat. Good period of abstention, life getting back to normal and, wham, the demon gets back in. You may not feel strong but you sound it. You determination jumps right off the page. You are stronger than you think. Hoping I am too.

Hey Duncs, Sandra, Jimboooo, NoCrisis

DAY 3

thanks so much for your posts- its a real boost to get such positive encouragement. Had a great day yesterday- no time to think about gambling. Busy day today as well. I know these first few days are torture. but I have to get through them.

have a good day

Stuxx

DAY 4

very busy yesterday- no time to think about gambling. Busy at work again today.

and pancakes later...yummm

have a good day lovely people

Stux

Hi Stu,

My friend, dear fighter please don't abandon your diary. I enjoyed our steps forward in this recovery before. I am more than willing to do so again. Always by ur side, plz don't turn away from the support you being offered. We will do this together. Step by step soldier, never give up giving up!!! You are never alone

All the best

Take care

Was nice to talk to u on chat, chin up man 🙂

Sandra x

I have just realised that even lets say and we all know we won't , but lets say we had won overall on gambling , I still think even though this would not mean financial distruction , the gambling even if winning would still destroy your life , the time it takes , the effort that we once put into spending time with our family , that even if in the same room as our family we even if we did not loose money we would still be doing nothing but thinking about gambling , not wanting to do anything worth while anymore but just sit infront of a computer or sit in the bookies or in a casino, personality change and in my case just gambling letting my house become a right mess with no time to clean as all time spent gambling , and to top all that off we also loose all our savings , get into debt and risk our homes and risk loosing our families , my point is its just not worth gambling its pointless and the sooner we realise it the better , maybe this should be a piece for my own diary but just thought mentioning this might help to deter you . to be honest my urges are seeming to get less but im only on day 10 , but I don't think without putting all my thoughts on this site I would be able to stop and without this site I don't think my urges would be getting less . my point is I think from what other people have said on your diary , that you seem to be able to stop when on here , but when you not on here that is when you start gambling again , I think there is no shame in staying on here forever if that's what it takes to stay gamble free , keep strong mate thanks simon

Hi Stu,

I hope all is ok with you, please drop us a line when you can. You are never on your own and never forgotten.

Take a good care of yourself

Sandra x