I have to stop this!!

Hi all had my tests and mostly ok so the stress levels down - been out for some exercise this eve! Maybe look at finances tomorrow! 

Matt692

Day 9 start of the open golf! A tv fest, this year I can enjoy the sport previous years narrow minded view of the players backed, getting annoyed as the fade away, this year enjoy it for the challenge!

here is to a great watch!

matt692

Golf this morning playing then an afternoon working while open on tele! Really good day and watching ups and downs of the open and not worrying about who does what! 

Heres to another day gf

matt692

A quiet time for reflection over the past 10 days - the borrow and frustration and tensio. And stress that I felt! Not working effectively, not playing effectively etc etc - then slowly calm took over! I still have big debts and these will take years. But head space is great! I feel better, but this do think is driven by barriers.

i have bought the Allen Carr book to read so  let’s see!

matt692

Double figures!! Another little milestone to celebrate, and to be proud to keep hold of! 

Now going to spend half hour reading Allan Carr to start to see his techniques to stop! 

Have a good gf day

matt692

Today and yesterday have been good days total tv golf fest! I have thoroughly enjoyed the sport for what it is, at it pure best not affected by gamble brain - let’s hope for a brilliant end tomorrow and another day gf!

matt692

Yesterday I had a full day, watching tv - golf and because I am being positive and clear in thinking I worked alongside and cleared a small amount of backlog! Built up in the days/weeks of not really “putting it in” while gambling this alongside binge eating and lack of motivation left gambling my crutch! Going back time after time. The mist has cleared and I can see forward! Lots of “to do’s” and debt to sort, however it feels if I keep moving forward and stay gf there is a better way!

matt692

Today is Monday after the golf, it will be quiet and I will need to find something positive to do today as I will need a adrenaline rush! A long ?‍♂️ maybe on card this evening

matt692

No run this evening, but a couple hrs practice this evening to iron out some flaws! Good to have a clear mind and this was time wasted on gambling in the past! Tomorrow is two weeks! Things have moved on and mind is clear, and reading Allen Carr I feel there is a way forward that is all about denial. 

Here is to tomorrow gf

matt692

Keep going, keep planning it gets easier.

Day 14 - 2 weeks ago I was sat on a train after doing my head in, a lot of money down and totally ***sed off. Two weeks later no better off financially but massively better off mentally- here is to another day gf

matt692

Hi the weather has been too hot for me, kept busy working from home, and no gambling, few thoughts and a couple of debts sorted from high rates to lower interest so savings in the future. Looking forward to the weekend! 

I have been reading the “Easy way to stop gambling” book by Allen Carr it sort of makes sense and clarified some of the addiction circles - not sure at this stage my mind will not think about gambling but I am only half way through!

have others read it! Do they follow it?

matt692

I have completed a mortgage a miss selling review and the company is saying that the solicitor thinks I have a case and should get a claim. Have others had these / or shall I avoid?

Matt692 

Today pay day!! I have paid a number of bills etc pdl coming out wed! Today has been stressful as firm failed to deliver! I am frustrated and feel like a binge!! Thus I am here writing my feelings down! Here is to a stressful day but gf!

Today is a great day! Very stressful in morning and had to check myself! My barriers did their job and a self check and I made the right choice! The afternoon worked out better, we created a response and sorted a solution and my mind concentrating tonight quiet thoughts! Happy the tomorrow will be three weeks gf!